Introduction - happy to meet you all!

[Becca21]

Hi everyone!

My name is Becca. I was not sure how to post to existing forums lol but I wanted to say hi and introduce myself. I am 27 years old and will be married to my DH for two years this July. I became a fur Mom last June and that has been a step in the right direction, but all I have ever wanted is to have kids of my own. DH and I are planning TTC Jan 2016 (my birthday actually) although it is possible we could start as early as Christmas 2015 if all goes better than according to plan.

Our reasons for waiting are we want a house first (which will be happening this year sometime), Dh wants a decent amount of savings before we start TTC, and my biggest reason is I have GAD (generalized anxiety disorder) with a touch of agoraphobia and want all of that managed as best I can before I bring a baby into our life.

I would be the first of all my best friends to be a Mommy. I am in a tough spot where half of my friends are so far away from motherhood they don't want to hear about it and the other half are already part of the "Mommy club" and they feel I don't fit in. I finally found a coworker and good friend to talk to who directed me here. I am so thankful she did I have been reading all of your stories for a week now and just finally had the guts to post. Knowing you ladies exist makes me feel way less alone. SO sorry for the book, but I am so excited to be a part of your community and please feel free to introduce yourselves as well.

 

[Mommieh25]

Hi Becca and welcome!

 

[itsnowmyturn]

Welcome, I'm here for a while so u can share ur wtt journey with me xx

 

[callmedan]

Welcome

 

[kksy9b]

Hello and welcome! This is really a wonderful and supportive group of ladies here. How many children do you think that you would like to have?

My name is Kaity and am also 27. I have one son who is 10 months old now. I think we are going to be TTC for one month is Jan 2016 as well! If it doesn't happen we will wait a few months and start in the may-july range.

Hope to get to know you better while you wait!

 

[Becca21]

Thank you so much Mommieh25 and callmedan Nice to meet you two.

That is so sweet of you to offer itsnowmyturn. Not too much more for the moment. Just bugging DH with baby names, a lot of random trivia, and things I am learning. Once we are FINALLY in a house, I will have a lot more updates about my journey.

Thank you so much Kaity! I have already seen what an amazing group of ladies is here. I also don't feel crazy for thinking about my birth plan or nursery colors before I am TTC anymore.

DH and I want two. I have always wanted a boy and a girl. I'm sure I will be happy with whatever children I get to have, but as a concept right now I really want once of each lol. DH is pretty adamant that we are not outnumbered so it will probably stay two regardless.

I also want a big age group with my kids. DH and I have brothers two years younger than us and we pretty much hated them growing up and still dont have the best relationship with our siblings. Plus I think with the GAD I will handle it better when the first one can go off to preschool and then I have just one baby at home to focus on. So ideally, I would like to have my first at 28 and my second at 33 or 34, so i am all done by 35. That would mean we would have to get preggo pretty quick next year, but my OB gyn says she doesnt see any reason that wont happen.

The other thing about only having two is I had a spinal fusion (T8-L4) about 11 years ago, and it's quite possible I wont be able to have an epidural or anything in my back and my spine might not move correctly for delivery- so I am already pretty high risk for a C section. Two of those sound more than enough for me.

Aww how precious! I bet he is adorable Congratulations!! How was your pregnancy and labor? if you don't mind me asking. Yay! So I will have a TTC buddy, how exciting! Much better option than convincing my girlfriends they are ready for kids lol. Are you hoping for a girl this time?? How many kinds do you want to have?

It was so nice to meet you all, please feel free to share any of your stories as well. I love hearing about other people's lives, particularly the ones with baby fever such as myself.

 

[kksy9b]

No reason to feel crazy about thinking of TTC and everything that goes with it, pregnancy and baby! Better (IMO) to have a basic idea of what you want beforehand...and it is crazy fun to look through everything and plan it all out in your head Do you want to do any type of theme for a nursery? What about names…any thoughts? I’m pretty nosy…I just love talking about that kind of thing! lol

That is cool that you want to have a larger age gap- it's not something that I commonly hear. I think both a small and big have advantages and disadvantages. I have 2 older brothers, 4 and 6 years older. We were very close when we were younger because they were old enough to help take care of me. But when they hit those teenage years it was difficult. There is just not much that a 14 yo boy has in common with his 8 yo sister. However, now that we are adults we are close again. I think because of the larger gap, we never had to deal with jealousies, competitiveness etc to drive us apart in younger years.

