Have all symptoms, I just dont trust my body anymore!

[optimistic1]

Lol thats a weird dream! I always have weird ones I once dreamt I went back in time to save 3 yr old me from ever meeting my dad. We not fans of each other so I guess I was going to go back and erase him altogether..the bfp and baby dreams could be you being hopeful but the only time I ever dreamt about anything pregnancy or baby related was when I got bfp..and now that I know they haven't stopped now im dreaming im doing terrible things while pregnant like drinking and doing drugs and breaking up with my bf to get back with my abusive ex. I hate those dreams but I cant stop them.

 

[theamanda]

I sure hope that they are more than just hope.. I have had a "took a test" dream befpre but oddly, it was a bfn in that dream. I think that was my bodies way of saying "nice try with the pseudo symptoms, but no go" lol. Those symptoms were nowhere NEAR as strong as mine now! Lol did you have any wierd cravings b4 ur bfp? Today I ordered chicken nuggets and (of course I had to satiate my spicy craving) chili. I dipped my nuggets in the chili and It tasted great! Like chicken parmesaun! I just cant get enough of spice, such as barbeque items (doesnt matter what kind), chili (had it 3 times so far), boloni sandwich (with mayo, mustard, and ground black pepper), sausage and gravy biscuits, and steak biscuits (from Bojangles, had 2 in 1 day!) Im actually eating chili leftovers now, so this will be the 4th time... I used to hate spicy things but I cant get enough of them for right now... Hmm... Oh! Amd I almost forgot, at 6 dpo, I think I had a hot flash... And I had another ont today while walking thru Walmart... Totally reminded me that I forgot to post that... And im 20 yrs old! Too soon for hot flashes!! have you experienced that at all and is that normal?

 

[optimistic1]

Im 20 too lol weeird!! I wish I was getting cravings!!! I used to looove anything spicy chilly is like my favorite food ever! I want certain foods remembering that I like it but once I see it or take a bite I gag and lose my appetite .. it sucks like ive been wanting country fried steak and mash potatoes for weeks and today we go to Bob Evans and I order it it gets in my face I take 3 bites it tasted amazing but for some reason I almost blew chunks everywhere! Ive been like that since the tww. I dont remember if I got hot flashes before but I definitely have been for the past couple weeks. Also major short term memory loss it sucks cant remember anything so I text little notes to myself!

 

[theamanda]

That sucks that you cant tolorate what you like! I have that with sweets such as chocolate and cookies and cake- and I used to love sweet stuff!

 

[optimistic1]

How are you feeling today?

 

[theamanda]

How are you feeling today?

Im feeling a little less nauseated but its definatley still there. Had a HORRIBLE dream last night that woke me up 3 times and each time I went back to sleep, it continued. X_X upon waking when my DH got home (he works 3rd shift at boeing) I was so tired and tore up, I went back to sleep when he did and woke back up at 12 pm! Lol been more emotional today amd more gassy (this will be the 2nd week of gas lol) and ate some garlic bread for lunch (which left me burpung up little amounts of vomit... Idk what to call that) still bloated and now getting a dull back ache off and on.. And a slight headache... My cm is slightly dry, only there when I whipe, and its clear (bad sign?) My bbt is still up, it was @ 97.9 at 4am when I woke up the second time, and vhecked again at 7:45am, and it was 98.6 so idk which temp to believe or if my temp is dropping or what lol but my dream was SO horrible! Buuuttt in my dream I was pregnant again, so we will see! Btw im kinda tore up, as my dh said that we cant test until Tuesday when my check comes in... But at that point I might as well wait till the next day when af is supposed to show! GRRR!! Lmao... How do you feel?

