I lost the plot :(

[keldac]

I am sorry to gatecrash this section as I have not actually miscarried my baby yet - but I know I will

Everybody is trying to give me false hope but that makes it worse.

I started spotting brown 8 days ago - and its not stopped. I had a scan on Monday, should have been 5w6d but sac only measured 4-5 weeks - no yolk/hb/fetal pole. HCG doubled in 48 hrs.

I am taking progesterone and HCG injections which I know is stopping me from naturally miscarrying. I BEGGED the hospital to take me in for a D&C but they said I have to wait until Tuesday, re-scan and then see what happens.

Yesterday I was so distressed the dr had to some and give me a mild sedative If I beleive there was any hope I would never have taken it.

I have had 1 mmc, 2 x mc, Shauna died suddenly aged 6 weeks, Isobel 5 yrs, Louie 3yrs and now pg again.
Although I have 2 healthy children I had many problems with their pg as well.

I;m sorry this is long - I am desperate and feel totally isolated and alone. I truly think I am going mad and can't think positive at all.
Kelly x

 

[maybebaby]

Huge to you!

 

[x_Rainbow_x]

people are giving you hope because ur hcg are doubling and so they shud be. if u was m/c they would drop.
u prob measured lower because u might have ovulated late. i was put back a week. the hospital wont do anything because ur hcg is rising. there having hope for you.
grab on to all that hope because some people aint lucky enuff 2 have any hope. you have it so cling on 2 it!

 

[tansey]

Oh hun, sorry you are feeling this way. I hope that on Tues the scan gives you some hope. We are all here if you need to talk through this. xx

 

[keldac]

people are giving you hope because ur hcg are doubling and so they shud be. if u was m/c they would drop.
u prob measured lower because u might have ovulated late. i was put back a week. the hospital wont do anything because ur hcg is rising. there having hope for you.
grab on to all that hope because some people aint lucky enuff 2 have any hope. you have it so cling on 2 it!

I have had a previous mc where my hcg doubled so that means nothing. having hope is a cruel thing to me as I just come crashing back down again. The best hope I had was when my daughter was born and even she was taken from me when she was 6 weeks old suddenly in the night.
Yes this post is very cynical but I can't help the way I am feeling and thats why I posted.

 

[x_Rainbow_x]

hun iv lost 4 babys in a row dnt have any living children and all i can do is live on hope. you need hope.
dont give up untill the doctor tells you for sure your baby is gone. iv been told i may never have children but that aint gunna stop me trying.
if i can say that, then you can.

 

[keldac]

I am so scared of having hope only to be knocked back down again, It happens to often
Everybody tells me 'you're strong' 'don't know how you cope'
Well at this moment I;m not!!!
I swear I'll be in the nut house by Tuesday !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[todteach]

huge

Take care

 

[JASMAK]

I wouldn't lose hope. Hope is not a terrible thing!!! I had BRIGHT RED bleeding throughout my ENTIRE pregnancy with my son...sometimes worse than AF! I even had to be hospitalized twice! Your Hcg is doubling, and it is only natural for you to feel worry...but, the fact that your baby measured so close to the actual dates, I feel, is a reassuring sign. *Try* to remain positive (I know, waaaay easier said than done), and see what happens on Tuesday. I will be thinking of you. I am sending positive vibes your way. (hugs)

 

[porkpie1981]

As you can see by my ticker im supposed to be over 7 weeks but when i had a scan there was nothing there so they took my hch levels 3 times and they started of at 140 and have doubled each time. I wnet up to th epu on tuesday as i was bleeding and they scanned and seen a 3 mm sac and i found out that i have a uti(thank god thats all it was). Now a 3mm sac only is about 4 weeks and i was worried but they said that my hcg shows only early pregnnacy so they dont seem too worried. What was ur hcg levels?

 

[keldac]

My hcg last Saturday (my dates 5+4 then) was 1790 and on Monday (5+6) is was 3190.
They were happy with that - obviously I;m still not!
I am sitting here in a permanent state of terror of what wil happen this week.
The last time I had sex was 24th June before pos test on 7th July so I know my dates have to be right.

 

[Mynxie]

Sperm can live inside a uterus for 7 days, so your sex dates will be right but your OV dates may not!

If your HCG is doubling, it's good.

A heartbeat usually isn't detected until some time into the 6th week, so having a scan in the 5th week and there not being a heartbeat doesn't mean it's all bad.

All you can do right now is wait and as hard as it is, try not to get stressed - it's not good for you, you'll crash and burn. You need your strength whether this LO is a fighter or whether you MC.

Thinking of you.

 

[Suzanne]

 

[xXx Vamp xXx]

 

[cerilou]

Sending you lots of

 

[Blob]

I have no idea what to say to you, but thats an awful thing to be going through and have been through. Its hard to keep hope when you think that its never going to happen and you've given up. Dont give up

 

[superp123]

Thinking of you.
P

 

[butterflies]

thinking of you

 

[jnall1965]

My hcg last Saturday (my dates 5+4 then) was 1790 and on Monday (5+6) is was 3190.
They were happy with that - obviously I;m still not!
I am sitting here in a permanent state of terror of what wil happen this week.
The last time I had sex was 24th June before pos test on 7th July so I know my dates have to be right.

I went through thi with my son, he will be 18 in October so all is not lost. I never had a with him at all. I ended up loosing his twin through an ectopic. No one could say why my levels were in creasing but no . He was eventually 10 days late but looked like he was early so i think my dates were wrong somewhere along the line.

Just take care and try not to worry and get stressed, i know it is easier said than done.

Take care

 

[sam*~*louize]

Thinking of you, whats the next plan your waiting for, more tests or scans, and when?