I always wanted 3 (both DH and I have 2 older brothers). But when my DS was 3 months old I babysat some friends kids, 4 and 2 y/o and it pretty much set me firmly in the 2 kids category. We are aiming for a 2 1/2 - 3 year gap. It's going to be crazy with a toddler and NB, but I stay at home now. In order to stay on track with our financial goals, I need to be back at work in 2020/2021 so that's where we are!

I don't mind you asking at all! I had an amazing pregnancy. I know a lot of people have very difficult times, and I am sure next time around it will be different, but with my DS, it was (mostly) a breeze. I was nauseous pretty much 24/7 for 6 weeks in 1st tri, but never sick, so it was manageable. Second tri was my favorite....started feeling my LO at 16 weeks moving which is just the most amazing feeling. I didn't get a noticeable bump until 24 weeks (I'm 5'10" so he had lots of room to stretch out first). We would play games together, and he HATED hiccups. Would get so mad when he got them. When music would play he would start dancing around. Just a relaxed little guy.The last month was pretty rough on sleep. On my back, baby would slide into lungs and couldn't breath. On one side, my arm would go numb and the other side would get super nauseous. But, I was up 10 times a night to pee so it worked out somehow lol. Only stressful parts were that he measured small the entire pregnancy so I had to have multiple growth scans.He was just fine in the end, but it was worrisome at the time. Honestly though, I absolutely LOVED being pregnant. It was hard to watch my body change, but this little life moving was worth it. If I could be pregnant all the time, i think I would...I just can't handle the extra kids! lol

labor/delivery- Well, my LO was 12 days late. I was scheduled for an induction on April 12th when he decided to get things moving on his own the night before. I was in active labor for 16 hours before pushing. I labored 8 hours at home, 8 in the hospital. I walked my way through about 13 hours of natural labor until I hit transition around 5am. I was exhausted and didn't think I would have enough energy to push. Requested an epi and it kicked in at 9 cm. Nurse broke my water and I got to rest for an hour. Shortly after it was time to push! My epi was amazing because I could still feel all the pressure, just no pain. So I got to lead my entire delivery on when to push and for how long. Took 40 minutes and he was there.

Oh my. When his head popped out, I think time stood still for a minute. The space of breaths between that moment and when I saw him was filled with utter relief that he was out, a high like I have never had, feeling like "i am woman hear me roar" kind of a thing. And the nearly unbearable anticipation of having him in my arms. I know it was only seconds, but that time felt like hours and I can distinctly remember all my thoughts during it.

And then he was there. This little bundle screaming and pinking up, put immediately on my chest. I looked at my husband and he was bawling...a dad falling in love before my eyes. And then I looked at my son and my heart was so full I thought it would burst out of my chest. This child who I had prayed for since I was a little girl, who I had spent countless hours wishing and wanting was finally here. Some people don't bond right away...for me, that was not the case. We formed an instant bond with one another. He calmed down as I started talking to him and promptly fell asleep for a few minutes. He nursed within 15 minutes of birth. He came out small for being 2 weeks late (6 lbs 13 oz) but by 2 weeks old was 8 lbs…champion nurser!

For me, the pregnancy, labor, delivery and having him here was absolutely amazing. I cannot wait to go through it again. And for gender, I honestly don’t care. I used to always want one of each, but now that I have a boy, I would love for him to have a little brother. If it was a girl, it’s a bit easier since we already have a name but really…I am not picky…just a healthy baby!

Sorry for the novel! Sick baby nirsing more= lots of time to type lol.Whatever questions you have, feel free to ask and I will try to answer the best I can! I know what it is like in that anticipation of being pregnant for the first time. I’ve only gone through it once and am by no means an expert, but I will be honest with you (a lot of people will gloss over different parts…especially the labor) if you want to know anything!

 

[busytulip]

Just wanted to pop in and welcome you Becca!

kksy-that was lovely, thanks for sharing!

