It took us so long to get this far

[Velathria]

That might've been better then to give hope again. I guess in some way they were just trying to make us feel better, so can't hate them for it. But I already knew. Miracles don't happen to me.

I am on my way again to the hospital to get my beta done just to make sure its all good. I finally stopped bleeding. Just a little spotting here and there. Yeah it's not easy. Little things make me cry but I take a deep breath and then I calm down again so it's ok.

And I am counting my first day of bleeding as AF start so just to know.

When the doctor told me that I might still bleed for another week or two, I was horrified but I'm glad its over. Now I'm getting to the point where I am feeling excited to try again. I think me and DH have made it past the worst and are healing now. Gonna ask and see when it's ok to have sex again.

 

[JDsBaby]

Velathria how were your levels?

 

[Velathria]

They said they will call us in a few days to let is know.. but I'd say it's gone. I don't feel pregnant at all anymore.

 

[Velathria]

Well they just called and said that it went down to 70.. so it's going. Although I thought it be All the way down.. guess not...

 

[sarah2211]

I'm sorry this isn't just over for you as quickly as you'd hoped Velathria. Are they retesting in 48 hours?

 

[Velathria]

no they said in a week again. so sometime at the end of this week or the start of next week. i think by then it should be over.

can't wait to get started with ttc'ing again thanks sarah... hope this goes fast for all of us kinda trying to get used to the temping again.. keep forgetting because i didn't do it the month i got pregnant or the month i was now. Hoping i can see when i ovulate again

 

[sarah2211]

Same, I'm not really loving temping at the moment but I'm looking forward to see if I get the temp rise this cycle. We have our first appointment with the fertility specialist in the morning. I'm a little worried that he's not going to take us seriously because of the MC. He might say 'you can do it once, you can do it again'. Life would have been better if I hadn't MC'd.

 

[Velathria]

Lol Sarah our temps almost look the same xD how are you doing?

 

[sarah2211]

Haha yes they do. And my chart is looking almost identical to last cycle so far.

I'm doing ok. We had our appointment with the fertility clinic on Friday. He was useless so I'm feeling pretty bummed about that. DH and I have been feeling pretty low about it all and struggling seeing others happy with their families and any talk about babies etc. I am really hoping that we will be successful this cycle.

How are you doing?

 

[lesondemavie]

My miscarriage was back in February and my experience was different since it was an MMC@8+1, but I can relate to the fear of how long the second time ttc will take. It took us 6 cycles to conceive our first. There are many, many success stories of others conceiving shortly after MC. I'm just sadly not one of those stories. Here I am on cycle 6 yet again. I'm not going to lie, it is tough and heartbreaking. I wonder if cycle 6 will be lucky again or if it's going to take even longer this time or if it will even happen again ever. That being said, it does get easier. Grieving after my loss has been a rollercoaster, and I only recently faced the anger I was feeling. It was only last cycle that I started to feel ok again. Before that I was just desperately hoping to get back what I lost, and every bfn was devastating. Last cycle I was ok when I realized it was a bust. Now I'm focusing more on just having fun with DH and letting go. This cycle is either a BFP or more help from my ob. As much as I still ache to be a mom, either outcome is a step closer to my baby. I try to remind myself that a bfn this cycle or the next cycle or the one after that doesn't mean that it will never happen again. I guess my point is whatever your journey may be there is still hope, you will be ok, and you are never alone. Here's hoping you all end up being those wonderful success stories. Lots of love as you navigate your own path of healing and journey of ttcal

 

[lesondemavie]

...and Vel...I didn't realize that was you up there with the new avatar. I'm so so sorry to see you here

 

[Velathria]

hey les yeah it sucks. didn't think something like that would happen to me.. but i guess you never know.

Sarah: i'm sorry your appt with the Fertility specialist didn't go well. That must be horrible. I'd be so frustrated. Well i am at the moment feeling a bit more positive because i think that the cyst that was preventing me last time from getting pregnant and now it's gone so my body is finally acting normal again. Les i hope your cycle this month is it again. It must be horrible after something like a loss to have to wait so long again. And i know what you mean with trying to get back what was taken. I want to desperately get pregnant again just to get back the baby that was taken from me. I got a tattoo now in memory of our little peanut. And hopefully the next tattoo i get will be for our healthy baby that will be born.

it seems like i am ovulating sometime right now.. Just waiting for my CH. And i am so so wet again i know tmi. lol but i had such problems with my cm.. (with there being none) i really hope sarah that it happens really quick for you again. Got my fingers crossed.

I believe we will all get our rainbow baby