Irritable Moods after failed IVF?

[Mendy]

Hello ladies. Have any of you experienced irritable moods after an unsuccessful IVF? I feel like I have permanent PMS. People at work are irritating me, and so is DH, for the last two nights I barely even talked to him. Then two nights ago I was dozing off and all of a sudden I woke up and tears were streaming down my face because thoughts of my failed IVF flooded me again.

I've done a lot of googling and found something about all the hormones or lack there of after injections and progesterone stop, etc that can make you emotional or moody...but when does it stop? After a full cycle? Or should I expect to be in b*tch mode for a long time? AF is gone, so I can't blame it on AF being on her way..

 

[rachelle1975]

I'm so sorry you are feeling this hun

I know i've not had my IVF cycle yet but i'm guessing all those hormones and in general, the feeling of being cheated. You guys must have so many questions about why it didn't happen and with these flooding all around you it's bound to make you feel stressed and fed up.

Do you think having something to look forward to will help? A break in Vegas or a weekend at a spa with some pampering?

When our IVF appt got cancelled i was really angry with DH. A few days after i realised i was blaming him - i felt that it was his fault we needed IVF so it was his fault it got cancelled. obviously it's not his fault but you know what i mean.

Chin up gorgeous girl - lots of fantastic stuff to look forward to and you will get there. All this horribleness will be a long, distant memory

 

[Dilek]

Hi Mendy

I dont think its appropraite for me to comment, as im only about to commence my 1st IVF treatment. But I do know the feeling of dissapointment, anger and not being in control. Hun, my best advise for you would be to see if you can access your fertility's Counsellor. I think everything takes time to heal and get back to your chearfull self.

I always love a great boxing class to express my anger.

We're here for you

 

[chefamy1122]

 

[latestarter]

Hi Mendy,

I had an IVF cycle cancelled in February and like you I was crazy emotional afterwards. I was out for dinner with a friend and I was crying over nothing! I was snapping at work too. I'm normally pretty level headed, but I think its just the hormones.

My guess is that this will pass.

I'm sorry your IVF was unsucessful - it is devastating.

What are your plans from now?

 

[Mendy]

Thanks ladies! I was commenting in my journal that I only just realized that the Dr put me on a brand of BC pills I've never been on before, and I've had spotting, something I never had before with any other BC pills...and mood swings are a side effect, so that must be what's making me so crazy! I was thinking the IVF had REALLY screwed me up, lol!

But I had a good day overall today, so I'm hoping my body is getting used to all these hormones.

latestarter- Sorry about your cancelled IVF. It's so hard to deal with, isn't it, and you are right, I do think it gets better, we just have to give it time.

As for my plans, I went on BC pills like I mentioned above so my ovaries can shut down so to speak and stop ovulating on their own. June 15th I go for an ultrasound to check ovaries and if all is good then we will begin IVF #2, a fresh cycle with stimming and everything. So I'm hoping I won't have to go through this a third time, because I don't know how much more I can bear!

 

[latestarter]

I hear you. I'm just finishing up stims for my second cycle, and not sure how I'll handle it if I don't get to retrieval again, or if it fails. Not sure I have another one in me.

June 15th will be coming up fast too. Enjoy the down time!

 

[Mendy]

Ohhhh...I didn't know you were on your second cycle now!!! Lots of luck! Do you have a journal here so I can keep track?

 

[latestarter]

Hi Mendy,

I don't have a journal here. But I do have a blog outside of this forum - would love to have you stop by for a read. I had it going before joining BnB - and a journal on top of it would be way to much time on the computer. But I've been reading your journal!

You can link to it here

 

[Mendy]

Thanks, I'll go take a look!

 

[CurlySue]

It's natural to feel shitty, love. Just allow yourself whatever 'mood' you need.

 

[Steph63]

Have everything crossed for your IVF#2 hun.