I want to actually kill myself...

[aob1013]

I only asked as work is great way to take your mind off things. I went through a period of time of not working and it drove me bonkers. xx

 

[QuintinsMommy]

clubbing and parting with friends is fun but drinking isn't good for you
get out there and try to meet people who want to do things during the day

Being Single isn't that bad, its hard but Its okay, I know it takes time to get used to, but it will be okay

try to get a hobby, learn to knit for LO, or paint .
it will help get your mind off of the bad things.

 

[amandad192]

I think I heard something about not giving people anti-depressants when they're pregnant.

Do you exercise regularly? It's a great way too boost your feel good hormones and lift your mood a bit.
I kind of know how you feeling, sort of, I went through a stage where I thought about taking my life about 2/3 years back, but for completely different reasons.
Your name is on the London teen meet thread, so you do have something to look forward to.
I don't really know what else to suggest, lots of sleep and a big bar bar of chocolate may sound good though.
You're not being ungrateful at all. You didn't ask to be pregnant and it sounds like it's still a bit of a shock to you. Yes, there are people who try for years and struggle to get pregnant, but there are also poeple who don't want to be pregnant but find themselves in that situation, so I think they should all sympathise with each other as all are in a position they didn't want to be in.

Once you cheer up a bit your pregnancy will fly by, then you can get a babysitter, go clubbing occasionally with your friends and have fun.

I hope your feeling better soon.
x

 

[supriseBump_x]

I agree, a hobby is definitely a good idea Or maybe u could do some voluntary work a few days a week.
And u need 2 get mad at your ex, stop sitting feeling sorry for yourself and get mad mad mad! he's obviously a dick for leaving you to bring up a baby on your own!!
Yes its hard, but its do-able and you'll be all the more stronger person for it

 

[leoniebabey]

Big i hope you start to feel yourself again soon
Is there some groups you could join to maby make some new friends ?
You mentioned you were at 6th form do you have a student welfare/counceller maby you could talk to them. Even just talking through your problems with someone might help!

x

 

[katekatekate]

Get help hun. Life is so precious and it will get better - I promise. If you need me I'm here, any time. x

 

[futuremommy91]

I know a lot about those kinds of thoughts and experiences, and it's just awful. First off just let me say that I think it's wonderful that youre telling someone, anyone. Letting these things out is such an important thing to do.

I know the situation itself is very difficult, but do you think some of these feelings are associated with prepartum depression? It's extremely common and can be treated.

Either way it is SO important that you go see a doctor. They will not try to do anything like take your baby away- they will just try to help you. And wouldn't it be worth it if you felt just a little bit better?

If you need a text buddy or anything just PM me- I've been this low many times and I know how difficult it can be to raise yourself out. But you can do it.

 

[Wobbles]

I can't feel happy anymore. Everything is so wrong...and I feel constant guilt for feeling this way...
I didn't want to be pregnant. I wanted to spend this summer partying and getting ready for uni. Instead i'm single, alone and getting fatter, spending all day everyday doing NOTHING. Nobody invites me out anymore. And if I DID go clubbing, I can't enjoy myself. I'm so lonely because my boyfriend dumped me. I'm so hurt. He's off with new girls and i'm alone. Guys don't want to be with me because i'm pregnant.
I cry all the time. I can't think straight without crying. There just seems no way out. If it wasn't for the fact that my beautiful angel was dependent on me for life, I would seriously consider killing myself. I don't resent the baby. I want to live for him/her...there just seems no point in living for MYSELF.
I can't deal with it....
I'm so alone. So depressed. I have the whole summer of doing nothing to look forward to. Just thinking about my ex and crying. And thats it.
I know. I'm an ungreatful bitch. Other women would give anything to get pregnant. If I don't feel like this why don't I get it terminated? I should have kept my legs together. I know I KNOW.

But I love my accidental angel. I don't want anything bad to happen to it. I think i'm losing my head...

Your emotions are up and down and having a baby is scary for most people.

