Mrs_X
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title says it all
i was so devestated at my last miscarriage, i have emotionally detached myself from this pregnancy.
i have a scan tomorrow at the EPAU (im 9 weeks), my midwife recommended me going after me telling her how i felt.
im going in prepared for the worst. im going in to expect to hear i have had a blightum ovum again and to have a D&C on friday.
its so wrong that i feel like this, but i cant go through all the hurt and grieve again, i really really cant. if i was excited, it would hurt me more like it did last time.
im a weirdo, i have wished from 14 months of TTC to be where i am now; but im so depressed and worried
sarah xxx
i was so devestated at my last miscarriage, i have emotionally detached myself from this pregnancy.
i have a scan tomorrow at the EPAU (im 9 weeks), my midwife recommended me going after me telling her how i felt.
im going in prepared for the worst. im going in to expect to hear i have had a blightum ovum again and to have a D&C on friday.
its so wrong that i feel like this, but i cant go through all the hurt and grieve again, i really really cant. if i was excited, it would hurt me more like it did last time.
im a weirdo, i have wished from 14 months of TTC to be where i am now; but im so depressed and worried
sarah xxx