Oh claire i'm so sorry

Really i can't believe how ignorant most people seem to be of hyperemesis. All i get told is "It's normal" and "It will pass"

I hope that the tablets help a little (if you manage to keep them down) Please don't just give up. I know it's not fair you have to fight for someone to notice you, but do keep pestering your doctors, or midwife, or local early pregnancy unit, or anyone, and hopefully you'll get the care you need. It sounds like you're terribly dehydrated already
I am starting to feel a little bit bullimic

Like this morning, i got up with OH and decided that when he walked to the bus stop to head off to work i'd walk with him and call in at the local GP surgery to get us both registered, so i ate some toast thinking it would be a good idea to have eaten a little something before heading out. I hadn't even finished it when i started feeling ill. I gave the rest of it to the dog and rushed up the stairs. I thought i could probably manage not to be sick if i just sat still or went back to bed but i couldn't bear the thought of sitting/lying around feeling like crap all bloody day so i brushed my teeth (which always makes me gag now i'm pregnant) and sure enough it triggered the vomiting so i could get it all up and feel a bit better afterwards.
Suffice to say i haven't made it out to the doctors yet. I was still sitting on the bathroom floor retching when OH was leaving

But whereas before this all started i hated to be sick and would do anything to stop it, i now almost look forward to it as it gives me temporary relief from the nausea. I think this sickness lark has sent me mad!
I had been considering going back to work on monday when my sick note runs out as i have been feeling guilty and i'm aware that i am on a course at the minute alongside work (which they're paying for) and i am missing a lot of it, and obviously i need to pass it. But the past three days have been really crap and i don't think i am ready
