hyperemesis sufferers unite!

[Stilletto_Sam]

OOhh Kat, Just looked at your ticker 54 days to go, I'm sure you can't wait to meet her after the long hard battle you've had to get her here. When I look at my own and see that I'm almost halfway it's hard to believe but I just wish I could feel normal again, I'm really fed up, I eat my toast at about 8ish and by 9 I'm throwing up and it's the same pattern all day long, every time I eat, I throw up within an hour. I just sat and cried this afternoon as I can hardly remember what normal food tastes like and I really really wanted to have some chocolate but I've tried that once and it was such a bad idea. My tummy is so sore that I have to practically stand upright when I'm sick as it hurts to bend forward and I get so bloated it's really uncomfortable. I knelt down to pick something up yesterday and I didn't even have the strength in my thighs to push myself back up again, I had to grab the wall and use my arms to try to get up. It's weird cos I feel like such a fat blob even though I weigh less than before I was pregnant, must be just from being laid up so long. I just wish I could feel baby move as I know that would make me feel a bit better but as I haven't felt a thing yet I worry so much that something bad has happened. I've 3 weeks left until my scan and I'm dreading it, I'm just so paranoid about it all. I'm just so fed up with all of this, I feel so lonely and I just want to feel normal again. Feel like all I ever do these days is moan moan moan!

God help you pet, you're suffering terribly. I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better, really I do. I understand how isolated you are feeling. If my Hubs didn't work from home I'd be on my own boking all day too. PM me if you ever feel up for a wee visit-you can moan on my shoulder and I'm only a couple of miles away from you. (I won't rob your house,I promise!) I'll supply my own bucket!!!







Were you this ill with your daughter?




XXX

 

[craftymum]

aww that looks so sweet, you look great I'm sure you never thought you'd get to where you are. I hate the taste of cyclizine, they always stick to the roof of my mouth as I've always been rubbish at swallowing tablets they really are so vile. I'm sorry you've had such a rough day too. Is Bailey okay? I couldn't stomach the smell of the vets at the minute, no matter how clean they are, their waiting rooms always stink don't they? I just seem to spend most of my time feeling so sorry for myself at the minute, I don't feel like me anymore, hyperemesis has really changed me and right now I just feel so down and I just can't feel hopeful at all. I really do hope it gets better soon.

 

[NIfirsttimer]

hehe.. have visions of us all meeting up and being sat on louise's sofa with our matching buckets lol.....

yep.. the cot does make it all worth while.. and the fact that although ive been so ill, ruby is actually thriving in there and doing great so far.. that keeps me going. i just ask myself if i had a choice between being so sick, but her being fine, or me being not sick, but her having a problem or complication, which would i choose?
thats been my mantra for the last 8 months lol!

i dont even know why her cot is all set up already lol shes gonna be in our room in her crib for ages, so it prob wont be used forever, but hey! its all fun & games!

i actually bought zantac today in a last ditch attempt to find something that will shift it.. took it about 20 mins ago so will report back!

 

[NIfirsttimer]

louise... i was convinced it had changed me too, and that i was never going to be my 'normal' self again.. but im coming back now.. and im just like i was before! (i think!) so even tho it really doesnt feel like it.. you are still in there somewhere & you will be back!
have you thought about accupuncture? its meant to have good results.. i thought loads about trying it but was worried i wouldnt make it thru the session without throwing up..

yeah baileys fine.. he has sub aortic stenosis which is a heart problem, hes on beta blockers for it, so he needs to have a check up every so often.. not expecting any probs as hes been grand for a while now!¬ fingers crossed!

 

[craftymum]

Hi Sam, lol, you wouldn't want to steal my bucket anyhow, it's really manky now, I can't wait to chuck it out when this is over, I don't wanna ever see it again!
I was really ill with my daughter too but I only ended up having about 3 weeks off work, then it was throwing up in the bin, in the car park, along the road, on the carpet of whoever's house I was in at the time!! But I was able to eat more and although I was sick for about 8 months I didn't feel as drained as I do now, I did get anti sickness tablets for a while but that was it, was never in hospital or anything with it and could still function pretty normally, though I did throw up 3 times straight after she was born. That's what really worries me as this time it's been so much worse and last time it lasted so long which makes me think I'm gonna be like this right up til I give birth! I don't know maybe it's cos I'm older now as I was only 19 then maybe my body could cope with it a bit easier than it can now. I just know after this I'm seriously going to find out about being sterilised as I think I'd rather die than have to go through all this again.I can't wait for the day when the smell of food or my hubby's breath doesn't turn my stomach. I'm so fed up living on white bread, I was always a brown bread girl and really healthy eater. I miss proper food and even just to be able to have a cup of tea would be good. I went off tea as soon as I was pregnant and now I can't stand thought of anything hot or milky.

