I think I'm finally at peace.

[tamithomas]

I have just woken up and for the first time in three years, I think I finally find myself at peace with infertility. I don't feel down,depressed or frustrated. I just had a dream that made me feel so comforted it's impossible to put in words how I feel right now. The dream consisted as simple as a boy about five years old and a girl about four playing a video game with my darling DH. It was one of those dreams that you could have mistaken for reality.

It felt as though my future children had come by for a visit in my dreams to give me a booster to not give up. It has given me a whole new view on infertility that there is hope in the end. I'm fully aware that it may be false hope, but right now I feel like on cloud 9. Sure, I went on facebook afterwards and had that rageful sense of jealousy when one of my friends just went on an uploading spree of her LO,those feelings I can't deny. But, I think at least for now I have found peace within. Just had to share. Thanks for listening!

 

[Redfraggle]

Enjoy it!

 

[2have4kids]

I love dreams

 

[PinkPeony]

That's beautiful!

Sometimes I try to imagine what I'd say to myself 10 years from now when I see that everything turns out fine. Makes me feel like I'm wasting this year++ on so much negativity when there's lots to be happy about even without my LO.

 

[tamithomas]

Thanks ladies, it really is an eye opener. It trully did feel real as reality itself. Still feeling on cloud nine. Plus tomorrow I go to get the blood results for if I got any genetic thyroid issues or not so at least I'm taking some sort of control in my courtyard.