Lazy Leo
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I should have been 12 weeks yesterday but I'm not.
I feel like such a child crying and saying how unfair it is. My friend's sister on a life support machine at 26 is unfair. I tried to ignore yesterday but I couldn't. My friend passed remarks on one of the carry case things dad's use to strap the kids to their back and joked that she couldn't see her husband using one.
I was just a mix of emotions as I can see John using one of them and we should be looking forward to that but we're not. Instead I'm using OPKs and trying to work out if my cycle is going to be the same as was before my mc.
Will it be like this forever? Will I ever be able to go past those all important dates in the future? I've got my planned dating scan later this week and I would have been due on Feb 10. Will I always think about the baby who wasn't to be? Will it stop if I do have a healthy baby in the future, is it wrong to 'forget' about it if I do have a healthy baby?
I don't want to be sad and pathetic and crying at all these dates, but yikes it's hard.
I feel like such a child crying and saying how unfair it is. My friend's sister on a life support machine at 26 is unfair. I tried to ignore yesterday but I couldn't. My friend passed remarks on one of the carry case things dad's use to strap the kids to their back and joked that she couldn't see her husband using one.
I was just a mix of emotions as I can see John using one of them and we should be looking forward to that but we're not. Instead I'm using OPKs and trying to work out if my cycle is going to be the same as was before my mc.
Will it be like this forever? Will I ever be able to go past those all important dates in the future? I've got my planned dating scan later this week and I would have been due on Feb 10. Will I always think about the baby who wasn't to be? Will it stop if I do have a healthy baby in the future, is it wrong to 'forget' about it if I do have a healthy baby?
I don't want to be sad and pathetic and crying at all these dates, but yikes it's hard.