I feel so selfish.

[tamithomas]

Just a mini vent towards myself..why must I be so selfish? I was O'ing this weekend and since DH threw his neck out we couldn't BD which I completely understand. Shame on me for still feeling pissed off about the fact that we couldn't. I wouldn't want him pissed at me so why am I doing the same? Gah the brain works very odd sometimes lol.

I guess it's because it's the first time in 3 years where I have no TWW and I hate the feeling. Oh well, at least it means I get to both party for Halloween and do the deed at Halloween since I O at the end of the month now.

 

[Pinkie 33]

I dont think you are being selfish, its just frustration that comes when events are out of your control. TTC is already out of control for us LTTCers so this is just adding to it for you this month.

Crack on and have a good month off without the worry

 

[LA2010]

Hi,

Although I read more than I post, after reading your post I felt I had to say that I know exactly how you feel. I am kind of in exactly the same boat.

After years of questions over what was wrong and battling with crippling endo pain, I did my first round of clomid this month.

However it has coincided with stuff going on at my OH's work that means he stays late and is super stressed, so I get stressed and nag because we have only bd'd a couple of times around the time I had mid cycle spotting.

I feel I have wasted an opportunity and hate myself for thinking that way. However I think there is always next month

Take care and best of luck for next month xx

 

[tamithomas]

Haha thanks ladies, the thoughts just didn't seem natural whatsoever. I mean usually I'm understanding. Think it was probably just the loads of stress from lately catching up. It does feel good to know though that I don't need to symptom spot unless I manage to get fertily inseminated through abduction by aliens

 

[HearMyPrayers]

I think its just the frustration of losing control over something you feel you've had to control for months and months. I remember when I took clomid (whooping 2 rounds) but I drove DH crazy with trying to get him to have sex with me like every hour while ovulating...lol and if he didnt I would get so mad and depressed thinking it wasn't going to work unless we BD'd like every hour...lol its just a control thing honey but its ok because next month is around the corner so just stay calm and optimisitic!

 

[jcr1988]

look on the brightside, you dont need to over think every possible symptom, or get depressed when the witch shows up! Im in the same boat this month only it was my choice, not dh's