Emmea12uk
The Folic acid police!
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Tom started his new drugs yesturday and things didnt go to plan. as well as all the usual baby things, i now have to do three hourly catheters, two lot of meds three times a day, one once a day and one two times a day. I am doing something every hour of the day and it is impossible! after one day i was tearing my hair out. he throws up if he has an empty tummy but he wont take milk that often.
He is full of cold and keeps choking on his chest gunk!! It is totally terrifying and i am too scared to sleep. He has stopped eating altogether, will only have 1oz at a time and wont take meds
Not even calpol! With calpol and calprofen he is on 7 meds in total!
This morning i woke in agony - i rushed to the doctors surgery as this pain had been coming on for months, but i ignored it. I just dont have time for me! Tom has on average three appointments a week, i am so grateful when i am at home and able to make feeds, do washing etc. I dont have time to go to the docs for me! So when i went into the surgery today and they took loads of blood and swabs and told me i had pelvic inflammatory disease, i could hardly stop myself from breaking down! What if i cant look after tom anymore? Hell i already feel like i am mentally falling to pieces, now i am physically falling to pieces too!
I got home 30 minutes late for respite care and she was then only able to look after him for 30 minutes, but i broke down in tears and blubbed my way through most of that! Then the HV came round as they were worried they hadnt seen me in clinic this week for toms head check. So i immediately go back into tom mode, by the time they all leave it is three and tom is crying like never before because he has been rudely awoken from all his naps and obviously feels like crap. It took me forever to get him to sleep!
But he went to bed and since i am so worried about my PID - what if i have to go into hospital?? I have to wait a week for the results.
Oh, and they also think i have POS - something which my previous doctor wouldnt check for, but that i was very suspicious of! - If that is the case then diabetes might not be purely gestational...............
for god sake!! How much more can i take????? cant i just be left alone to look after my son! He needs me!
He is full of cold and keeps choking on his chest gunk!! It is totally terrifying and i am too scared to sleep. He has stopped eating altogether, will only have 1oz at a time and wont take meds
Not even calpol! With calpol and calprofen he is on 7 meds in total!This morning i woke in agony - i rushed to the doctors surgery as this pain had been coming on for months, but i ignored it. I just dont have time for me! Tom has on average three appointments a week, i am so grateful when i am at home and able to make feeds, do washing etc. I dont have time to go to the docs for me! So when i went into the surgery today and they took loads of blood and swabs and told me i had pelvic inflammatory disease, i could hardly stop myself from breaking down! What if i cant look after tom anymore? Hell i already feel like i am mentally falling to pieces, now i am physically falling to pieces too!
I got home 30 minutes late for respite care and she was then only able to look after him for 30 minutes, but i broke down in tears and blubbed my way through most of that! Then the HV came round as they were worried they hadnt seen me in clinic this week for toms head check. So i immediately go back into tom mode, by the time they all leave it is three and tom is crying like never before because he has been rudely awoken from all his naps and obviously feels like crap. It took me forever to get him to sleep!
But he went to bed and since i am so worried about my PID - what if i have to go into hospital?? I have to wait a week for the results.
Oh, and they also think i have POS - something which my previous doctor wouldnt check for, but that i was very suspicious of! - If that is the case then diabetes might not be purely gestational...............
for god sake!! How much more can i take????? cant i just be left alone to look after my son! He needs me!
You poor thing - it's hard enough just having to take care of a baby all day without all the extra things you're having to do for Tom and being ill on top of all that - I don't know how you deal with it all but you are a seriously amazing mum. 