FOB - Don't want to comment on his relations so quickly with other girls not knowing the full story, but you know if hes done a drop and run because he can then he's not someone you should miss although theres no doubt in my mind it hurts so much his weakenss will be your strenght even if you don't see it now.

There also comes a time in everyones life where friendships are tested and if your friends haven't made time for you just because you can't party for a while and your going to be a Mummy then they aren't worth much in friendship. Just because you are becoming a Mummy doesn't mean your life is on permanant stand still hun. Do you have a best friend? As for other guys - you don't need another one sounds like you just got rid of one arse why bring another into yours and bumps life? Don't look for love hun and one day it will all fit nicely into place for you.

I assume you have had a scan and a picture by now. Take a look at your beanie, smile and take it in - this baby needs you and you have everything to go on for. When baby starts really moving I think that will help you I can't say I felt a physical bond with my bumps until that point esspecially with my first then it was WOW! thats MY little girl I feel moving and living tucked in my belly. Being a Mummy is no doubt challenging but those moments your heart melts by far takes over.

I bet if you had a moment to yourself you would see you have much better about you, could pick youself up with your head very high, fill a paddling pool to dunk your achey feet in a crush some ice for a j20 this summer

It sounds like you need some company ...What I would like you to consider is asking your MW if there are any young Mum groups around for you to join and if she doesn't know you ask her to ask the area health visitor. After baby is born there are play days and groups you can join with baby and you will make friends with others who have become great parents!

You can do this right?

 

[bbyno1]

hey,so sorry to read what your going threw..iv bee threw the same thing so i hav a gd idea how you must be feeling but insted my ex got back with me but atm we seem to be going threw a ruff patch too..
where abouts in london you from?im from london aswell if you wanna talk i could meet you some time? just a thought x
and like the others said going to see another docter might help x

 

[x-Lovee-x]

I know it is hard to believe but things will get better! You have got a beautiful little baby on the way & when the baby is here i think your feel alot better! I agree with everyone maybe you should talk to your gp about how you feel, i know i feel better when i talk to someone. Your not alone though! Being pregnant does stop you doing alot of things but it will all be worth it & there is plenty of other things to do!

I wouldnt worry about your ex its his loss! There is always someone better out there and your still young! Keep smiling Were all here for you x x

 

[rubixcyoob.]

Hun things might seem bad just now and unless you decide to look on the positive and be procreative then youl always feel this way :/

Don't be caught up in you exs life. He's an ex for a reason and from previous threads sounds like a douche. Who cares he's out with a random string of people? At the end of the day you have someone more precious than he will ever find and both you and your LO will find and do deserve someone better.

You say you have no friends but that will change. When you get to uni people are from all walks of life, all family situations, all places and all ages. They won't care about LO and certainly won't judge or avoid you for them.

To keep yourself occupied join a group. Whether it be a young mums, aqua natal, pregnancy yoga, a arts and crafts, anything. Just get yourself out and meet new people. This will solve the dilema of not having friends as you will meet new people and not having anything to do.

As for summer try and find work. Whether it be part time or voluntary. It will give you something to do and people to meet.

As for being single, enjoy it. You have no holds and LO all to yourself don't fret over not having a guy or no one seeming interested. You are looking in the wrong places at the wrong boys. One day a man will rescue you and accept you and all your past. You just have to have paitence.

I don't want this to sound harsh, I just want you to see that if you do a few simple things it can hopefully cure your dilemas without medication and build up a new, better life for you and LO xxx

 

[hopeandpray]

definitely keep yourself busy, make something for your baby. are you creative? maybe apint something for your LO or get a nursery ready? something that will keep you busy and helo you to focus on the future. When you have your LO every day you will have something to look forward to, first smile, first giggle, first step etc. and you will have this for the rest of your life! i know it's hard but things will get better, try never to forget that

 

[Dragonfly]

Really sorry that you feel this way, Its not surpsing your young and its a life changing thing. It dosnt mean its the end of your life though. Your scared and alone, now thats scary! I know but no wonder you are upset. I see you do want your baby and am happy to see that and when your baby is born things will be so different but you wouldnt change it. I know its hard to believe as you wont know till you get there. Please do speak to a doc if you have depression anyway they have ways of helping in pregnancy. I think you will be an ok mum you know its just a lot to get the head around and all mums get scared if you didnt then you wouldnt care.