 

[craftymum]

Oh poor dog, but at least they're keeping an eye on him. We're the same I want baby's room done up ASAP but it'll also be in our room too though I'll prob just get moses basket as we're a bit tight for space. I really wish there was more known about HG as they seem so clued up about it over in America compared to here. Don't know about accupuncture, like you I don't know if I could make it through a session without throwing up and then there's the trip in the car to get there etc etc.

 

[Stilletto_Sam]

Hi Sam, lol, you wouldn't want to steal my bucket anyhow, it's really manky now, I can't wait to chuck it out when this is over, I don't wanna ever see it again!
I was really ill with my daughter too but I only ended up having about 3 weeks off work, then it was throwing up in the bin, in the car park, along the road, on the carpet of whoever's house I was in at the time!! But I was able to eat more and although I was sick for about 8 months I didn't feel as drained as I do now, I did get anti sickness tablets for a while but that was it, was never in hospital or anything with it and could still function pretty normally, though I did throw up 3 times straight after she was born. That's what really worries me as this time it's been so much worse and last time it lasted so long which makes me think I'm gonna be like this right up til I give birth! I don't know maybe it's cos I'm older now as I was only 19 then maybe my body could cope with it a bit easier than it can now. I just know after this I'm seriously going to find out about being sterilised as I think I'd rather die than have to go through all this again.I can't wait for the day when the smell of food or my hubby's breath doesn't turn my stomach. I'm so fed up living on white bread, I was always a brown bread girl and really healthy eater. I miss proper food and even just to be able to have a cup of tea would be good. I went off tea as soon as I was pregnant and now I can't stand thought of anything hot or milky.

Don't talk to me about healthy eating! My regime has gone out the window since the MS kicked-in. I was a gym bunny and a really healthy eater-ran half marathons and was working my way up to a full 'un. Ha!

Now I'm just eating whatever I think I want and will stay down. Yesterday I had an orange for breakfast (after my Zantac, mind you) a bag of Wotsits for a snack, a Pot Noodle for Lunch, a green apple and a plate of Uncle Ben's vegetable rice for dinner. Bluddy disgusting! I take comfort in the fact that he baby will take whatever he needs from me.

Incidentally, I am on my 5th day of 50mg Vitamin B6 and surprisingly I feel not too bad, infact, my Mum is coming up to see me and I'm not allowing her to do my ironing. We are going to toddle round Mothercare in Bangor and, well, she can have a coffee and a muffin and I'll just avert my eyes! I'll bring a plastic bag with me incase I need to barf. I haven't been out of the house for 3 weeks and I'm completely fed up.

Louise, just because you feel worse this time doesn't mean it will last 9 months-perhaps this pregnancy's sickness will be intense but short. I'm hoping that for you anyways. My heart goes out to you. If you need anything, just shout. I'd be happy to help.


XXX

 

[craftymum]

Hi Sam, Horrible day for going out shopping isn't it? I've tried the B6 too but it didn't make a difference to me, it really does get so boring stuck in the house doesn't it? I haven't been out now in about 10 weeks apart from going to Docs and hospital, we got a new car in March and I've only been in it twice! I've been off work sick since end Feb and can't see me going back anytime soon though to be honest I don't think I could hack it anyway as I'd be on my feet all day and very busy. Are you shopping for anything in particular or just having a wee nose? I saw a pram I quite like, might get hubby to nip out have a look at it then buy it for me, would cheer me up a bit, it's a cosatto cabi. Pretty good price too.
I've been throwing up this morning already and feeling yuck now though to be honest looking out the window I think I'm glad to be in my bed today. Hope you're having a good day so far and don't forget to let us know what you buy!

