I want to actually kill myself...

[FemmeEnceinte]

I can't feel happy anymore. Everything is so wrong...and I feel constant guilt for feeling this way...
I didn't want to be pregnant. I wanted to spend this summer partying and getting ready for uni. Instead i'm single, alone and getting fatter, spending all day everyday doing NOTHING. Nobody invites me out anymore. And if I DID go clubbing, I can't enjoy myself. I'm so lonely because my boyfriend dumped me. I'm so hurt. He's off with new girls and i'm alone. Guys don't want to be with me because i'm pregnant.
I cry all the time. I can't think straight without crying. There just seems no way out. If it wasn't for the fact that my beautiful angel was dependent on me for life, I would seriously consider killing myself. I don't resent the baby. I want to live for him/her...there just seems no point in living for MYSELF.
I can't deal with it....
I'm so alone. So depressed. I have the whole summer of doing nothing to look forward to. Just thinking about my ex and crying. And thats it.
I know. I'm an ungreatful bitch. Other women would give anything to get pregnant. If I don't feel like this why don't I get it terminated? I should have kept my legs together. I know I KNOW.

But I love my accidental angel. I don't want anything bad to happen to it. I think i'm losing my head...

Meh, uni is full of irritating students... I hated proper student types, believe me... everyone thinks they're so amazing and it gets very old, very fast. You're not missing out on anything impressive. The education aspect you can always catch up on and you will if you're keen enough.

I don't miss drinking one bit and, looking back, it's not all that. You're a bigger, better person now and people won't ever know how special your life is becoming until they're there themselves.

Massive your life is getting better, not worse. I promise x

 

[AngelzTears]

Oh girls...you're all so amazing. I feel like I cast a downer on everything because i'm always so depressed and most of my posts on here have been of me moaning...but it's such a comfort that there is support here for me. Thankyou ALL of you! I actually feel alot better today...
I think I need to make some new friends really. Be proactive rather than sitting here feeling sorry for myself. And one thing I have to look forward to...tomorrow I have a private scan to find out if baby is a boy or a girl! I'm nervous-but so excited!
Thankyou all

You're not a downer to us hun, I think everyone has let out venting on here at some point. I love this site because it's so easy to find someone who can relate to whatever situation we might be in

And let us know if it's a girl or boy, how exciting!!

 

[Marzipan_girl]

Oh girls...you're all so amazing. I feel like I cast a downer on everything because i'm always so depressed and most of my posts on here have been of me moaning...but it's such a comfort that there is support here for me. Thankyou ALL of you! I actually feel alot better today...
I think I need to make some new friends really. Be proactive rather than sitting here feeling sorry for myself. And one thing I have to look forward to...tomorrow I have a private scan to find out if baby is a boy or a girl! I'm nervous-but so excited!
Thankyou all

You're not a downer to us hun, I think everyone has let out venting on here at some point. I love this site because it's so easy to find someone who can relate to whatever situation we might be in

And let us know if it's a girl or boy, how exciting!!

It's a BOY!!!!!!!!



Hhehe although you might have read that already on my other thread. It IS so exciting!

 

[EmandBub]

Oh girls...you're all so amazing. I feel like I cast a downer on everything because i'm always so depressed and most of my posts on here have been of me moaning...but it's such a comfort that there is support here for me. Thankyou ALL of you! I actually feel alot better today...
I think I need to make some new friends really. Be proactive rather than sitting here feeling sorry for myself. And one thing I have to look forward to...tomorrow I have a private scan to find out if baby is a boy or a girl! I'm nervous-but so excited!
Thankyou all

You're not a downer to us hun, I think everyone has let out venting on here at some point. I love this site because it's so easy to find someone who can relate to whatever situation we might be in

And let us know if it's a girl or boy, how exciting!!

It's a BOY!!!!!!!!



Hhehe although you might have read that already on my other thread. It IS so exciting!

Bet you're excited!
i can't wait to find out. xxx