Hows your relatioship after loss?

[stephanie1990]

wow, it really wont be different when you get your place, good for you

i love Bichon Frese , they are sooooo cute, good choice!!!

aw i love fish lol, plus they are really easy to look after, i miss my dog cause he stayed with my mom when i moved out, i live in an apartment and dogs wasnt allowed , i miss him on days like this, where its really sunny, i love taking him for long walks, he has only got little legs so he gets tired really easy bless him lol.

im just like you!! i always use to ripp out bad days i diarys, but now i do look back and think, was it such a bad day?? and i try to think about any happy parts to that particular day. i try and stay positive

i think our oh's would totally understand our feelings in they read a diary

my oh read my fertility diary the oh when i was out, it got stuff like what day im on etc, he was amazed at how i take the time out to chart lol

xxx

Yeah hopefully lol!! It's a kind of make or break thing I guess. But we have a lot of arguements because he stresses about money, and obviously that's a big stress when moving into your own place
Haha thank you OH wants a staffy or alsation though :/
Aww bless him, so is he far away from you? Otherwise you could have days where you walk with him

I'm glad you see the positive side! Was a bit too late for me lol, but I'll learn from my mistakes

Aww that's sweet of him It shows how interested he is if he took the time to read it My OH isn't being supportive at the moment

When you planning on starting this scrapbook then? x x x

ps. If it isn't too cheeky do you have facebook?

it is stressfull with money etc, i cant lie, we struggle a bit, esp since he is the only one that works atm, but we get by. its do able

oh so your oh wants a big dog, i do like big dogs, but my mom and dad have always like little dogs since the house was tiny, my sister has a big dog, she has a grey hound and it takes up so much room lol

well my mom and dads is only like 5 mins away in a car so the dog isnt too far, iv visited him today and took him out bless, but i think the heat was peeing him off lol

im planning to start it asap!!! im looking forward to it, mind you, i dont really know how to do one

aw sweet, im sorry he is not being supportive
my oh is being a pain today, being snappy whenever i talked to him, i hope he is over his mood when he gets back from work

typical men

i dont have facebook iv never had it, i think im the only person in the world that doesnt have it

xxx

 

[xxxjessxxx]

Yeah I bet it is!!
Mind you, Tesco's has saved us loooads of time with their value range Some of it I actually prefer more than the famous brands

Haha yeah he does, I like big dogs but it wouldn't be fair to have one as I don't expect us to have a large house waay until we're much older.
Nawww I love grey hounds
So how many siblings do you have?

Aww I'm glad they're not too far Atleast they are there when you need them! Do you have nice places to walk him then?
We have a lovely woods and river which is nice on summer breezy days

Haha bless, I want to start mine too - maybe we could post pic's of eachothers and show some stuff that we've done in them? We could share ideas too!
And there's no right or wrong in doing them either, just as long as you express how you feel or shows what you want to get accross

Yeah they're too much effort sometimes. Does he cling onto his moods then? My OH is the worst at that! He'll do it until you say sorry even when you don't need to and it was his doing! pfffhh lol! Well me and you will stick together

Lol, there's never really any point to it, I hardly ever go on mine neither, just sometimes handy to have more than one means of contact x x x

 

[stephanie1990]

your like me, i have tons of the value stuff in the fridge lol

i only have one sister, shes 11 years older then me!! so she acts like a mother sometimes we get on really well though so thats all goody

how about you??

tbh, in dudley itself, theres not much walking areas that are nice

i do love the shropshire hills though and scoob loves walking on them bless him

we shoud defo post pictures and give each other ideas ,

i told my oh what you was doing for your anniversary and he said it was the sweetest thing ever

i tihnk its a man thing now, my oh will sulk all day, this morning he went into a right old mood before he was late for work, he wouldnt even talk to me, he said it was my fault which it wasnt, he just wont get up when the alarm goes off, he was in a right old mood, he left the house at half 6, usually he will text me when hes on the train etc, he didnt text me once, i called him and he put the phone down on me, then he turned his phone off and i was like, what have i done?

in the end i said sorry even though i didnt do a thing, but i take it all with a pinch of salt, as bad as it sounds the word sorry doesnt mean to much to be now cus i say it when iv done nothing wrong

i hate men lol

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[xxxjessxxx]

Ahh some if it is soo nice though!!
Bless, It's good you get along though
I have 2 older brothers and 2 younger sisters, my youngest sister has a different mum though and my other sister has a different dad lol
Yah definitely! I'm planning to start mine next week
Ahh poor you hunny They are right bums sometimes, It's awful having to say sorry sometimes too isn't it? Urgh bloody men!!!
I hope it gets better for you hunny
Have any plans this weekend? x x x

 

[stephanie1990]

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hope you have a great day today, lots of loving lol

my plans for the weekend are dtd as im ovuating, fingers crossed all the hard work pays off lol

got any plans for the anniversary and weekend??

xxx

 

[xxxjessxxx]

Awwww thank you
Yesterday was ok I suppose, he had a few grumpy moments lol but all in all it was ok. We went to our favourite restaurant to eat, which was nice
How did your weekend go? Been doing lots of ?
I hope you catch that eggy hun! I'l have EVERYTHING crossed for you x x x

 

[stephanie1990]

aw that sounds nice, me and my oh have never been out for a meal before

im glad you have a good time

my weekend was ok thankyou yours??