 

[itsnowmyturn]

I hated being pregnant, nothing dangerous but I had every textbook symptom apart from sickness (which actually made it worse because then everyone assumed I was having a great pregnancy) was only sick once a day from 10 to 14 weeks so that was manageable but the rest of it all just made it feel like 9 months of being ill, with pregnancy insomnia, rhinitis of pregnancy, joint problems and many more I hated it. I never really got a huge bump and what I did get was all baby and u could see where she was (usually ass in my ribs pushing them out...that hurt). I could sleep sort of on my stomach until closer to the end, probably around 32 weeks theb it was more comfortable to sleep on my side despite having spd. However I do seriously miss being pregnant, lo always had hiccups and I loved feeling them, she had a habit of digging her heals into my side or hip bone. And I miss my bump. My labour was pretty easy, I barely knew I was in labour, I had an idea I might be but thought it was just pregnancy niggles and spd playing up, I was having a scan that day and they never picked it up, I mentioned the pains to my consultant who shrugged it off as practice labour n braxton hicks. Went home due to be induced the next day due to baby's growth stopping. Got home and laid on the bed for an hour, threw up a couple of times then went downstairs and after a few more much worse pains I decided to call triage n they said early labour get a bath and paracetamol, sent oh to run a bath then next one I needed to push, made my way upstairs and had a feel, could feel head pressing down n had blood there so we called the ambulance, after first responder assessing contractions and then ambulance crew assessing them they decided to deliver at home. I had my baby girl at home on my bed only and hour n half after being told to get a bath lol. She was born in her waters and shares my birthday pretty unique baby. Everyone keeps telling me to plan for a home birth next time but if I can get into hospital i wud much rather do that than have the next at home too lol

 

[Iveneverseen]

Hello & Welcome.

I am 28 (29 this july) and have been with my husband 10 years, married 2 years in august. we have 3 children already and plan to ttc our 4th and last in september x

 

[Becca21]

busytulip thank you for taking a moment to welcome me. It is nice to meet you

Kaity- yeah I'm an avid planner so everything in my life I try to have down to the details. I have been thinking about babies since middle school and the fact that it is right around the corner now is very surreal to me.

I've had a couple thoughts on nurseries. Hubby is half monkey so I love the idea of a jungle theme if we were to have a boy. And I am a Disney nerd so I love the idea of having something Disney for a boy or girl. (Lion King, etc.) I have also liked the idea of doing just colors. So having like a grey and white base with the accent color depending on the gender(purple for girl, blue for boy). That way we wouldn't need to redo a lot of it when the second one is born.

What are you thinking for a nursery? And names?

Haha no please ask any questions! I am the same way. As far as I am concerned there is no such thing as TMI and I would gladly talk about this stuff all day long. lol.

Names I go back and forth on a lot. I have the middle names since we are basing them off family. So for a boy it is McNair (my FIL's middle name) and all the women on my Mom's side of the family have the middle name Anne. Right now I am pretty obsessed with the name Cory for a boy and anything starting with an E for a girl or Mila. The only girl name I was ever going to use is Raylee (half Riley and half Bailey) but I hate the way it sounds with Anne. Hubby has already told me that we will not actually pick them until I am pregnant. So for now just thoughts in my head.

Yeah I always knew I wanted a larger gap and luckily DH felt the same way I did. I like the idea of having like a little person to help out and not another baby to take care of. But like I said a lot of that is due to my anxiety disorder. I know other people who had siblings very close and they were best friends. So I agree that there are disadvantages and advantages to both. So glad to hear that you are close with your siblings now!

Haha yeah babysitting will do that. I worked in Daycares for a couple years and really hated being outnumbered. 21/2 to 3 year age gap is very nice. Not quite so little that the older one can't do somethings by themselves, but still be close in age to his little. Wow I think that is soo cool that you guys have already thought so far in advance. I have never heard of that before, it's refreshing and so proactive! You already know when things need to get back on track but you gave yourself plenty of time to be STAHM. I work part time from home now, something I am hoping to continue but that depends on how my pregnancy goes, labor, and whether I'll want to once I finally have my LO. Honestly, my dream job has been a STAHM so I think until I get that dream I won't even know what I would want for like a career. My cousin always tell me that my career will be Mom, and everything else is a job. That seems pretty accurate.

Do you know what you want to get back to in 2020/2021? or do you already have a career?

That is so awesome to hear you had an easy pregnancy! It is the 1st trimester that scares me the most. I have a vomit phobia, so morning sickness like that would be one of my worst nightmares. I am so relieved to hear you didn't sick; maybe there is hope! Omg I can't imagine feeling them, that has to be the most wonderful feeling in the world. Wow! tall girl! You don't hear about that a lot. My MIL is that tall too. I am only 5'7'' but DH is 6'4''. Aww poor baby! hiccups are the worst. My Mom tells me I was the same way and I still dread them. Sounds like you hit the jackpot with your DS. He Sounds like such a good baby even before he was out. Yeah the 3rd trimester doesn't sound fun either but it seems like it preps you well for just wanting them out! I have not heard that before. I have heard every Mom say it was totally worth it, but most of them hated being pregnant. That is so sweet you loved it!

