Huge decision not sure what to do.. TTC almost 16 months

[purechaos109]

So my DH and I have been trying to conceive for roughly 16 months and I'm really stumped at what to do!

I am a stay at home mom and have been for the last 4 yrs. I have 1 beautiful son. I was recently diagnosed with endometriosis. Anyway dh is the sole provider and we had always intended on when our son hit school age that I would get a job but then we started ttc and it was never really discussed what I would do job wise but now my 4 yr old is about to start preschool and I found an awesome job (haven't gotten it but it is right up my alley I just need to apply but there is no guarantee) that pays really well and yearly I would actually be making more than dh! It would do so much for our family but I am getting really sad thinking about it because I don't want to get an awesome job and have to quit (if by some miracle i get pregnant soon after i get it)! I do not want to be a working mom during the first 4 yrs of their life because they grow so much and you miss so much (nothing against mom's who do work I just want to be there to see all the stages and as long as we can afford it I want to do it).

I guess I just needed to vent because I don't know what to do and I'm scared and DH does not see it the way I do! His biggest fear is that he will support me for the rest of my life (in other words he will always be responsible for the financial income nothing bad or anything just he works really hard) which he won't but he still really would like me to get a job when DS starts school (which is in the air too because in the town I live in there is only 2 preschools and 1 is more of a daycare and the other is on a needs basis for free but its for kids who have some development issues which my son is not lacking at all he started reading 2 weeks after his 4th bday, but we have a screening for it on Thursday)!! IDK I'm just so confused I just wanted to vent and see what everyone else thought! Sorry for rambling!

 

[FBbaby]

i would definitely go for it. If you get the job, I would wait for 3 months and then starts ttc again. If you fall pregnant, you can always take 9 months off (might be able to take more), then you can decide what to do. Maybe the company would be prepared for you to come back part-time then?

If you don't go for it and you don't fall pregnant soon, you will always wonder about it. it is easier to have something and then decide to give it up, then to pass on a great opportunity.

 

[RebaRezzelba]

If I were you I would def apply for the job and hope you get it. Then as FBbaby said wait for a few months and start TTC again - If you've already been TTC for 16 months theres no guarantee you'll get pregnant soon and your DS could be in school for another year before anything happens. And if your lucky enough to get your BFP in a few months then you still have 8-9 months of work and then go on maternity leave - maybe you'll love the job so much that you'll want to go back part time after your maternity leave. And if not then you can quit.

Anyway I would def go for the job - good luck whatever you decide

 

[purechaos109]

Thanks you guys!! I think i'm going to apply for it if for no other reason than just to see if I could get it!! Thank you!

 

[RebaRezzelba]

Good luck