ye i did alot of dtd, i know this sounds bad but im so glad we can now take a break from it cause it was so tiring

im hoping things pay off for it for it though, FINGERS CROSSED

XXX

 

[xxxjessxxx]

Really? Oh my god! lol.. you should! It really is a lovely thing to do!
Yeah my weekend wasn't too bad, just a chillaxing one lol!
Haha bless, well if you've caught that eggy then it'll definitely be worth it!!
I'l have my fx'd too!!
Got any nice plans this weekend? x x x

 

[stephanie1990]

yeah we should go for a meal really but it can be hard bugdet wise as were are trying to save at the moment for the the future

my weekend is pretty busy, im with my sister the whole time, im off to the lake district for a little getaway, i cant wait, never been before and tbh it will do me good to get out the house lol , you got any plans?

i hope you dont think im being nosy but i read another post by you today about your awful time you have had latley and im so glad that things are better now, all the things that your oh says is the same as what mine says to me too. you sound like a really lovely couple, such in love and thats great, you two will become great parents

if you ever need to talk, you know where i am

xxx

 

[xxxjessxxx]

Ahh bless... I like your smart thinking lol
Ohh my god!! that will be lovely for you!! Ouou have a fantastic time wont you! Does your OH mind then?
Well it's OH's birthday this weekend, but doing an all weekedn thing, so yeah it's verrrry busy lol
Noo that's fine hunny
I was going to mention it actually, but because it's all just been and gone now, and because I'm tired from it all now I thought I'd leave it Thanks hunny, I reaaly appreciate that
Me and you will get our chance one day hey x x x

 

[stephanie1990]

tbh my oh is sooooooo happy when he gets peace and quiet to spend on his beloved games lol, so i dont think he will even noticed that im gone

i hope your oh has a good birthday, birthday weekends are always busy, so good luck

me and my oh have kinda improved this month from the arguing, it does get so tiring though, iv decided to show him that i dont care when we argue, we had an argument last night over what was for dinner and i just laughed at him because he was being so stupid, he hated me laughing at him, but im not taking out arguments serioulsy anymore.

its time for BIG SMILES AND HAPPINESS FOR BOTH OF US

We will have out chance one day

have you ever thought about how you will feel being pregnant again?

i get really scared at the idea, its like obvs id be really happy but terrified.

xxx

 

[xxxjessxxx]

Ahh hunny - would that be his xbox?? lol They're annoying!
Thanks hunny, I've gone full out so fx'd it makes him happy
Go you chick!! Im proud of you! I know how you feel with the giving up thing, if I laughed at him though he'd flip and walk out
Big smiles and happiness it is hunny
Yeah, Im terrified. not sure I could go through the pain of a miscarriage. But then at the same time, once I get past the 9 week mark from Roo, it'll make things easier.
What things are you most looking forward too?? x x x

 

[stephanie1990]

at the moment its his pc, but hes getting an x box soon so i wont see him at all when he gets thats lol

i am terrified, i want it more then anything in the world, i feel like my destiny is to be a mom and i know that sounds cheesy

but when your find out your pregnant, your 4 weeks, i wouldnt feel comfortable until i was 12 weeks and in out the first trimester. but then im dreading those 6 weeks of waiting, what would you do?? i would worry like hell,

im looking forward to so much but theres no way id enjoy it until the 12th week and i know that sounds awful but i wouldnt allow myself to get too excited just incase anything goes wrong, when i was pregnant the first time, i was so excited, i brought books etc, i dont think id let myself feel that comfortable until the 12th week and i know that sounds awful

i cant wait to see a scan photo. i saw one when i started to bleed having the misscarrige. i went for a scan on the wednesday and the baby was 5 and half week, i saw this tiny heart pumping at me on the screen and the next day i lost it.

i really dont know how im going to react and it scares me,

what you looking forward too??

xxx

 

[xxxjessxxx]

Oh dear, we're vica versa on that, OH wants to get a netbook as we're currently sharing this...not sure how I feel about that though
And he has an xbox now lol, I used to hate it! Especially when we'd only been going out for a little, and he used to go on it - but once he was on it for 3 hours and didn't even have me do anything else!
However I learnt to play with him otherwise he'd moan he never gets to go on it, so yeah, but now it's actually not too bad
Ohh hunny that's not cheesy at all,that's what you need to get you through these tough times, that's what gives you the strength to carry on! I know it does me
I know, it's going to be soo tough! Fx'd we'll get a bfp together or maximum a few months out and then we can help eachother through our way
I understand before the 12 weeks is hard, but then you hear women still losing their babies after that so I've just accepted that there really is no guarentee so I shall savour the moment I have, whether it's 6 weeks, 7 or 8. I have to tell myself each pregnancy is different, and I'd feel I would almost be 'waiting' for something bad to happen. Atleast my bubba would know it was loved no matter how far along I got with it I'd feel guilty otherwise
Ahh hunny, it's soo hard! I went through the same thing, I bled at 4w3days, but something inside me kind of knew everything was ok. I kept demanding scans etc but they treated me like an idiot. The hospital said they took a test and it was negative, I said to the woman, well my tests are still showing a nice positive, and she just said "well, there's something wrong with that then isn't there" Bloody cow. My mum said they just did it to protect their backs. At 8weeks I eventually got a scan and saw lil one however 4 days later I started bleeding again, and I just kind of knew that it was over. A scan then confirmed this
We'll get through it though hunny
I'm really looking forward to feeling the baby moving, and OH feeling it too x x x