Thanks everyone for your kind words, and i'm sorry for all your losses too. The midwife appointment was just a welcome thing, I got my bounty pack, visited the hospital I will be giving birth in (we've just moved to the area, so the hospital is all new to us.) But it took my mind off things
Then we took my DD for ride round the park on her bike. I'm feeling a lot better today, I still get tearful if I talk to someone about the events of yesterday but i'm not bursting into tears like yesterday.
It was the best thing for her it's just that she deteriorated very quickly so by the time we took her to the vets, she could hardly breathe, which was more distressing, the vet took her off me to make her comfortable and get her ready for the injection and when I went in, to be with her, the vet asked if I wanted a minute with her, but I said no I just wanted it over with quickly (for her sake) and then after I realised there's no second chances so I didn't say goodbye properly. I gave her a kiss after but by then she'd already gone. So I felt it was too late. I was stroking her the whole time though. But it was the speed it all happened. At the time I wanted it to be quick so se wasn't suffering then after I felt like I should've spent a few minutes with her first.
She's at peace now and she was a loving and lovely dog, who will never been forgotton x x x x