Im not pg so cant visit the pg forums, I cant ttc right now cuz DH got that stupid stupid STUPID vasectomy while I WAS pg 
so I dont belong in the ttcal forums or rainbow makers or anything and WTT is just general chit chat IMO. and now today I find out dh's CONSULT for the reversal isnt until october The procedure is 2-4 months after that bringing us to february of NEXT FREAKING YEAR!!!! 
Meaning I cant get pg for a good year now I feel like I just hate life right now I used to be a size 3-5 waist, gained all that baby weight And now have no baby to show for the extra pounds I have... I cant even GET pg again now and I know we made that decision together for the V but now I feel some sort of stupid resentment towards dh like its HIS body why we cant get pg.. ITS HIS FAULT! but its not and I dont wanna treat him like it is cuz we made the choice together I locked myself in my bedroom all day today to avoid being a mega bitch to him cuz I dont want him to feel it... although Im sure he does I HATE THIS
And on top of that my kids still talk about Hadlee... just last week they had friends over and were telling them that their baby sister or brother got very sick and died leading their friends to ask questions and had a big discussion about it They were very effected by all thi8s too and I just want to give them another sibling damnit
so I dont belong in the ttcal forums or rainbow makers or anything and WTT is just general chit chat IMO. and now today I find out dh's CONSULT for the reversal isnt until october The procedure is 2-4 months after that bringing us to february of NEXT FREAKING YEAR!!!! Meaning I cant get pg for a good year now I feel like I just hate life right now I used to be a size 3-5 waist, gained all that baby weight And now have no baby to show for the extra pounds I have... I cant even GET pg again now and I know we made that decision together for the V but now I feel some sort of stupid resentment towards dh like its HIS body why we cant get pg.. ITS HIS FAULT! but its not and I dont wanna treat him like it is cuz we made the choice together I locked myself in my bedroom all day today to avoid being a mega bitch to him cuz I dont want him to feel it... although Im sure he does I HATE THIS And on top of that my kids still talk about Hadlee... just last week they had friends over and were telling them that their baby sister or brother got very sick and died leading their friends to ask questions and had a big discussion about it
They were very effected by all thi8s too and I just want to give them another sibling damnit 
hun! you belong here in this forum with us...... im ttc at the moment but its not happenin and even though i post in the TTCAL forum i still feel this is the only place i belong cause i know the girls here will reply to my posts and give me the support i need.
I know what you mean though, I gained 30 pds and then I lost Ava, but today i started to do my running again like before when I was not pregnant. I need to get back into my routine again and get some normalcy 
. I'm pretty much all over the place too. In the mean time I'm sending all my support to women in all stages. 
I'm so so sorry for everything you're going through.
