It never ends

[kiki04]

It is nearly 1.5 years past losing my daughter... I still cry, I still struggle and I still think about her every.single.day. I live my new normal life.... I can go out and laugh and have a great time.... but it never fails... at some point in every day.... she crosses my mind. I had a phase where I did really well... I thought... wow I am pretty strong. I think of her and smile now! But I have reverted.... I am back in the doom and gloom stage. I think part of it was I held onto hope of my rainbow... but we tried and we tried all the way through fertility meds and no rainbow for me... so we stopped trying. Now I dont have her OR my rainbow. I know what the triggers and contributers are for me reverting.... but I am just trying to say that it never goes away... it never stops. Life will never be 'normal' again. This shittiness IS the new normal.... and I hate it

 

[Lottelotte]

I'm not sure i can say anything at all that may help. I am struggling to think i will ever get a rainbow and now have two angels. It really is just shitty.

I just want you to know i am thinking about you.

Xx

 

[kiki04]

I think this may also be because her impending due date is coming up.... to what should have been her first birthday.. instead we passed that in may...

 

[Hellylou]

Love you

Don't lose hope, lovely. I still believe xxx

 

[3xscharmer]

So sorry for your loss and that you are feeling so down, after having 7 losses now, I am starting to doubt I will be having a rainbow baby myself. I just want so bad to give my DD a sibling, but I'm at the point now that if I have to go through one more miscarriage I am taking a really long break, like years long. Hope you are able to find healing and have a rainbow baby in the future. Good luck and God bless.

 

[Andypanda6570]

Love you, Krissy. It will happen i know it... XOXO Always thinking about you!

 

[Pink_Sparkle]

Im so sorry for your loss. I really hope you do get your rainbow one day soon, you really deserve it. It took us 4 years to conceive our baby which we lost at 19 weeks...Im trying to look to the future, we are desperate for a rainbow but part of me is terrified it wont happen. Big hugs to you xx

 

[Unexpecting]

I lost my baby 8 yrs ago... I still cry for that baby sometime.. I dream about a baby girl all the time... I believe that's my child!(eventhough we lost her too early to determine the sex)... I still don't have any children because I am terrified of going through that again... Hold on and stay strong! I'm praying for you with all my heart! Adoption is definitely another way of being a mommy... Please do give up! It a baby whether its the baby that god send to you or one that's already here that desparately needs your love... Peace and blessing