Hi, Im just looking for some advice and maybe abit of support.
I have an 11 month old baby girl and im so blessed to have her, i had my baby girl and a month after she was born her dad disappeared. ever since then ive done it on my own, i met someone when she was 3 month old and immediatley after we slept together I fell pregnant , i didnt find out till i was 6 weeks and when i went for a scan because i started they couldnt find anything in my womb, they said id have a miscarriage. At this point my partner really wanted this baby, but I wasnt to sure it was to early for me.
Me and my partner then moved past it got a new home, moved away fresh start then last week on Monday I found out I was pregnant again, I was over the moon, really excited , I told my partner and he said I should have an abortion, I immediately disagreed and said if he didnt want it i would do it on my own. he then came around and said we would do it together, I went to the doctors I had pain in my left side so they sent me for a scan to rule out eptopic pregnancy , they did a normal scan then an internal they couldnt find anything in my womb once again , they took my bloods and said that they would call me with the results I went home fingers crossed. Couple of hours later i got a phone call saying my HCG levels were at 64 and i was more than likely going to have a misscarriage. Its finally over , im still bleeding but the worst parts over , i can now hold my tears in.
i didnt understand why this happened to me , my first pregnancy went so great i had no problems at all , apart from she was a month early but they let me take her home the next day because she was perfectly fine.
i know im still really young and 2 babies would be really hard work but now i feel as if my partner hates me , he wont look at me or touch me , he just wants to be alone , and im starting to feel as if he doesn't love me anymore, im getting insanely jealous, hes been unfaithful to me before and i think he might be doing it again , is it just me or is it normal to feel like this.
i cant look at pregnant women or new born babies anymore, i dares'nt go on facebook because everyone falling pregnant , baby scans and welcome to the world photos, im happy for my friends as i think they will be amazing parents but i cant touch their babies or even look at them its making me feel awful.
just writing this out has made me feel abit better , Ive tried talking to my partner but he just doesn't want to know. Thankyou.
I have an 11 month old baby girl and im so blessed to have her, i had my baby girl and a month after she was born her dad disappeared. ever since then ive done it on my own, i met someone when she was 3 month old and immediatley after we slept together I fell pregnant , i didnt find out till i was 6 weeks and when i went for a scan because i started they couldnt find anything in my womb, they said id have a miscarriage. At this point my partner really wanted this baby, but I wasnt to sure it was to early for me.
Me and my partner then moved past it got a new home, moved away fresh start then last week on Monday I found out I was pregnant again, I was over the moon, really excited , I told my partner and he said I should have an abortion, I immediately disagreed and said if he didnt want it i would do it on my own. he then came around and said we would do it together, I went to the doctors I had pain in my left side so they sent me for a scan to rule out eptopic pregnancy , they did a normal scan then an internal they couldnt find anything in my womb once again , they took my bloods and said that they would call me with the results I went home fingers crossed. Couple of hours later i got a phone call saying my HCG levels were at 64 and i was more than likely going to have a misscarriage. Its finally over , im still bleeding but the worst parts over , i can now hold my tears in.
i didnt understand why this happened to me , my first pregnancy went so great i had no problems at all , apart from she was a month early but they let me take her home the next day because she was perfectly fine.
i know im still really young and 2 babies would be really hard work but now i feel as if my partner hates me , he wont look at me or touch me , he just wants to be alone , and im starting to feel as if he doesn't love me anymore, im getting insanely jealous, hes been unfaithful to me before and i think he might be doing it again , is it just me or is it normal to feel like this.
i cant look at pregnant women or new born babies anymore, i dares'nt go on facebook because everyone falling pregnant , baby scans and welcome to the world photos, im happy for my friends as i think they will be amazing parents but i cant touch their babies or even look at them its making me feel awful.
just writing this out has made me feel abit better , Ive tried talking to my partner but he just doesn't want to know. Thankyou.