Well that doesn't sound too bad as for as labor stories go. I have had friends that have been in active labor for days and that is scary. OO I am so glad they got your epi just right, I have read a lot of the reasons women tear is because they didn't feel the sensations to push properly. My big thing is if I need the epi and I can't have it? I really dont want to be put in that position. Aww hearing about that moment made me a tear roll down my cheeks. How sweet! I am so looking forward to skin to skin, for me it may not be until I am in recovery but still. Wow 15 mins! How awesome, he was clearly hungry and love that he kept that up!

One of things I am most looking forward to is seeing my DH as a Dad. He didn't want kids before he met me, but now we are on the same page. The dog has been huge for him, I don't think he would have ever been comfortable being called Daddy any other way at first lol. But when he looks at our little fur baby, my heart melts and I just know he is going to be an amazing Father.

Absolutely! A healthy and happy baby is all that really matters. And that is so great that you know either would be a great fit for your family. I'm sure either way your DS will be an awesome big brother.

Please don't apologize. I loved your novel! And seriously love talking about all of this. Have my entire life and I love that I finally found people who feel the same way. Thank you in advance for the offer. I am sure I will have a ton more the closer I get. I guess I do have a couple actually. lol

How much do you have to get poked? I have a needle phobia and they scare me. How are the doctor visits? Especially the diabetes test? I have heard some horrible stories.

I only have one friend ( the one that told me about this board) that has told me the absolute truth about anything I ask and I love her for that. I always prefer more information to none. In a weird way I guess it makes me feel prepared.

Well sorry for my novel as well, no real excuse except I love to talk haha. Oh no! Hope your DS feels better really soon and you start getting sleep.

 

[busytulip]

No big nursery plans here as we co-sleep. I've not really put a ton of thought into names as of yet. We didn't find out gender with our LO so we still have a boy name that I suppose we could recycle. I guess we'll see if we change our minds by then. LOL Do you guys plan on finding out gender if possible?

With the exception of labor I only really remember having to get blood drawn 3 times. The first is at your 1st OB appointment and it seems like they take a ton. Then there is the diabetes screening and a bit later they may due additional blood test if something came up a bit off from your first lab results, like anemia or thyroid issue. Other doctor visits usually tend to go fairly quickly-they dip your pee, weigh you (if at an OB in the US), measure your tummy, and give a feel and listen for baby. The vag exams at the very end can be uncomfortable, especially if baby is fairly low in pelvis. All in all though things aren't so bad.

 

[Iveneverseen]

We won't be having a nursery, baby will sleep in our room for a while then transfere to my sons room to share.

 

[McRaven]

Welcome

 

[Becca21]

itsnowmyturn- Thank you for sharing your story with me.

Ugh that sounds dreadful and as I was telling Kaity pretty much the norm sadly. I'm glad you didn't have anything dangerous though. Oh wow I never thought about it that way! But yeah I can see how that would be harder if your suffering wasn't visible. Invisible illnesses always have that stigma to them unfortunately. I have never heard of rhinitis, what is that? Oo that does sound painful. You were kind of getting beat up by your LO. I'm sorry I also don't want SPD is? That is so crazy to me to miss being that miserable. I mean don't get me wrong, that is soo good to know. I just find it weird because it's something I have never experienced. OMG that is slightly horrifying for her to come that fast. And that you were the only one who knew she was in labor. I am just so glad you and your DD are ok and healthy and happy. Now, it's probably just a good story! LOL I so dont blame you. I have heard about some amazing homebirths, but for me I would have to be in the hospital just in case something went wrong so I would know I was being looked after.

How many kids do you and OH want? Are you hoping for any specific gender? When are you planning TTC for your next one?

 

[Becca21]

Iveneverseen- thank you so much for the welcome! It is very nice to meet you! Wow 10 years that is great! My DH and I will celebrate our two years of marriage in July! We will be together four years before we start TTC. Congratulations on 3 babies! Do you have daughters and sons? Any preference for the last baby? Very nice! Is your son excited to have a new roomie and be a big brother? The baby would sleep in our room as well for the first 6 months, but then they would get their room (being our first) plus I really want to decorate a nursery lol. We are looking at houses now that are 3+ bedrooms- I work from home and DH does sometimes too, so we would also need an office. Three would be fine as long as we have a basement. Unfinished would be DH's preference so he can turn it into exactly what he wants; after the second one comes that will be the office. But the second one isn't for a while after the first so we should be good for a little bit. I realized you didn't ask for all that lol, I'm sorry it was a convo with DH tonight so I guess it is really on my mind.

