I have another scan on Thursday at 11.30am (so will know if/ how things are progressing in approximately 35 hours and 20 minutes) According to my last scan, I should be 8+6 then. Please let this little blob be heathy and measuring correctly.
I'm in a state already. I say that - I've been in and out of this state for a few days. I go from thinking it's all fine and the odds are in my favour to panicking that my breasts aren't sore today so it must be another mmc. I guess that's the reality though - it is an all or nothing situation with no middle ground outcome.
I'm wondering if the additional scans are good for me or not - on the one hand, I have reassurance / knowledge if what's happening every ten days or so but on the other hand I get in this mess in the lead up to them. I think what I really what is an us machine at home so I can check what's going on every day! I can't wait until I can get my doppler out for reassurance on sleepless nights like this (or I can hold a cold can or bag if frozen peas next to my bump for a reassuring kick)
I'm really envious of an acquaintance - a couple if years ago she found out she was pregnant but not until she was over six months! Imagine how lovely that would be - no first trimester anxiety!
Why is that the most important thing in the world is the one we have no control over? I hate this. I love the outcome of a second pregnancy and I love the next stage of pregnancy but I actually hate these first ten weeks when I'm feeling crappy(although never quite vrapoy enough to set my mind at rest)and not knowing how it will turn out.
Sorry for rambling - just can't sleep and needed to vent my frustrations. I wish I could just go into hibernation for the first trimester and wake up when everything g is a little more certain.
Hope everyone else is having a good day.x
I'm in a state already. I say that - I've been in and out of this state for a few days. I go from thinking it's all fine and the odds are in my favour to panicking that my breasts aren't sore today so it must be another mmc. I guess that's the reality though - it is an all or nothing situation with no middle ground outcome.
I'm wondering if the additional scans are good for me or not - on the one hand, I have reassurance / knowledge if what's happening every ten days or so but on the other hand I get in this mess in the lead up to them. I think what I really what is an us machine at home so I can check what's going on every day! I can't wait until I can get my doppler out for reassurance on sleepless nights like this (or I can hold a cold can or bag if frozen peas next to my bump for a reassuring kick)
I'm really envious of an acquaintance - a couple if years ago she found out she was pregnant but not until she was over six months! Imagine how lovely that would be - no first trimester anxiety!
Why is that the most important thing in the world is the one we have no control over? I hate this. I love the outcome of a second pregnancy and I love the next stage of pregnancy but I actually hate these first ten weeks when I'm feeling crappy(although never quite vrapoy enough to set my mind at rest)and not knowing how it will turn out.
Sorry for rambling - just can't sleep and needed to vent my frustrations. I wish I could just go into hibernation for the first trimester and wake up when everything g is a little more certain.
Hope everyone else is having a good day.x
