hi all, im new to the site, i was googling for miscarriage support and found myself here. me and my hubby lost our baby at 7wks on 8th december. well it was confirmed on 8th, but i started bleeding on 4th december. the hospital were utter useless, ive had no support from them, and i feel completely confused, useless, lonely, angry, desperately lost and upset etc. me and hubby have been arguing in the last week, and we never argue. what makes the whole situation worse is that my little sister is due to give birth in 3 weeks, and one of my best friends has told me that she is pregnant and is due 5 days after my due date was. i dont know how im going to cope with firstly seeing my sister have a baby in a couple of weeks when its all so raw, and secondly, to see my friend be at the stage i should be, and then be holding her baby the same week i should have been holding mine. im insanely jealous of my sister and her big bump, but for my friend its weird, ive developed more or a kind of hatred, and then i hate myself for feeling like this. the rest of my friends seem to have disappeared, and i dont feel i have anyone to talk to, and im going slowly mad by the constant crying and feeling like ive got nothing to live for. people keep telling me the best thing is to start trying again, but im scared, i couldnt face going through this again, im utterly crushed. i want a baby, desperately, but i just dont know what to do to start feeling better. Please help.