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onetwothreebp
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I am having severe anxiety regarding the gender of my child.
I have a terrible relationship with my mother and with my sisters. I have never gotten along with them. I have been betrayed and burnt by "best friends" before and learned to trust myself and my OH only. I don't have a lot of 'girlfriends' or anything, I usually hang out with my husband or with him and his friends. I have a few girl friends but I only see them twice a year or so.
I'm not very maternal, I didn't want children at all but agreed to 2 for my husband's sake. When we were pregnant with our son, I wanted a boy so bad. I got nervous and had panic attacks plenty until I could finally have a scan and find out. I was so relieved to hear I was having a boy because I feel like more maternal instincts are required with daughters and I don't want a relationship with my daughter like I had with my mother.
Now I am pregnant with #2. Even before I was pregnant, the gender was on my mind, every once in awhile the thought would cross my mind and I'd stop and give thought to it. However, it's gotten A LOT worse since I became pregnant - my anxiety is now full blown and I am PETRIFIED of having a daughter.
I don't find out for another 2.5 weeks (and that's even if baby cooperates!) but how can I calm my anxiety? What if it's a girl? What if I have a daughter? How can I survive gender disappointment? I want another little bo sooo badly, my son deserves a best friend.
Any tips/advice/stories welcome!
I have a terrible relationship with my mother and with my sisters. I have never gotten along with them. I have been betrayed and burnt by "best friends" before and learned to trust myself and my OH only. I don't have a lot of 'girlfriends' or anything, I usually hang out with my husband or with him and his friends. I have a few girl friends but I only see them twice a year or so.
I'm not very maternal, I didn't want children at all but agreed to 2 for my husband's sake. When we were pregnant with our son, I wanted a boy so bad. I got nervous and had panic attacks plenty until I could finally have a scan and find out. I was so relieved to hear I was having a boy because I feel like more maternal instincts are required with daughters and I don't want a relationship with my daughter like I had with my mother.
Now I am pregnant with #2. Even before I was pregnant, the gender was on my mind, every once in awhile the thought would cross my mind and I'd stop and give thought to it. However, it's gotten A LOT worse since I became pregnant - my anxiety is now full blown and I am PETRIFIED of having a daughter.
I don't find out for another 2.5 weeks (and that's even if baby cooperates!) but how can I calm my anxiety? What if it's a girl? What if I have a daughter? How can I survive gender disappointment? I want another little bo sooo badly, my son deserves a best friend.
Any tips/advice/stories welcome!