It's a year this weekend

[Jellyt]

since I lost my daughter. I think that people think this pregnancy is a cure and that i'm supposed to be happy all of the time. I'm going to Reading for the weekend too and I don't know why I said that this weekend was okay to go. I'm going with my fiance and SIL and I think we thought it'd take our minds off it and it's too late to cancel now. My SIL is a nightmare too. I'm all alone tonight too because my fiance is staying over in Derby to go to the beer festival and him and SIL are picking me up in the morning so I can't even talk to him about it...and there's no way i'm talking to SIL about it because she's been the worst out of everyone. When I was in hospital last year she made it all about her just as she has done with this pregnancy. I'm sorry for the essay, just think I needed to vent a little! Just feeling very lonely tonight

 

[Las78]

hun, it's a year for me too this weekend. I know how you feel and I hope it's not as tough as we expect it to be xx

 

[Jellyt]

Thank you . I'm so sorry you're going through this as well. People who haven't been through it don't quite understand do they. I hope this weekend is gentle for the both of us xx

 

[OmiOmen]

I just wanted to say big hugs! It gets to me when people ask if it is my first pregnancy and I think, what am I supposed to say the that!?! It is such a shame your OH is away too. You should have came back to Ripley we could have waddled our way to do something quitter because I would have understood why you are feeling down at the moment.

 

[Jellyt]

I just wanted to say big hugs! It gets to me when people ask if it is my first pregnancy and I think, what am I supposed to say the that!?! It is such a shame your OH is away too. You should have came back to Ripley we could have waddled our way to do something quitter because I would have understood why you are feeling down at the moment.

Thank you! Yeah I know what you mean, I hate it when people ask that too. People just assume aswell don't they because you don't have a baby with you that it is your first and say things like "Well with your first....." and i'll be thinking this isn't my first. Aww thank you I wish i'd seen this sooner! for you too

 

[OmiOmen]

I know it is harder at some times like important dates and going to scans and things and sometimes it is not just people asking if it is your first but also people who know ignoring what happened.

 

[Las78]

I agree and especially so when it's your other half who forgets that was the day! I was not happy.

 

[Drazic<3]

Oh darling, hope you got through the day alright. Sending loads of -x-

 

[Jellyt]

I know it is harder at some times like important dates and going to scans and things and sometimes it is not just people asking if it is your first but also people who know ignoring what happened.

Yeah! I don't expect everyone to remember the date but some people do know and didn't say anything. I know they probably don't want to upset me but it would have made me feel a bit happier for them to acknowledge her. I guess people who haven't been through it don't really understand

 

[Jellyt]

I agree and especially so when it's your other half who forgets that was the day! I was not happy.

Oh no! I don't blame you!

 

[Jellyt]

Oh darling, hope you got through the day alright. Sending loads of -x-

Thank you . We were okay, SIL was really insensitive as I expected but i'm getting better at ignoring her I think! She knew what day it was as OH told her twice and I told her I didn't want to talk about babies today...then she asked us if we wanted to go to Toys 'r' us then got arsey with us for saying no! Grr. I ended up in hospital with low blood pressure too and i've only just got out! I thought i'd just get checked over but they wanted to keep me in for monitoring. They couldn't get me a proper room either because the labour ward was so busy so I ended up in one of the side rooms bored out of my skull! Baby is fine though which is the main thing .