mummymurray74
Pregnant again after mmc
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Hi ladies,
Im 37, dh 43, have 4 children...18,13,11,2 and we want to have one last baby, we have been trying since last december and still nothing. Ive never had any trouble before with the longest taking 3months. Its now been 10months and i am so worried something is wrong and im never going to have another baby. I love my kids and im happy with what i have but we have this yearning for one more( it will be our second together) my others were from a previous marriage.
I have my appointment next tuesday at the fertility clinic and im sooooo scared. Things started off fine when i came off the pill, ovulating on day 14/15 and a luteal phase of 16days. This then changed after 3 months to ovulating on day 20/21 and same luteal phase so i knew i was 'back to normal'. But the past month i had spotting when i was supposed to ovulate and then i didnt ovulate till day 32! then i spotted for 3 days before my period was due too, and i dont know whats happened? i did go on holiday last month and it was a 4hour flight home 1 day before i was due to ovulate, so i dont know if that had anything to do with it?.
Ive tried opk's, temping and cm watching etc to not doing anything because it was too much and relaxing and forgetting about it and nothing happened still?? I am now worried my eggs are crap and thats why im having spotting etc or something else is wrong with me maybe i have an infection?? but i have no symptoms of infection. I feel so tired with it all, the temping the feeling that im 'on alert' all the time for cm/pains etc. My hubby is so dissapointed every month and im starting to feel so low, everyone i see is pregnant, thats what it feels like!! And im so jealous, and i dont like feeling like that. My sister and i havent spoken for 5 months because she got pregnant with another after 'not trying' and she kept telling me i needed to relax!!!! We dont have the best relationship anyway as she is a bit of a snob and married a stockbroker and lives in a rich area, anyway!!! thats beside the point!
I feel like i am going to burst into tears all the time, i so want a little sister (or even another brother!!)if possible (i have boys) for our son as he has nobody to grow up with, as there is such a big age gap. I am having reflexology for the first time on thursday as ive been thinjing about it for months and now id like to see if it will help? We did a home sperm test and that came back perfect, so i know deep down its me and i just want it to be something that can be cured, im getting myself into such a state that they are going to tell me i cant have anymore because my eggs are no good or worse! Yet i know people older than me that are having more babies, and women have them older these days anyway dont they?.
I am slowly losing my mind and i would love to hear from anyone in the same boat or that had a happy ending and panicked just like i am.
Good luck to everyone trying, if its no 1 or no 10!!!! Its dosent matter, if you want a baby so much then the feeling is the same no matter how many you have.
Im 37, dh 43, have 4 children...18,13,11,2 and we want to have one last baby, we have been trying since last december and still nothing. Ive never had any trouble before with the longest taking 3months. Its now been 10months and i am so worried something is wrong and im never going to have another baby. I love my kids and im happy with what i have but we have this yearning for one more( it will be our second together) my others were from a previous marriage.
I have my appointment next tuesday at the fertility clinic and im sooooo scared. Things started off fine when i came off the pill, ovulating on day 14/15 and a luteal phase of 16days. This then changed after 3 months to ovulating on day 20/21 and same luteal phase so i knew i was 'back to normal'. But the past month i had spotting when i was supposed to ovulate and then i didnt ovulate till day 32! then i spotted for 3 days before my period was due too, and i dont know whats happened? i did go on holiday last month and it was a 4hour flight home 1 day before i was due to ovulate, so i dont know if that had anything to do with it?.
Ive tried opk's, temping and cm watching etc to not doing anything because it was too much and relaxing and forgetting about it and nothing happened still?? I am now worried my eggs are crap and thats why im having spotting etc or something else is wrong with me maybe i have an infection?? but i have no symptoms of infection. I feel so tired with it all, the temping the feeling that im 'on alert' all the time for cm/pains etc. My hubby is so dissapointed every month and im starting to feel so low, everyone i see is pregnant, thats what it feels like!! And im so jealous, and i dont like feeling like that. My sister and i havent spoken for 5 months because she got pregnant with another after 'not trying' and she kept telling me i needed to relax!!!! We dont have the best relationship anyway as she is a bit of a snob and married a stockbroker and lives in a rich area, anyway!!! thats beside the point!
I feel like i am going to burst into tears all the time, i so want a little sister (or even another brother!!)if possible (i have boys) for our son as he has nobody to grow up with, as there is such a big age gap. I am having reflexology for the first time on thursday as ive been thinjing about it for months and now id like to see if it will help? We did a home sperm test and that came back perfect, so i know deep down its me and i just want it to be something that can be cured, im getting myself into such a state that they are going to tell me i cant have anymore because my eggs are no good or worse! Yet i know people older than me that are having more babies, and women have them older these days anyway dont they?.
I am slowly losing my mind and i would love to hear from anyone in the same boat or that had a happy ending and panicked just like i am.
Good luck to everyone trying, if its no 1 or no 10!!!! Its dosent matter, if you want a baby so much then the feeling is the same no matter how many you have.