I don't even know how to stay hopeful anymore

[Charlei]

I think I have finally lost all hope. I have run out of logical options, and I have lost hope that I will ever ovulate, and even if I do, I'm convinced it will never catch.

I'm so tired of hearing about pregnancy, so many people are getting pregnant. Friends from high school, who weren't even thinking about kids when I started trying are on their 3rd or 4th kid. I hear people complain all the time about pregnancy not coming fast enough, how trying for 3 months is so painful(give me a break) to see a BFN or have AF arrive. Some expect sympathy from me after 6 months, even a year of trying, and I just cannot give it. Then I'm a bad friend, ungrateful, tactless, rude etc by their standards. I'm just over it.

 

[Mischief]

I know how you feel, but don't give up. Sometimes it just take a while, but we'll get there. It took me 16 months after stopping birth control pills to finally ovulate - not even Clomid helped. I didn't think it would ever happen, but it finally did. I'm sure there is hope for all of us! Hang in there!

 

[Charlei]

I know how you feel, but don't give up. Sometimes it just take a while, but we'll get there. It took me 16 months after stopping birth control pills to finally ovulate - not even Clomid helped. I didn't think it would ever happen, but it finally did. I'm sure there is hope for all of us! Hang in there!

I'd give anything to ovulate at all. I've never been on birth control, and I haven't ovulated in probably 5 years.

 

[Myshelsong]

Sorry hun, that sounds really tough.

Has your Dr given you and options on what to do next?
Is IVF with a donor egg an option for you?

Dont know what else to say, BIG HUGS.

 

[heres_hoping]

I'm so sorry for the situation you are in, and understand completely you feeling the way you do. I also wondered of IVF was an option. You don't need to ovulate then, as long as you mature some follicles they will retrieve them. It's not a light decision to make I realise, and I am sure you have thought of it yourself already.

For us it has been 22 months since losing our first son and 18 of trying again. And I am at the end of my tether, but clinging to hope with my fingernails. Without hope we have nothing.

Wishing you some peace x

 

[Charlei]

IVF isn't an option. My insurance doesn't cover it, and I cannot justify using every last penny of savings on something that probably won't even work. My doctors are currently refusing because I won't take birth control anyway.