I know ill probably need to explain myself in great detail here, if people can help me out here it'd be awesome. So, today is mine and my ex's first year anniversary if we we're still together. Ive been so bothered about it all day deep in thought and i cant tell my parents whats wrong as they'll probably think im being stupid or say he wasn't worth it which i agree about sometimes, but its like the good times outweighed the bad stuff when we we're together. Me and current OH have been together for 6 months and to be honest im not happy at all, it just feels like ive rushed into this relationship without giving myself time to air off alittle, lets just say he isn't exactly stunner material to me and it probably makes me sound like a bitch but the only reason i go out with him is because he buys me stuff and i just feel like crying..i was single for 3 months before i met my current OH incase people wanted to know. Me & my ex do sometimes hang out on the off days, and he says such things like ive missed you and hug me and stuff. Well the only reason we split up was because i felt we we're growing apart and i had a crush on someone else at the time and didn't think it fair keeping him hanging on there and i was going back emo at the time and he didn't like it and would moan at me so in the end i got bored of it, and he got his new car then and it just seemed that was all he cared about, so i ended it in March this year..And we didn't talk for a few months and then he started talking to me again and he basically said the "L" word to me and then told me to forget he said that, i mean whats up with that? And then a second ago, he popped up and said he needed to talk to me, as he's going back to university tomorrow, which about 11/12 miles away..I just dont know what to do, ive already cheated with my OH with him and i dont wanna do it again.. I just feel like not existing, im upset all the time.. ...Sorry about the essay, i feel better now ive got that out of my system.