Busytulip- How great! I don't know too much about co-sleeping is that when they share a bed with you? LOL wow I am impressed you didn't find out. I would have to! In fact I heard about this new test at like 10 weeks were they can test the chromosomes and tell you the gender. My DH's cousin just got that done for her 3rd. I might even have to do that haha. I am not a very patient person. Are you hoping either way? a DS or DD? you said you already had a boy's name picked out, mind if I ask what it is?

You said with the exception of labor? So was that a lot more draws? Yeah I heard about that awful first visit, how much do they end up taking from you? Yeah I am still worried about the diabetic testing one. I even wondered if I just went on the diet at the beginning of they would still want to do that lol. I will probably be just fine when I get there, but now it all seems very scary and stressful. Haha it's probably TMI but I have never been able to pee on command. I get so nervous and no matter how much I drink I can never go if I have to. I hope that is something the baby/pregnancy will help me with. Yes in the USA, living and loving CO.

McRaven- thank you so much! It is so nice to meet you. I am already loving it here, what a great group of ladies!

 

[busytulip]

Well for us co-sleeping means in our bed, but others have used the term meaning baby rooms in with them. We are kind of hoping for a girl so that our youngest has a little sister to play with, but honestly either is fine...just healthy. We don't share names anymore. LOL In the past when we shared, someone close to us would end up using that name so it has become a superstition.

Usually for labor there are 2 draws, but it should hopefully only be 1 poke for the IV. Now if you plan on an epidural you have those pokes to go through. Don't stress too much about the diabetic screening, it really isn't awful. The worst thing about it is the anxiety over waiting for the results. As for peeing on demand, with the exception of the 1st visit, most offices send a specimen cup home with you. You can collect your FMU the day of the appt. at home and then just bring it in with you. No peeing on demand. Ha!

My hubby is from CO. I lived in the Springs for several years, he in Denver. We both still have family there. Whereabouts are you?

Good luck house hunting!

 

[Iveneverseen]

Iveneverseen- thank you so much for the welcome! It is very nice to meet you! Wow 10 years that is great! My DH and I will celebrate our two years of marriage in July! We will be together four years before we start TTC. Congratulations on 3 babies! Do you have daughters and sons? Any preference for the last baby? Very nice! Is your son excited to have a new roomie and be a big brother? The baby would sleep in our room as well for the first 6 months, but then they would get their room (being our first) plus I really want to decorate a nursery lol. We are looking at houses now that are 3+ bedrooms- I work from home and DH does sometimes too, so we would also need an office. Three would be fine as long as we have a basement. Unfinished would be DH's preference so he can turn it into exactly what he wants; after the second one comes that will be the office. But the second one isn't for a while after the first so we should be good for a little bit. I realized you didn't ask for all that lol, I'm sorry it was a convo with DH tonight so I guess it is really on my mind.

That's Ok Lol. Yes we have Two daughters & a son. They are nearly 11, 8 & nearly 3. i don't think my youngest understand tbh Lol, but the older two love having a little brother and say they are exited for another sibling Lol.

I would like another little boy, they are so different in my experience Lol.

how about yourself? what would your preference be? xx

 

[Becca21]

Well for us co-sleeping means in our bed, but others have used the term meaning baby rooms in with them. We are kind of hoping for a girl so that our youngest has a little sister to play with, but honestly either is fine...just healthy. We don't share names anymore. LOL In the past when we shared, someone close to us would end up using that name so it has become a superstition.

Usually for labor there are 2 draws, but it should hopefully only be 1 poke for the IV. Now if you plan on an epidural you have those pokes to go through. Don't stress too much about the diabetic screening, it really isn't awful. The worst thing about it is the anxiety over waiting for the results. As for peeing on demand, with the exception of the 1st visit, most offices send a specimen cup home with you. You can collect your FMU the day of the appt. at home and then just bring it in with you. No peeing on demand. Ha!

My hubby is from CO. I lived in the Springs for several years, he in Denver. We both still have family there. Whereabouts are you?

Good luck house hunting!

Oh I didn't know co-sleeping was referring to both. Have you found that is the best situation for BF? We are planning to have baby in our room for the first six months, so I guess we'll also be co-sleeping. Aww how precious! But yes, I think when it comes down to it we all just want a healthy baby.