 

[optimistic1]

Burping up bits of vomit is what I been calling acid reflux which ive had off and on since conception it sucks and totally nasty. I feel really positive about your symptoms its reminding me alot of my tww I wanted to rip my hair out not knowing if I was pregnant or not! Bf didn't help none when I told him I wanted to test he laughed at me and my period was late..he thought it'd be negative. If you test Tuesday thats the day I get to see my little gummy bear for the first time! I feel okay so far had a angry phase earlier went to wendys got a sandwhich and the bun was hard pulled into mc Donald's to get a fresh bun and they put weird condiments on it that didnt match my Wendy's Burger plus it was a girl that has hated me for no reason except my boyfriends wouldn't leave me for her since freshman yr in high-school that rang me up for my food..I was so angry if my bf had pulled back in and let my fix my order I probably would have asked for that girl specifically and slapped the buns on her face and asked why its so difficult for a fast-food cashier to get an order right and then left. Other than that I had a nice and easy day!

 

[theamanda]

Lololol I hate women like that! I wouldve done the same, but wouldve fought my dh to the door lmao! I was craving country fried steak today since mentioning it and my mom in law brought us dinner- amd ironicly it was country fried steak! I grinned from ear to ear as I cooked! I just had more globby yellow cm upon going potty and im smiling ear to ear even more! Im sure I look like Cheshire cat... Lol maybe God sent you to me to help me thru this tww, and thats why u get to see your joy on the same day I test! I sure hope I get a bfp! I feel like im recieving sooooo many consecutive inconspicuous signs! Yaay! I looked back ay my calander and actually saw that I AM due for af on Tuesday, my charting was just a bit off due to a wierd cycle last month. Tuesday coincidences- I think not!

 

[optimistic1]

I definitely have my fingers crossed for you! If you are pregnant I can (try to) keep you sane til your first ultrasound I didnt have no one telling me everything will be fine so I fought myself back and forth like everything is fine (get a cramp) OH MY GOD EVERYTHING IS NOT FINE!!!! But im sure its fine God's been on my side lately and I know if he can help no harm will come to me or my gummy bear! Make sure you use fmu when you test I held mine in for an hour waiting to get to the store and got immediate second line. Does your guy think your totally insane for wanting to test? Mine said "you say the same thing every month that you think your pregnant but then you get your period " I couldn't even convince him with the "but its diff this Time" thing cause I've said that every month I sure proved him wrong..butt munch!

 

[theamanda]

I definitely have my fingers crossed for you! If you are pregnant I can (try to) keep you sane til your first ultrasound I didnt have no one telling me everything will be fine so I fought myself back and forth like everything is fine (get a cramp) OH MY GOD EVERYTHING IS NOT FINE!!!! But im sure its fine God's been on my side lately and I know if he can help no harm will come to me or my gummy bear! Make sure you use fmu when you test I held mine in for an hour waiting to get to the store and got immediate second line. Does your guy think your totally insane for wanting to test? Mine said "you say the same thing every month that you think your pregnant but then you get your period " I couldn't even convince him with the "but its diff this Time" thing cause I've said that every month I sure proved him wrong..butt munch!

Thankyou sooooo much! He doesnt say much about it because I try not to think about it lol. But all he said was we have to wait until Tuesday.. I have 2 step kids, 6 and 8, so he pretty much knows the game lol. We just took a warm bath and I had to get out early BC my heart was racing! I checked myself this morning (as my heart has been racing off and on for 2 days) amd im at 105 beats per minute! Not to mention a new symptom that started 3 days ago, this one is annoying- I dont have ANY acne on my face, as I usually do around this time, but I DO on my breasts! Thats never happened before! O__O

 

[optimistic1]

Acne ahhhh I hate it I have black heads and these tiny unpoppable bumps on my face and I got bumps on my chest lower back and sides...I sometimes get bumps on my lower back when im too anxious there like stress bumps but I dont feel all that stressed anxious yes!!! Bit not so much where im freaking out. I've heard alot of ladies not able to take hot baths cause they lose there breathe and there heart starts beating out of control I would not know I have a dumb stand up shower!!! Everything sounds so positive for you I will be absolutely stunned if its not your month! Have you gotten any sharp prickly pains in your tummy or achey ovaries?

