I know something will go wrong.

[Drazic<3]

Anyone else feel like this? Like something will go wrong and there is nothing you can do?

I spend so much time crying and going over this, like it's predestined, and I am terrified. She is growing well, moving around, right size for dates, good heartbeat, good results from all the tests... yet I can't shake it, and I am ruining this experience for myself, my baby and my husband.

Is there any hope?

 

[mrsstreet0417]

Awww hun I have been feeling the same way lately... even tho I am term, I feel terrified every time she doesn't move as much and etc... sending huge your way!

 

[blondee]

ladies - i feel the same too. I get anoyed with myself if i talk or act really positively buuut then i beat myself up for being negative and not believing my little man will make it.

In fact - i am trying very hard to just let it be now. OH has suddenly got an attack of the nerves after the 20wk scan made it all seem so real. I understand that, so i am trying so hard not to be tough on myself. I say embrace the positive days and don't hate yourself for the negative days.


We WILL get there!!!

XX

 

[hb1]

I get waves of negativity - at the moment my 12 week scan is coming up a week on Thursday - so now I'm terrified that it'll all be wrong on the scan - even though I have seen the hb twice so logically a good chance that all will be ok ( touch wood!!) but a feeling of dread in the pit of my stomach....

 

[nicholatmn]

I kept thinking from the beginning all the way to even now that something would happen. It still hasn't sunk in that she's safe and "survived pregnancy." I know that sounds bad, but I've had 3 losses.
I wish I could have enjoyed this pregnancy, but I spent it worrying. Please enjoy your pregnancy!!

 

[Beanbabe]

I wish I had a magic phrase that would make it all better but I dont so Im offering some instead.

 

[fluffyblue]

I still cant believe im here so I do know how you feel. Its so hard I avoid the girls on the MC section now as it haunts me and I dont want to think like that.

Your so positive Katie and have given others so much hope and inspiration so accept some back - you will be fine and if you feel down, sad etc just talk about it as it does help, if hubby gets down with it (Noel does so I can only imagine) talk to us all on here thats what we are here for.

xxxxxxxx

 

[Drazic<3]

Thank you so much for the replies girls, I really appreciate it. I guess after you have had loss, you never believe anything else is possible - like most things in life, if you only experience the negative, then you will believe that is all that exists for you.

Just got to keep my chin up and hope the next few weeks go gently and simply for us all. Wishing you all love and and thoughts for your next milestones.

Hope bubs doesn't keep you in slow labour too much longer Mrsstreet!

 

[Mizze]

I guess after you have had loss, you never believe anything else is possible - like most things in life, if you only experience the negative, then you will believe that is all that exists for you.

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Oh thats so true - its a terribly hard mindset to get out of.



Mizze

 

[goddess25]

Its tough I had a loss then I was pregnant with Euan and like you I feel like I wasted the experience because I worried every day that something was wrong and something was inevitably going to happen. Obviously everything was fine and i regretted it after. I had another loss and i have to say that although i am worried this time i am way more chilled out i think thats because alot of things are happening that happened first time around that i worried about and for me its obviously just normal.

I dont think at this late stage anything will change for you in terms of how you feel.

 

[Drazic<3]

I just want her here in the world safely. There are so many things which can go wrong, after getting this far? It would utterly destroy me. BUT, there is no reason why things should be wrong, all is looking well, and I NEED to keep positive, we all do.

 

[Tulip]

I start worrying myself.... then I worry that once he's here I'll be worrying about every little thing and that anything could happen to him too. Go easy on yourself K, you have been inspirational and Simba will be so proud of you. Try not to beat yourself up about what could be and instead celebrate what has been so far and what WILL happen in the future when she is safely in your arms

 

[sue247]

It is hard not to worry after going through a mc. All we can do is try not to think about all the things that could go wrong and think about the positive things, like we have got this far!

 

[Drazic<3]

Thanks girls,

I seem to have good days and bad days, had a few good days but today feel so down. Lots of aches and pains and I started googling things and well, too much knowledge is dangerous and all that. All these things which could go wrong and you might not even know. It drives you crazy if you let it.

 

[Mizze]

Oh it does it does - had myself convinced on Wednesday that I was leaking amniotic fluid - panicked big time over that. I finally gave in and bought a doppler and found LO's hb today - so today is a good day but its SO easy to frighten ourselves.

We must remember that yes occasionally things do go wrong but MOST of the time they dont - after all every person around you is the result of a successful pregnancy.

Mizze x

 

[Drazic<3]

Thanks chic, I had the amniotic fluid freak out the other day. Ended up legs akimbo in CDS but all was fine. Today, I am worried I have the start of a placental abruption (one of my biggest fears) because my tummy is tender. I mean, it's probably just bloody tender, but I can't shake it.

You are totally right. There is so much to be positive about. I think what gets me is the burden of responsibility - I mean, like pains or kicks, ect. No-one can decide if it's normal but you, and being aware is constantly on your shoulders. It's exhausting, I am just so scared of making that judgement call wrong.