How to keep going

[Kats816]

Hi girls
I have been long term ttc for nearly two and a half years. I'm currently on cycle 4 of chlomid, with unexplained infertility.
This month has been particularly difficult had a serious dose of the chlomid crazies and two of my best friends are both pregnant due within weeks of each other.
I'm mentally exhausted, how can the most natural thing in the world be so difficult for some of us!! The two week wait is becoming the most torturous thing analysing and looking at every little part of my body and good old chlomid giving you the pregnancy symptoms!! It just seems cruel

How do you keep going, I'm sure everyone has bad months but how do you keep going

Thanks xx

 

[madtowngirl]

For the tww, I just do everything in my power to keep my mind off of it. I try to fend off every "but what if I'm pregnant" thought and live my life as normal. I refuse to test until I'm late. It gets harder the closer I get to AF.

But as for how to keep going when you're so frustrated?

Honestly, I do everything I shouldn't. I eat fried food, I drink wine, and throw a little pity party for myself when AF comes. Then I pick myself up, and try again. I feel like I *can't* stop trying. I know too much, about when I ovulate, when AF is due, when we should bd...I can't forget it. But in the meantime, I try to just live. I don't want to avoid that trip, or that party, or plan my life around the "what-ifs," because frankly, I have burned myself too many times that way.

But the number one thing that keeps me going? This forum. Knowing I'm not alone. Having a place that I can come to and just cry and vent, and no one is going to tell me "you just need to relax" or blow sunshine up my butt, trying to cheer me up. The ladies here are honest, but not brutally so, and supportive.

to you. I know it's hard. But keep going.

 

[Kats816]

Thanks for your reply, one of my friends who has just found out she's pregnant was a lttc so we were buddies and helped each other through. Now she's pregnant I do feel a bit lost, my husband is amazing but there is only so much I can go on to him about!
It's just so hard isn't it!! I try to pretend its not everything to me but it is!

 

[smurfy]

Hi I totally understand how you feel, I think we have been trying for about 3 years, when I think about it one of our closest friends has been pregnant for 9 mths and their son is nearly 2 years old, that really makes me thing how have we kept going. I was on clomid for 3 months and decided not to take last month, as my period started I had awful stomach ache and couldn’t face more misery. My husband has a slight low sperm count but not really bad. We are currently in process of starting IVF I think the time is defo now.The last few weeks after having the bad stomach ache I now have a cold, I think my body is really tired of the emotional rollercoaster and everything around it. Having said that the last few months I have been more relaxed as I truly believe only IVF will help us now. I have been having nice weekends away, going to concerts, exercising a lot and some spa/pamper treatments – good luck I feel your pain. Whats your next plan of attack? I do believe they hand out clomid too much x

 

[Emmi]

Ahhh - how to keep going - now there's the question....I wish that there was a magical answer that we could bottle and give away. I think it's more of a question of not how we keep going but how much we don't want to give up. It is a total roller coaster but no matter how bad it has got and how many tears I have cried after clomid and a failed IVF - I just keep picking myself up and keep going.

And agree with the other ladies - live your life and enjoy that party, that glass of wine or that trip. And yes - there are these amazing forums where you never feel alone or isolated.

Baby dust to all of us ladies - here's hoping that our time will finally come.

xxx

 

[Kats816]

Thanks ladies, I have two more cycles of chlomid to take but really not sure I can bear to take them, this month truly has been horrific and I've read if you don't get pregnant in the first three cycles you are unlikely to. We have an appointment at the clinic in April and have been told we will be referred for IVF
Booked a holiday in April so that is cheering me up.
Thanks for your support just been a very difficult month in my journey xx

 

[Redfraggle]

I think you keep going because you have to. Because if you aren't trying then there is nothing.

Good luck. Hopefully it won't be much longer for you.