I think my daughter's trying to tell me something

[BrandiCanucks]

I've had three dreams about giving birth to her my entire pregnancy. I'll be 28 weeks on Wednesday. I posted last week that after gaining 16lbs in less than a month, I was giving up on my VBAC and scheduling a csection because the weight gain and higher blood pressure I had were the same signs I had with my son, at the same gestational onset, and it ended up leading to a very traumatic emergency csection that almost took my son's life. I've also had a great fear my entire pregnancy, likely because of the PTSD and nightmares I had after his birth, that I would not be bringing my daughter home.

All three dreams have been in a hospital setting. One, she was born early, into a toilet with no one else attending. The second, she was born onto the bed with no one else attending.

Last night, I had a third: She was born into my hands, no one else attending, and as I watched the cord pulse, she rooted and found my breast and latched on right away, Her little face was identical to her big sister, and then by myself, with a garbage can besides me, I birthed the placenta too.
She was there, she was alive, she was absolutely beautiful.

I don't know how many of you believe in being sent signs, but after last night, I believe my daughter is trying to empower me and teach me to trust my instincts again. I believe she's trying to tell me that she will be okay, and I will be okay, and I will have a successful VBAC.

 

[Qmama79]

Nice! In our subconscious our fears and hopes come together. Enjoy your third trimester. Take to your midwife or doctor about your angst & birthing preferences. I'm sure that as you get closer, you'll get a clearer picture of what is likely to happen.