Haha fair enough, I don't think I'll be sharing my baby names with anyone else besides the people on here anyway for the same reason.

I didn't know that you got poked for the epi too? or are you talking about just getting poked in your back for an epi anyway? I am most likely going to end up in a schedule C anyway so we'll see how many pokes for that lol.

I guess my main thing with the screening is I was on a different birth control when I was younger, and had to go off it because every time I changed the patch I would basically have morning sickness all weekend. So when I told her I wanted to go off of it, she told me that these hormones were half what I would get when pregnant and the chances of me having horrible morning sickness were high....plus I already have a super smeller. So I guess I'm just worried I'll just keep having to take the test if I keep throwing up. And as I mentioned before, I have a vomit phobia so it just creates a lot of anxiety for me. I will be dealing with that before we start TTC.

Wow so you have to pee and get poked a lot? that first visit does not sound like fun lol. But I suppose if that is the worst of it, I'll go with it. Maybe I'l just get a zofran right off the bat so i know it's there if I need it. OOO that made my day! I love that you can take the home, I had no idea that was even an option. So when can you pick up the cups? or do you just stock up on them? It all sounds reasonable, I am just very scared about the unknown and everything with this is so unknown.

Oh yay! That is awesome! You said you were in CO, where are you now?? We live in Highlands Ranch, really like South Denver. We are hoping to buy a house here, Parker, or possibly Castle Rock depending on where DH gets a job (right now it's most likely Broomfield, so we def would not be moving to Castle Rock- he would already have an hour commute from here.)
I actually lived in the Springs for 17 years before I met DH. He is native to Denver and I moved up to live with him. Where were you in the Springs? Did you love living in CO?

Thanks for the good luck! Need DH to get a W2 job before we can actually start hunting, but we have been "hunting" on Zillow for like a year now. His parents living in San Jose now and are coming out for a week in May to watch his brother graduate Law School and his Mom would like to go look at houses with us then so our goal is to have the W2 and the pre qualification by then.

 

[Becca21]

Iveneverseen- thank you so much for the welcome! It is very nice to meet you! Wow 10 years that is great! My DH and I will celebrate our two years of marriage in July! We will be together four years before we start TTC. Congratulations on 3 babies! Do you have daughters and sons? Any preference for the last baby? Very nice! Is your son excited to have a new roomie and be a big brother? The baby would sleep in our room as well for the first 6 months, but then they would get their room (being our first) plus I really want to decorate a nursery lol. We are looking at houses now that are 3+ bedrooms- I work from home and DH does sometimes too, so we would also need an office. Three would be fine as long as we have a basement. Unfinished would be DH's preference so he can turn it into exactly what he wants; after the second one comes that will be the office. But the second one isn't for a while after the first so we should be good for a little bit. I realized you didn't ask for all that lol, I'm sorry it was a convo with DH tonight so I guess it is really on my mind.

That's Ok Lol. Yes we have Two daughters & a son. They are nearly 11, 8 & nearly 3. i don't think my youngest understand tbh Lol, but the older two love having a little brother and say they are exited for another sibling Lol.

I would like another little boy, they are so different in my experience Lol.

how about yourself? what would your preference be? xx

Aww three babies! What a lucky Mommy! Both of my parents grew up with three. Do you find the bigger age gap easier to handle? Sounds like you will have two greater helpers then when #4 does come along. Oh I would love to know more about that, what is different in raising a boy?? Yeah, two of each sounds pretty perfect. I really wanted four when I was younger, but I get overwhelmed very easily and DH is very very set on not being outnumbered so we''ll be stopping at 2.

Ideally, right now, I want a boy and a girl. Always have. But I am sure that i will just care about a healthy baby once there is actually a baby to speak of. I would want the boy first and then follow up 3-5 years later with a little girl. I am the oldest in my family, and I think I would have loved to have a little brother to look after me instead of having to look after mine. My DH is also oldest on his side, and mostly loves it expect unfortunately for him his Mom had twins after so he spent his whole life being outnumbered and left out. But we will see what reality we end up with. I just can't believe I am getting so close, like it feels forever to be waiting until next year (NTNP in Dec, and TTC in Jan- is the plan atm) but at the same time I have so wanted this my whole life and it is so surreal for me that it is almost here. From what I have heard though, no one ever feels "ready" to become parents so at least we are all not alone in that.