 

[Marzipan_girl]

Oh girls...you're all so amazing. I feel like I cast a downer on everything because i'm always so depressed and most of my posts on here have been of me moaning...but it's such a comfort that there is support here for me. Thankyou ALL of you! I actually feel alot better today...
I think I need to make some new friends really. Be proactive rather than sitting here feeling sorry for myself. And one thing I have to look forward to...tomorrow I have a private scan to find out if baby is a boy or a girl! I'm nervous-but so excited!
Thankyou all

 

[aob1013]

So glad you feel better sweetie, we are all here for you. Keep focusing on the positives xxx

 

[aob1013]

By the way, which bit of London are you in? I'm half an hour from London, surely we can meet up for some girl time! x

 

[Dragonfly]

Oh girls...you're all so amazing. I feel like I cast a downer on everything because i'm always so depressed and most of my posts on here have been of me moaning...but it's such a comfort that there is support here for me. Thankyou ALL of you! I actually feel alot better today...
I think I need to make some new friends really. Be proactive rather than sitting here feeling sorry for myself. And one thing I have to look forward to...tomorrow I have a private scan to find out if baby is a boy or a girl! I'm nervous-but so excited!
Thankyou all

glad to see it, we all have our down moments and moans, you should hear me in here sometimes

 

[miquelsmommy]

I can't feel happy anymore. Everything is so wrong...and I feel constant guilt for feeling this way...
I didn't want to be pregnant. I wanted to spend this summer partying and getting ready for uni. Instead i'm single, alone and getting fatter, spending all day everyday doing NOTHING. Nobody invites me out anymore. And if I DID go clubbing, I can't enjoy myself. I'm so lonely because my boyfriend dumped me. I'm so hurt. He's off with new girls and i'm alone. Guys don't want to be with me because i'm pregnant.
I cry all the time. I can't think straight without crying. There just seems no way out. If it wasn't for the fact that my beautiful angel was dependent on me for life, I would seriously consider killing myself. I don't resent the baby. I want to live for him/her...there just seems no point in living for MYSELF.
I can't deal with it....
I'm so alone. So depressed. I have the whole summer of doing nothing to look forward to. Just thinking about my ex and crying. And thats it.
I know. I'm an ungreatful bitch. Other women would give anything to get pregnant. If I don't feel like this why don't I get it terminated? I should have kept my legs together. I know I KNOW.

But I love my accidental angel. I don't want anything bad to happen to it. I think i'm losing my head...

Omq hun i wish i could huq u an tell u its qoinq to be okay. It is actually. I had the same problem my ex has a new qf and when he comes to c me it tears me up inside knowinq tht hes wl someone else. Ive just literally been prayinq and lookinq at thinqs differently. i mean i cant complain hes still helpinq wl the baby and im sure we will qet back toqether soon, but riqht now my baby is more important than anythinq. And its very important that u stay emotionally healthy durrinq your preqnancy, to avoid complications. TRUST me; i had the same thouqhts abt 2 mnths aqo. everythinq will qet better for you just pray and stay POSITIVE. i wish u the best hun

 

[katekatekate]

Glad you're feeling better! We all have down days but it helps to talk and moan about it to people who understand (i.e us).

 

[Luke's_mummy]

Hey babe. It must be hard now, but when your little bubba is here you'll be so lucky! =] For the summer, find some voluntary work maybe? Or like others have said take up a hobby. I'm in london, about 30 mins from central london... Where abouts are you? Maybe you'd like to meet up as Ally was saying, Pop over to the forum meets part and you should come to the London teen meet that KrisKitten is arranging, that might be nice for you? hope you#re okay =]