 

[NIfirsttimer]

yep good luck on your outing! i remember my first few trips out.. it felt so good to be like a normal person again..even if i was grey and clutching a plastic bag at all times lol!
vets went ok last night.. dave was home in time to come with me so all i had to do was sit there!
did my usual 6am throwing up session ths morning, but just had some bacon & toast and am feeling ok for now. my cars getting serviced today so dave has taken it, and i hate driving his car, so im staying in today too. its a miserable day so figured i would try to get some housework done. Rubys leaping about like a loon in there, which usually ends up making me sick, so for now im lying on the sofa watching crappy daytime TV.
ive not been at work since november! i started throwing up on 6th november, although id been feeling like death for a few weeks before then, it sounds like forever ago now! i could count the days since there where ive not been sick on 2 hands. luckily work let me use up 9 weeks holidays, so at the min im on holiday officially, then mat leave starts at the start of june. really cant believe ive made it this far!
keep ur chins up ladies.. i know i keep saying it, but there is an end to this, i promise xx

oh, i tried the B6 too, i dont think it did anything for me, and i found it quite hard to keep down too.. i asked my GP about it and he said that he thinks that the only benefit it would have would be to distract me from feeling so ill! i do think the pregnacare vitamins did help, but i found every other day was better, and only in the evenings when i was feeling ok and eating. know they make lots of people feel worse tho so its just trial and error i guess!

 

[craftymum]

Glad the vets went well and that you didn't have to go on your own. Pregnacare make me worse too (if that's possible), doc told me to lay off them until I was 20 weeks, I could probably really do with them though as my diet is crap and the fact that I'm keeping very little down doesn't help. I'm vegetarian too (have been since I was 16) so worried about becoming anaemic as I did when I had Jenna and was put on Iron tablets which then made me really sick too so I'm wondering if there are different vits I can take without iron in them.
I threw up really bad this morning too,haven't ate anything since as tummy is churning. It's crazy all I had this morning was some toast and an apple and yet the amount I threw up was crazy, it must be just all lying in my stomach waiting!
I really want to start buying stuff but I'm also scared in case something goes wrong as I haven't felt baby move yet, my scan isn't til the 2nd June - feels like ages away and although I can't wait for it, I'm also dreading it, I'm just so paranoid. I too felt like crap for a while before I started throwing up, I remember my boss telling me I looked really white and I found it a real struggle to get through my days and if we were running behind, I was so shattered, I came home and just cried my eyes out to Stephen. I had a day off one day (26th Feb) and I went out to Ards shopping centre with my Mum, I can still smell that magees butchers now, I had to pull my coat up over my nose! I started throwing up that night, so didn't go into work next day and ended up at Docs on the Monday morning, she gave me my first lot of cyclizine and I ended up in Hospital on the drip by the Wednesday of that week, when I came home from hosp I felt so rough although I didn't throw up for a few days but I just couldn't drink anything and 2 weeks later ended up back up in Neely ward again. My problem is now, like you Kat, I find it really hard to drink and I find if I don't drink I wont be as sick, although I will still throw up just not as bad, but if I don't drink I'll end up back on the drip again. It's a viscious cycle and I can't really see a way around it.

 

[NIfirsttimer]

just sip sip sip.. ice cubes were good for me too.. i used to make some up with diluted juice too.. then mash them up so it was more like ice chips.. i just continually shovelled those into me for days on end which meant that they stayed down more, and at least i was getting some hydration. i can handle a glass of water now, just have to sip rather than gulp. its so tempting to just knock the whole glass down, i know i need it, but i just cant cos then none of it stays down & it defeats the purpose.

i think its totally normal to be scared about the scan, especially the big 20 week one. i was terrified. my mate is approaching hers next week and she is dreading it too. its only natural to be worried, but i predict that you will feel better after it knowing bubs is doing just fine in there!

at the min im taking pregnacare and a calcium supplement on alternate days, i cant keep any dairy down so worry about my calcium, hence the supplements!

 

[craftymum]

