Its amazing how we can fool even ourselves. DH and I have been TTC for 16 months now. AF was completely missing for six months there (although she show'd her head couple of weeks ago...finally! ) which lead to the doctor running bloods and an ultrasound, everything normal.... So I have been quietly just getting on with things and thinking that if need be the doctor will hopefully be able to help, can't be anything too serious surely as I already have a child, i'm only 26 so on and so forth.... PMA and all of that. However, today I made a huge mistake... I held my cousins 6 week old baby ....and it hit me.......I want a baby EVEN MORE than I originally thought and I really am starting to loose hope of ever having another one, I have spent the last hour in tears . Hubby doesn't know what to say, he had no idea it was bothering me this much, but how could he, I didn't even know it was bothering me THIS much until today. I feel really bad feeling like this cause i know there are women out there who have been ttc much much longer, but EVERYONE around me is having babies, and many of them started TTC after me. Why does it have to be so difficult to get your body to work with you, seriously, if it would just ovulate regularly i'd at least stand a chance . Sorry for the depressing post, just have to get it off my chest and you are the only people i know will understand.