Laura80
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I've just found this section of the forum, I didn't even realise it was here but I'm so glad it is. I feel so guilty and there is absolutely no one I can talk to about it.
Anyway, I already have a daughter, she is almost 2 and she is my entire world, my perfect little princess and I love being able to do girly things with her, play dolls, buy pink frilly dresses etc. We planned another baby and were lucky to get pregnant in our first month of trying. I was really hoping for another girl, I want my daughter to have a sister who she can play dolls and tea parties with, I wanted them to grow up as best friends and be able to talk about boyfriends/crushes etc. I've had a really strong instinct that I'm having a boy, although I've ignored it. But at my 20 week scan this week I could see the boy parts before the ultrasound woman pointed them out. There is absolutely no mistaking he is a boy, and the woman said she is 100% certain. My husband is over the moon, he cried with happiness, but I had to fake a smile and pretend to agree that is brilliant news. Don't get me wrong, I was thrilled to see a beautiful, healthy, happy baby on the scan. I do love him and I love to feel him wriggle around inside my belly. But I can't get over this crushing disappointment that I'm not having a girl. Everyone keeps telling me that it's fantastic, now I have one of each. But I'm online looking at baby clothes and crying because I don't like any boys clothes and I have to pass by all the beautiful pink newborn outfits. What do I buy him for his birthday? I don't know how to play with cars or dinosaurs and I don't like football or boy things. And what when he's a smelly teenager who does unmentionable things in his bedroom?
I'm sorry for the long post, I just needed to get it off my chest, I can tell nobody how I'm feeling. My husband has asked am I disappointed but I lied and said no, how can I tell him all this when he is so estatic? He already suspects I feel differently and he's worried I will have a favourite child. I worry about that too. I've already told him he can take the boy out alone, whereas I do not let my daughter out of my sight at all.
Will I get over this? Surely when he is born and I see him for the first time I will love him as much as my daughter?
Anyway, I already have a daughter, she is almost 2 and she is my entire world, my perfect little princess and I love being able to do girly things with her, play dolls, buy pink frilly dresses etc. We planned another baby and were lucky to get pregnant in our first month of trying. I was really hoping for another girl, I want my daughter to have a sister who she can play dolls and tea parties with, I wanted them to grow up as best friends and be able to talk about boyfriends/crushes etc. I've had a really strong instinct that I'm having a boy, although I've ignored it. But at my 20 week scan this week I could see the boy parts before the ultrasound woman pointed them out. There is absolutely no mistaking he is a boy, and the woman said she is 100% certain. My husband is over the moon, he cried with happiness, but I had to fake a smile and pretend to agree that is brilliant news. Don't get me wrong, I was thrilled to see a beautiful, healthy, happy baby on the scan. I do love him and I love to feel him wriggle around inside my belly. But I can't get over this crushing disappointment that I'm not having a girl. Everyone keeps telling me that it's fantastic, now I have one of each. But I'm online looking at baby clothes and crying because I don't like any boys clothes and I have to pass by all the beautiful pink newborn outfits. What do I buy him for his birthday? I don't know how to play with cars or dinosaurs and I don't like football or boy things. And what when he's a smelly teenager who does unmentionable things in his bedroom?
I'm sorry for the long post, I just needed to get it off my chest, I can tell nobody how I'm feeling. My husband has asked am I disappointed but I lied and said no, how can I tell him all this when he is so estatic? He already suspects I feel differently and he's worried I will have a favourite child. I worry about that too. I've already told him he can take the boy out alone, whereas I do not let my daughter out of my sight at all.
Will I get over this? Surely when he is born and I see him for the first time I will love him as much as my daughter?