Irrational anger and frusteration!

[Ariannda]

I have gone missing for a few months but here I am back. We have now been TTC for 25 months. We found out this past June or July that both my tubes were blocked, which explained the secondary infertility at least. I had a second HSG done in October which opened at least one tube. Now with Christmas and what no we're back to actually TTC (meds, charts etc) this month. But im angry. It was SO easy 2 years ago to think i'd fall pregnant fairly quickly, and now 25 months later it's just a long string of disappointments, random people turning up accidentally pregnant and the questioning if any of this is even worth it. We were sent to a specialist who dismissed anything i asked and went straight to "so when can we sign you up for IVF". We dont WANT IVF, we can't AFFORD IVF and theres no reason i shouldn't be able to get pregnant, and heaven forbid the specialist offer any possible solution but the most expensive.

I have scheduled a new OB and an REI to see what to do now. I want to have a baby with my husband but after this long i guess i just want someone to say it'll happen and not "well maybe it'll happen ...". Ugh

Sorry =/

 

[Emmi]

I hear ya!! And you really are not alone......We are getting the whole there is no reason for it to happen so why isn't it...... We had a go at IVF and it really isn't for everyone and yes, it's so expensive. I really hope that your new Dr's will be able to shed some more light on it all.

I think on a bad day - I just don't believe that it will ever happen and feel heartbroken but on a good day - I believe that all good things to happen to those that wait - I married at 41 so I am kinda used to be being patient!

Big hugs to you.

x

 

[mod19]

I'm on month 30, but recently moved across the country and switched drs. I never wanted to go back to the Dr in Wisconsin for fear of what they might say, but this one is starting me with treatments right away since its been so long. He hardly questioned me at all, think he could see the feeling if defeat in me. Since I had an ectopic that required two surgeries he is getting me in right away for a dye test to see if anything blocked up. All we're waiting for is conformation on what the insurance will cover, but am going to have it done regardless if they cover it or not. Hopefully this week I'll finally have some answers. They have already mentioned ivf to me, and although I haven't gone through my options yet or started anything I'm all for it all the way. I'll do whatever I need to get that little bundle in my arms. I realize ivf isn't for everyone, but luckily I live in a state where insurance company's are required to offer coverage for infertility, including ivf. So even if my insurance doesn't cover it, I'll be able to pick up a secondary one that will. I can't wait to start this. I was nervous at first, but the more I think about it the more excited I get to finally see what's wrong. I should have done this two years ago.