dontworry
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So I've been reading dizzyisacow's journal, and she has enlightened me (by making me realize my own addiction to overeating) and inspired me (by posting her own journey to weight loss here for everybody to read, which terrifies me). And with this new-found enlightenment, I've decided to start writing my own journal to record, publicly, my journey to healthiness. I hope it works, lol.
I've tried to write things on paper, but I'm constantly afraid that someone will pick it up, read it, and judge me. Because I "carry my weight well", nobody believes how much I truly weigh, not even my OH! I'm gonna post it here every week, and hopefully we'll see some numbers drop. I know I can lose this weight, it doesn't matter how long it takes, but it'd be nice to be able to fit into a wedding dress of my choice for my April 1st wedding next year. I do NOT want to be "skinny" or "thin" or a size 0. I don't care if I'm still super curvy - I love curves. I just want to be able to walk up and down the hills around my house without immediately being out of breath.
Starting weight at 3:51am on Feb. 11th, 2010 = 223.8 lbs.
What an ugly number! Yuck! But this will change! I have faith in myself, I know I can make it happen.
So, what am I changing right now? For the next two days (well, starting when I wake up later this morning... ) I will be doing my own sort of "fasting". I will only be eating veggies and fruits, and drinking only water. I take my vitamins every day, so I won't be losing out on too much good stuff. I just want to cleanse myself before starting anew. I went grocery shopping tonight (fruits and veggies are SO expensive!! I couldn't believe it!) so I have bananas (my favorite), apples, spinach, broccoli and cauliflower, corn, peas, green beans, peaches and pears. Most of them are fresh - the cauliflower and green beans are frozen though. I probably won't eat it all, but my OH knows about my two day fasting and has decided to do it with me. I'm half glad and half annoyed, because now I know he'll be scrutinizing my every move. But whatever! I'll ignore him if I must.
I better get to bed (finally). I'll try and update everyday, whether I like it or not. You girls are my inspiration! Especially YOU, dizzy!
I've tried to write things on paper, but I'm constantly afraid that someone will pick it up, read it, and judge me. Because I "carry my weight well", nobody believes how much I truly weigh, not even my OH! I'm gonna post it here every week, and hopefully we'll see some numbers drop. I know I can lose this weight, it doesn't matter how long it takes, but it'd be nice to be able to fit into a wedding dress of my choice for my April 1st wedding next year. I do NOT want to be "skinny" or "thin" or a size 0. I don't care if I'm still super curvy - I love curves. I just want to be able to walk up and down the hills around my house without immediately being out of breath.
Starting weight at 3:51am on Feb. 11th, 2010 = 223.8 lbs.
What an ugly number! Yuck! But this will change! I have faith in myself, I know I can make it happen.
So, what am I changing right now? For the next two days (well, starting when I wake up later this morning... ) I will be doing my own sort of "fasting". I will only be eating veggies and fruits, and drinking only water. I take my vitamins every day, so I won't be losing out on too much good stuff. I just want to cleanse myself before starting anew. I went grocery shopping tonight (fruits and veggies are SO expensive!! I couldn't believe it!) so I have bananas (my favorite), apples, spinach, broccoli and cauliflower, corn, peas, green beans, peaches and pears. Most of them are fresh - the cauliflower and green beans are frozen though. I probably won't eat it all, but my OH knows about my two day fasting and has decided to do it with me. I'm half glad and half annoyed, because now I know he'll be scrutinizing my every move. But whatever! I'll ignore him if I must.
I better get to bed (finally). I'll try and update everyday, whether I like it or not. You girls are my inspiration! Especially YOU, dizzy!