 

[theamanda]

I have been getting small sharp pains that catch me off guard, and im like woah but they only last for like a milisecond and actually I havent had them since Friday when I saw the small spot of blood in my yellow cm. ive only been left with a dull ache in my back.. And today I had a kindof sharp pain in my stomach, likr an inch and a half down from my belly button and over to my left about 2 inches..but I assumed that was just my intestines telling me its time to go, as ive been constipated all day... *blush*. should I be having more cramps right now? Usually I DO have them right about now, due to PMS, but I dont seem to have them much this month, nore are my nipples erect as they usually are..... kinda off topic, im so scared to fall asleep due to my bad dreams last night! Lol tee hee

 

[theamanda]

And one more notable thing, my breasts hurt kinda different this month in the semce that my nipples dont hurt AT ALL, but the area in between my breasts where the cleavage kinda stops, there is a small spot in the same general area on both sides about the size of a quarter that are a bit swollen and very tender to the touch... Like more so than the rest of my breasts. That and the area closer to my armpits, but not directly UNDER my armpits... If you dont mind me asking, where do yours hurt?

 

[optimistic1]

I was asking cause I started getting bad af cramps a week before my period was due and I had achey ovaries and some sharp pricks. But not everyone gets cramps like that or they come later..what were your dreams that scared you that bad?? (If you already told me sorry bad memory) oh I remember you asking if clear discharge was bad I have no idea I just know that I had a lot more cm in my tww than any cycle before that and its still here..odorless white sometimes yellowish always there and annoying!!! As for my boobs the soreness comes and goes. But I noticed when they are sore its more on the top and outer sides.

 

[theamanda]

It was a dream that my dh and I split up, and he started seeing other people. Then we got back together, and went to buy a car. When we were buying the car I remember saying we need a 5 seater "because I was expecting". So we got one and went home. That night I caught him with one of the women he had been seeing (keep in mind my dh is very faithful and would never do this to me, bless his heart lol). And I stormed out and ran into the woods. On the way I was attacked by spiders and an angry elk. She was mad because I fell into some elk graveyard pile... then I woke up the first time. Then I went back to sleep hoping i. Would dream better... Nope. It continued. As I walked back to my house ready to confront my dh, there was blood coming from my step sons window. Cops were outside.I ran to the door and asked dh what was wrong. He said "Bubs dead" as he sobbed.I ran inside and they were actually bagging up his body and for some reason, my grampas body... (they said he had been asleep on the top bunk of the bed) I talked to the cops and they said they didnt know what happened but my son looked like he was in pain when it happened... He was leaning up against the wall with a pained look on his face. Then I woke up again, this time in a sweat and about to cry.. I took my bbt, it was 97.9. Then I went back to sleep.. Surely I wouldnt continue the same dream right? Wrong. The dream continued that alot of other people began to misteriously die too. The world was considered apocalyptic. I woke up in my old high school, and there were buses trying to evacuate. I ran thru the hectic halls, only to be held back by 2 ex bfs. I got away from them and ran, only to be left by the buses. So I went back to get my drivers lisence from a class room and my pet ferret. I left the school and met some crazy dude, who helped me. I let my ferret go in a field, and hopped in a car and sped off. Then that was the end of that dream. I woke up a 3rd time and it was morning. My dh and I ate breakfast and I just spaced out. Couldnt stop thinking of my dream... I had the overwhelming feeling I wanted to call my son and check on him... (hes at his moms for the weekend). Then we went back to bed at 8 and slept till 12, during which I had ANOTHER bad dream about my little sister that lives in Maryland getting raped... I hate these dreams SO much! They are sick and twisted! I just finally got the nerve to talk to dh about them before he left at 9pm... :/

 

[theamanda]

Sorry its not more in detail, it would just make it more to write and that would just be too much to type on an Android keyboard! Lol but my dreams were WAAY more in detail...

