So we've had our ultrasound at 8 weeks, heard heartbeat at 12, and told all of my family, friends and cowrorkers within the last week.
I was dipping my toes in 2nd trimester and noticed at the bottom of someone's ticker that they had terminated two pregnancies and put the reasons why (just the name) and me being curious (and stupid!!!!) googled the names of the conditions. I don't think it would have traumatised me...but it had pictures!!! It showed pictures of the baby being very malformed and I was ok yesterday but this morning when I woke up the picture was the first thing I thought about.
So how do I erase that from my memory?! My 20 week to show problems isn't until January. I'm hoping if my private gender scan finds some big problem they will let me know, right? I mean the condition would be obvious on the ultrasound... I refused testing because if it's down syndrome we'll keep the baby but I didn't know about all the other scary things!!
I'll try to remember this feeling next time I think about googling!
I was dipping my toes in 2nd trimester and noticed at the bottom of someone's ticker that they had terminated two pregnancies and put the reasons why (just the name) and me being curious (and stupid!!!!) googled the names of the conditions. I don't think it would have traumatised me...but it had pictures!!! It showed pictures of the baby being very malformed and I was ok yesterday but this morning when I woke up the picture was the first thing I thought about.
So how do I erase that from my memory?! My 20 week to show problems isn't until January. I'm hoping if my private gender scan finds some big problem they will let me know, right? I mean the condition would be obvious on the ultrasound... I refused testing because if it's down syndrome we'll keep the baby but I didn't know about all the other scary things!!
I'll try to remember this feeling next time I think about googling!