I'm sorry that you, and many of us have to go through this, it's honestly the worst feeling in the world, but an important thing to remember is your not alone
I have no friends who are TTC or dealing with infertility, so when I'm having days where I stay in my pyjamas all day crying, I come on here. It might be an internet forum, but I feel like I can be much more open about everything on here than I can in real life, and I get a lot of support from the woman in LTTTC, so you definitely always have us
I would do exactly what pop chick said, make sure you've researched exactly what you want to ask the doctor, what you want doing and any questions, maybe even write them down! After having some bad experiences with doctors in the past, when I went to see my newest doctor and spoke to her about my ovulation tests, temp dips, cycle lengths, luteal phase changes, cm etc... she actually said to me "is refreshing to speak to a patient who knows what they're talking about"
I really hope I'm not over stepping the line here, but my inner psychologist is worried about you
its normal for woman suffering from infertility to feel all of the things you have described and go through the ups and downs, but if you feel like you are never having any ups, have you thought about going to see someone to talk about it? Or maybe you could find local infertility groups or similar through the local hospital or clinic? I'm not embarrassed to say after about 6-7 weeks of crying and moping constantly, I knew I had to do something and I see a counsellor every so often just to vent and scream and cry and shout at her, and it really does help.
I wish you every bit of luck
where to start? I dont want to get out of bed, because thats the only place i feel needed.
i dont care to be around anyone. strangers at the store even tell me to cheer up, i guess you can read it on my face. i dont have the urge to do anything or hang out with anyone. i dont know what to do. i guess you can say im depressed. i cry at everything especially at shows like teen mom or 16 and pregnant or anything like that. im just finally to the bottom and its really hard to see the top. im going to the doctor this month to get some answers, but i am so scared its not going to be the answers i want to hear. its so hard to be going through this alone and no one i know really truly knows what i am feeling. my husband is a truck driver and he is gone a month at a time so just the feeling of loneliness is overwhelming. I turn 27 this month and i think that scares me too because i dont have many child bearing years left and cant really waste time. i always go back to those questions, why me? am i a bad person? why are you calling me selfish? WHY? my faith is running low, and i just need some hope at the end of this tunnel. 
