well yeah it might sound really selfish of me but everyone wants different things. people who are ttc may be devestated that they don't have a baby and i recognise that completly, but being pregnant in a particular circumstance can be equally as devestating. obviously i can admit that i f***** up and i was so stupid, but i can guarrantee that i have cried just as much, if not even more than someone who cannot have a baby. that doesn't mean that im right, because im not, i probably sound like a complete bitch. however, if i was ttc, i would be more pissed off about the fact that some girls are using abortion as a form of contraception, but i have chosen to keep the baby and i think, for me, that is enough. im not taking away my baby's right to live, im just trying to balance it out, so that i can still have a life aswell.