I am a failure.

[Serene123]

I'm having a bad day today. Nearly been 12 months, 12 whole cycles........ 2 super early miscarriages that don't even count to anyone apart from me. I feel like I'm letting my little girl down. She deserves a little brother or sister, but my body doesn't want to carry another baby. I'm sat watching Jeremy Kyle and it's just making me feel worse. I hate people that question why other people are allowed babies when they're not, but that's how I feel today.

When do you give up?

 

[maratobe]

awww sweetheart, dont give up!!

im so sorry your having a bad day xxxx

 

[TripleB]

Oh hun, however hard this is and however down you feel, you must never believe you're a failure. It's not something you've done, its just not easy this baby-making business! Don't give up, you'll get there in the end and it will all be worth it.

xxx

PS. Your profile pic is gorgeous, what a beautiful little girl! x

 

[Serene123]

Thank you ladies xx

I feel like I'm letting everyone down. Both of our families are saying we need to have a brother or sister for Caitlyn. Rich keeps saying silly things, like "hurry up and give me a son." It's light hearted and he doesn't mean it to hurt but it does. There's nothing I'd love more than to give him a son, or even another daughter.

He made a bet with someone at work that we'd have another before they do. It's not going to happen. I'm broken.

 

[Charliemarina]

hey hunny, so sorry u feeling this way but can i say i know EXACTLY how ur feeling we seem to have been through very similar things and still are....

we have been trying for 17 months now 16 cycles and 3 MC's during this time and like urself just feel that im the only person in the world thats still feels the losses , everyday i just want to give up and just concentrate on my babies i have (believe me without them right now id be dead or insane there the only thing that get me through everyday)

but i cant help feeling the same emotion everyday and that failure total failure and i just cnt shift it, and i even now am very scared of seeing a again coz the feeling that i gonna lose yet another baby just stays in my head everyday is a worry and i just cnt enjoy the first 12 weeks anymore is it just me?
everyone around me is getting preg even family and its all too much some days but i try to keep my chin up as should u

huns if u need to chat please do PM me anytime im always around for a chat, try take each day as it comes huns and dont think too far ahead i find that helps but if honest i feel stuck in a vicious cycle that i want to quit but really cant coz i soooooo want another baby xxxxxxx

 

[maratobe]

it will sweety! right when you least expect it...i dont believe your broken, this is a tricky thing...making another human being!

 

[Serene123]

hey hunny, so sorry u feeling this way but can i say i know EXACTLY how ur feeling we seem to have been through very similar things and still are....

we have been trying for 17 months now 16 cycles and 3 MC's during this time and like urself just feel that im the only person in the world thats still feels the losses , everyday i just want to give up and just concentrate on my babies i have (believe me without them right now id be dead or insane there the only thing that get me through everyday)

but i cant help feeling the same emotion everyday and that failure total failure and i just cnt shift it, and i even now am very scared of seeing a again coz the feeling that i gonna lose yet another baby just stays in my head everyday is a worry and i just cnt enjoy the first 12 weeks anymore is it just me?
everyone around me is getting preg even family and its all too much some days but i try to keep my chin up as should u

huns if u need to chat please do PM me anytime im always around for a chat, try take each day as it comes huns and dont think too far ahead i find that helps but if honest i feel stuck in a vicious cycle that i want to quit but really cant coz i soooooo want another baby xxxxxxx

Thank you

I'm scared it's never going to happen. I don't want to go to the doctors, I know they won't care. I'm 20 and have a daughter already, not as important as someone in their 30s with no children. I couldn't possibly be hurting as much as they are.

Most of the time I'm alright, then I get a day like this when I realise what is actually going on, and that even though people keep telling me it's unlikely, I might never have another baby!

I hope it happens soon for you x

 

[cla]

 

[Tanzo]

Lots of hugs to yoooou!!

You are most defo not a failure!! You are doing all you can to try and make this happen and who could ask much more than that eh?? Its a complicated business this baby making.

Its fine to have down days... embrace them, have a good cry, give yourself a treat and have lots of cuddles with that lil cutey you got there

You will get there, dont give up!!

These men have an odd way of dealing with things. Me and mine have been together 11 years but arent married. Before I had the MMC I joked that now he could marry me coz I wasnt broken (which was a long standing joke before we were TTC). When I missed he joked that he would wait to marry me thanks incase I was defective!!! His way of dealing with it, but it did get him a good punch on the arm!! And a warning not to say it again!! LOL!!

 

[Serene123]

I would be 28 weeks pregnant tomorrow if I hadn't miscarried the first time, I think about it all the time. I know that's bad and I shouldn't but I can't help it. Especially when I see my friends pregnancies progressing I can't help but think if I was still pregnant I'd be that far too or just ahead or just behind...........

Thank you ladies. I had a chat with a very good friend I met on here and she said all the right things. It made me feel a lot better. Much different from the usual "it'll happen when the times right," I usually hear x

 

[KatyKat]

Hang in there pet. My and my DH have been ttc since April 2008, so far I've had one really early MC and one MC at 8 weeks. I know exactly how crappy you must be feeling about all of this.

You just have to stay positive and know that your time will come. I know it's not easy when the whole bloody world seems to be having babies, but keep trying, it will happen!

K
XX