 

[optimistic1]

Wow those are some pretty scary dreams I know how you I suffer from terrifying dreams I dont always remember them but I remember this overwhelming feeling that my body has been taken over theres alot of pressure and feeling like I cant move or breath..its very scary I wake up in hysterics I never seen a doc figured they'd just blame my past and anxiety and put me on zombie medicine im good! I have some I remember and those ones always always include someone being murdered in my family and im watching but I cant stop it. Its definitely hard to sleep after those dreams..I don't always tell my bf my dreams when they bug me cause I have back to back dreams that he's really mean and treats me like crap and I end up leaving him for an ex and I feel like he'd get the wrong idea like im worried about us he always gets freaked out that one day im going to leave him..he's the best thing in my life and def by far nicest boyfriend I've ever had why would I leave him if I want to have a family with him he's crazy!!!! But atleast you were able to talk to him about it. Im used to my dreams being as if I just woke up in a parallel universe..everyone is the same but personalities and stuff that happens is off. The vivid dream thing didn't scream pregnant at me the always being about pregnancy did though.

 

[theamanda]

Im guilty of the ex dreams too, anf I keep mine to myself too. I know hed be offended but I, like you, would never leave my dh. He is the best thing that ever happened to me! for the past 2 nights so far ive had dreams 1 directly about pregnancy and getting a bfp, and the other about the scary thing I just told ya, and in the dream me mentioning I "was pregnant"... Part of me is kinda interested in what ill dream of tonight and the other part is TERRIFIED! Lol I so cant wait to test and for you to see your little gummy bear! Only 1 more full day till Tuesday! Im nervous and excited. excited for obvious reasons, but nervous that ill get let down by another bfn... Btw, I only had nausea like twice today, but they were barely noticeable... If my nausea is lightening up for 1 day, is that a bad sign? I know im asking soooooooooo many questions but I just googled it and lots of people say its ok, while others say its not... I dont know what to believe lol!

 

[Buttercupps]

Sorry to hear about you having to worry... I think ill probably be the same! Lol. But I plan to test on the day of my missed period, but I may crack under pressure and test a few days early if I still feel the same or worse... Part of me is praying to God that this is it, while the other half is trying not to get excited, as I have had so many mock symptom months... But this month just feels so much stronger and different.. Idk how to explain it... I just hope I dont have the flu or something instead because thatd be a double drag!! D: Good luck on your bean, I know things will go well for you. Idk if you are religious or not, but I will pray for you!!

I know exactly how you feel!! OMG I have had a lot of your symptoms as well. Especially the gas and constripation...eww...i know! I have also had SERIOUS food cravings expecially ice cream. I just feel different all around. I have another week and four days till testing and to be honest with ya im goin crazy! I want to know soo bad! I have also experianced mock symptoms and it sucks, so i totally know how you feel! In the past, I have thought i was preggy and it was a false alarm! This time is very very different so im keeping my fingers crossed! :wave:Good luck to you and I hope the best for ya!

 

[Buttercupps]

Im guilty of the ex dreams too, anf I keep mine to myself too. I know hed be offended but I, like you, would never leave my dh. He is the best thing that ever happened to me! for the past 2 nights so far ive had dreams 1 directly about pregnancy and getting a bfp, and the other about the scary thing I just told ya, and in the dream me mentioning I "was pregnant"... Part of me is kinda interested in what ill dream of tonight and the other part is TERRIFIED! Lol I so cant wait to test and for you to see your little gummy bear! Only 1 more full day till Tuesday! Im nervous and excited. excited for obvious reasons, but nervous that ill get let down by another bfn... Btw, I only had nausea like twice today, but they were barely noticeable... If my nausea is lightening up for 1 day, is that a bad sign? I know im asking soooooooooo many questions but I just googled it and lots of people say its ok, while others say its not... I dont know what to believe lol!

Thats another thing i have been having odd dreams to....