Glad the vets went well and that you didn't have to go on your own. Pregnacare make me worse too (if that's possible), doc told me to lay off them until I was 20 weeks, I could probably really do with them though as my diet is crap and the fact that I'm keeping very little down doesn't help. I'm vegetarian too (have been since I was 16) so worried about becoming anaemic as I did when I had Jenna and was put on Iron tablets which then made me really sick too so I'm wondering if there are different vits I can take without iron in them.
I threw up really bad this morning too,haven't ate anything since as tummy is churning. It's crazy all I had this morning was some toast and an apple and yet the amount I threw up was crazy, it must be just all lying in my stomach waiting!
I really want to start buying stuff but I'm also scared in case something goes wrong as I haven't felt baby move yet, my scan isn't til the 2nd June - feels like ages away and although I can't wait for it, I'm also dreading it, I'm just so paranoid. I too felt like crap for a while before I started throwing up, I remember my boss telling me I looked really white and I found it a real struggle to get through my days and if we were running behind, I was so shattered, I came home and just cried my eyes out to Stephen. I had a day off one day (26th Feb) and I went out to Ards shopping centre with my Mum, I can still smell that magees butchers now, I had to pull my coat up over my nose! I started throwing up that night, so didn't go into work next day and ended up at Docs on the Monday morning, she gave me my first lot of cyclizine and I ended up in Hospital on the drip by the Wednesday of that week, when I came home from hosp I felt so rough although I didn't throw up for a few days but I just couldn't drink anything and 2 weeks later ended up back up in Neely ward again. My problem is now, like you Kat, I find it really hard to drink and I find if I don't drink I wont be as sick, although I will still throw up just not as bad, but if I don't drink I'll end up back on the drip again. It's a viscious cycle and I can't really see a way around it.

 

[craftymum]

whoops! didn't mean to send that last reply twice! I can't handle juice or water at minute, I even have polly pineapples and porky pear ice lollies in freezer, they don't stay down either, it's so crap!
The only dairy I get is some cheese but it doesn't always stay down either,which calcium supplement do you take as I want to get one though not sure what's safe to take. I miss my yogurts and cereal but just can't handle anything like that at the minute.

 

[NIfirsttimer]

i take osteocare.. started on the swallowy ones but they are HUGE and u have to take 2..ugh.. so have moved onto the orange flavoured osteocare chewey ones. still not great but better than the others for sure!

 

[craftymum]

Must get Stephen to have a look for some tomorrow.

 

[Stilletto_Sam]

Hi girls!

(Is there anyone else out there and reading this except ourselves? C'mon out and make yourself known! We'd love to meet you)

Oh yeeeeeeees. This afternoon I had the full Magees butcher's experience. Oh My Glory! The smell of meat. In garlic. And tomatoey sauces. All coming out of the same place. Plus the smell of vanilla being pumped out of the Body Shop...

Fortunately I was chewing on an apple at the time in an effort to keep the nausea at bay, so I just stuck it up to my nose like some lunatic and sniffed it instead as I passed by. I felt like some Victorian lady sniffing her nosegay posy to avaid the small of open sewers! That bluddy shop should be banned for the next 7 months.

My purchases today consisted of two new bras (up a size already!) from M&S with 25% off. Not bad. A lovely floaty top from Next which should see me right for the next few months over the summer and a bag of liquorice. Noseyd at the prams in Mothercare and asked the staff there about Bump Bands. Girl looked at me blankly and hadn't a clue. Tried to direct me to the maternity trousers but I was having none of it. I'll have to get them over the net.

All in all it has been a relatively good day for me. I have stayed out of bed and away from the loo. I have kept everything I've eaten so far down, but still having difficulties like you girls actually drinking fluids. I bought a smoothie at lunch time but it tasted foul, so I just left it. Much to the disgust of the girl who had served me.

If this is the best I am going to feel for the forseeable future, then I'll take it!

I haven't yet been inside the Ulster maternity unit yet. What's it like girls? I can't wait till the 5th June till I get there!


XXX

 

[craftymum]

I've heard the staff in Mothercare aren't too helpful as well. Glad you had a good day though and managed not to be sick, maybe you'll be lucky this time and it'll pass quickly for you. I haven't had one day without puking since it started, it's crap! I was also wondering if anyone else is reading this, surely we can't be the only ones on this forum with HG??? Funny, I've took a thing for blackurrant and liquorice sweets, Stephen gets me a big bag every few days, I do throw them up again but at least they taste good on the way up again!!

 

[craftymum]

Just been up at new unit in Ulster twice, for first scan and for triple test, it looks really nice but you don't get a tour round it now. The midwifes I saw have been really nice so far. My next scan's the 2nd June so not too long to wait.

 

[NIfirsttimer]

the new unit is fab.. theres a website...
https://www.setrust.hscni.net/ucht services/Maternity Services.html

im planning to give the birthing pools a try!

just think girls... someday we will meet up at ards and dander past the butchers without a care in the world!!

i thought we would have more thread followers too! maybe we should all post in our own tri's to make sure people know we are here ;-)

wish me luck.. im heading out for food with an old mate tonite.. feeling a bit iffy so not sure how its going to turn out lol....

 

[craftymum]

Have a great night, where are you going?