Its June!!!!! 20 week scan next month!!! Whos with me?

[Sarahcake]

Yeah I saw that episode too, she was automatically reffered to the at risk team - and completely unneccesarily too as they all agreed she was doing great. Apparently, statistically speaking, people who were physically and emotionally abused as children are a lot more likely to do it to their child too....which I just cant get my head around. There's no way on this earth that I would want Logan subjected to the things I were.

I guess all I can do is show willing and go through the motions. If I kick up and refuse to be seen etc, it will just put black marks against me wont it.

The system for my surgery is exactly the same and its a massive pain isnt it. Irritates me more as there's been times that ive been up the surgery for my usual dressing change with the district nurses after phoning that morning for an appointment to see a Dr too. I get told there's nothing for that day, yet when im sat in the waiting room waiting to see the nurses, the receptionists are taking appointments for that day, with the doctor I wanted to see...so much for not having space eh?

 

[ttc_lolly]

I suppose it makes sense in some ways as I read a study somewhere about abused children and cycles but you'd think they'd put more money into resourcing and doing it on an individual basis. Mind you, this is the UK we are talking about! Not enough money/trained people/facilities where there should be, yet plenty of money for the MP's expenses and whatnot

 

[Sarahcake]

Lol I agree Lauryn.

Thing is, I cant really get mad because I know there are people out there that are stuck in that abuse cycle, I cant fathom it personally, but they do exist. And these kinds of measures must save so many innocent babies from harm...just sucks when its you they are classing as being a higher risk!

 

[ttc_lolly]

I can imagine Sarah well everything will be fine so you don't need to worry! x

 

[Sarahcake]

Yes, yes it is Will prove it to them in whatever way they want me too as well!

 

[Scally]

I don't really believe in these cycles- i was hit alot as a child, and now i am the total opposite and do not like and would not tolerate any hitting of my child. I think what you have been through Sarah is more of a testamony to your character strength and how great you will be as a mum! Its a shame they are using their time to check on you rather than checking the families that really should be checked x

 

[Sarahcake]

Thanks Ally, that means a lot to me Just spoken to the health visitor as I wanted to know what was going on and she just said that there's some things that she wanted to go over with me before baby is here and not to worry about the appointment. She sounded really nice to be fair, hopefully she stays that way when I see her on the 17th!

 

[ttc_lolly]

I agree Ally, I grew up around a lot of violence and alcohol use and saw unemployment and living off benefits as the norm there was a lot of drug use too (not directly in my family), but if anything it made me more determined to not end up like that and to work very hard for everything we have and give my girls the best. I think statistically though, children repeating the cycle is more apparent then the minority (us guys!) that don't. All you have to do is watch Jeremy Kyle to see proof sad but true.

 

[Sarahcake]

Morning ladies

Just thought id give a quick update on last nights adventures...fun times!
Id been having braxton hicks since I woke up yesterday and they were gradually getting more and more painful. It got to 11pm last night when I was starting to worry a bit to ring delivery suite to speak to a midwife and ask some advice. She asked me to come down as they wanted to check me for pre-term labour.

Got there, met this lovely midwife who took great care of me. Had a CTG trace done with Logan, he is absolutely fine - jumping up and down and showing off in there, so no worries about him at all. My BP and urine was fine too so no idea what was causing the cramping pain.

Had to have 2 internal exams with speculums... holy shit that really hurts...like I was close to tears each time :S Was told that my cervix is very favourable and Im 1-2 cms dilated, but told not to worry as this doesnt mean im going to spontaneously give birth like tommorrow, was told its actually very common. Was monitored until 4am this morning where they were happy to let me go and get some sleep. Been told to continue with my planned appointments and come back if I feel dodgy at all. All in all, they were really lovely and reassuring and took my concearns 100% seriously.

So now im at home, exhausted as I didnt get to sleep until about half 5 and still having crampy pains but Logan is happy in there so thats all that matters to me

Hope you guys had a better nighjt than I did?

 

[Scally]

Oh my gosh Sarah! that does sound like a very eventful night! Did they identify what the crampy pains were? did it show up as contractions? Glad Logan is happy in there! And wow to being 1-2 cm dilated! Ouch to the internals!
Make sure you rest up lots today!

x

 

[ttc_lolly]

Hope you manage to get an early night or a nap today Sarah That's good they were all lovely and took very good care of you too x

 

[Sarahcake]

The cramps were showing up on the trace, but they wernt strong enough to be classed as contractions but they could see there was tightening and things. At a total loss as to what the cramps are tbh. Just been told to keep an eye and if they get suddenly more intense or form a regular pattern to come back up and get seen too.

Just seems like all I do is post drama! Sorry ladies, my life isnt usually this drama filled lol!

Have ante natal class in half hour then it's home for a snooze for me I think

 

[time]

Wow Sarah eventful night! Glad logan is fine though and I have heard of quite a little of women being 1-2cm and nothing actually comes of it for weeks so I wouldn't worry too much!

My Braxton hicks are coming so often this last week or so that I am more or less used to them! Never extremely painful but very uncomfortable, and a lot worse when I stand up from sitting, turn round in bed or bend too far to pick something up.. I think I will probably have them until d day now!

 

[ttc_lolly]

My BH are like that time, coming all the time and sometimes taking my breath away! I can't walk for too long as I just need to sit down and breath through them just getting ready for the big day I think!

 

[pops23]

Sorry to hear about that Sarah but great that you were well looked after and Logan is all ok!

Had nct class last night an they finished with all these terrifying pics of newborn babies with swollen scrotums and cradle cap and hairy bodies!

Bloody terrifying, was not the best way to end the class! Xx

 

[ttc_lolly]

hahaha!

 

[Scally]

Sarah- how are you feeling? how was your antenatal class?

Pops- oh dear with how they finished the class, leaving a lasting impression!

x

 

[kellie_w]

Oh no Sarah, sorry to hear you had to go through that. Think your little man is determined to meet you early, I hope he stays put for a little longer x

Wow pops, what a class! That's so horrible to show things like that, I don't get how it's positive to show first time parents things like that! Maybe I can send them a picture of Luke's head when he was born, something else to scare people! X

 

[ttc_lolly]

What happened to Luke's head Kellie?

Cradle cap isn't that scary Pops, I promise

 

[kellie_w]

His head was cut open and bruised by the doctor using the ventouse cap too many times, on the forehead rather than the top/back of the head. He got a infection and was poorly in special care. It was my fault, I was so numb from the epidural I was given I couldn't push. Tried to attach picture but don't think it's worked!

https://i1209.photobucket.com/albums/cc400/kellielouisebill/003.jpg