Its June!!!!! 20 week scan next month!!! Whos with me?

[ttc_lolly]

Aww that's a shame nothing came of your sweep Sarah you're still (just!) within the 48hrs of it being effective so I hope something starts to pick back up today. Induction soon anyway so Logan's going to be here within the week regardless!

Pops I'm excited to find out what you're having! I'm still saying

Glad you got a good nights sleep Inoue I did too. I've been having a cup of horlicks before bed and I swear its helping I have slept like a baby this past week. Well, more than I have in the past 8-9 weeks anyway.

I'm off to go get fitted for some nursing bras today, my last baby related buys and then I'm all done. I am contemplating rewashing all of her clothes too as I did them 5-6 weeks ago and I just fancy getting them all out again

 

[pops23]

I got my bras on Monday so all sorted now!

Is it wrong that I feel deep down its a girl and that is really what I want? I know once baby is here I won't give two hoots whether it is a girl or a boy, but for some reason you guys saying You think I'm having a boy makes me feel a little disappointed..

I'm so sorry, is it wrong to feel that way? Am I the worst almost mother ever? It's just my gut feeling has been girl all along and now it's so close I know I need to consider that baby could well be a boy

I hate myself a little for even thinking this xx

 

[pops23]

Do you know what? I totally take it back. I've just found out that a friend I used to work withs wife died on saturday, she was hit by a speeding car in London and he just managed to pull his 2 year old little boy out of the way. Life is so short and precious, as long as my baby is healthy I will love it with all my heart and keep it safe, I suddenly feel for the first time as if I will be happy with whatever we have, Our Princess Arya or our Prince Flynn

Now I can't stop crying, I am so sad for them, a lovely family, life isn't fair xxx

 

[ttc_lolly]

OMG I'm so sorry Pops your poor friend. I hope the little boy is ok?

It's not bad to feel like that at all, although I probably would have found out the gender tbh as that's what has helped me. I really wanted a boy both times - I had an inkling DD was a girl and was glad to find out at 16w because I was prepared well in advance and then had plenty of time to get excited about having a daughter. This time I actually thought I was having a boy, did all the little gender tests and they all (but one!) came back with boy results and so was a bit disappointed to find out she wasn't at our gender scan. But again, I was just happy she was healthy and then I have had plenty of time to get my head around it and all excited again no matter what, when baby is here any little bit of disappointment you may feel will very quickly melt away so I wouldn't worry or feel bad

 

[pops23]

Thanks hun, that's made me feel better, it would be lovely to have a boy first, I think I just feel that because I want a girl at some point (in really close to my mum and sister) it would take the pressure off to have a girl first and then have loads of boys! I haven't been fussed at all until the past 3 weeks, maybe it's just the anticipation of it all, I don't know

So glad I have you guys to talk to xxx

 

[Sarahcake]

Oh pops firstly, no I don't think it's wrong to feel that way. I can't say that I was disappointed as such when I found out Logan was a he, but I have only ever thought of having a girl, I was so sure he was a she too. Had her name lined up, was looking forward to being able to use my mums name in there etc. it's not that I had a preference, it's just that's how I always thought it would be so when she told me he was a boy I was a bit taken aback. I can't imagine ever wanting a girl now my pregnancy has progressed but it was one of my main reasons for needin to know the sex, so I had time to get used to whatever baby was.

I'm so sorry to hear about what had happened that is just horrific life really isn't fair, the assholes survive and good people seem to go. I hope that you are alright?

Sometimes it takes something like this happening to see what we have in our own lives, your baby is going to be so loved regardless of weather it's an Arya or a Flynn. Massive hugs to you lovely, so sorry your having a shitter of a day so far xxx

 

[pops23]

Thanks Sarah, I know your right, you guys rock

Off to idea now! Xxx

 

[Sarahcake]

Have fun and take it easy around there! Ikea can be pretty intense when your not 9.5 months pregnant! X

 

[Sarahcake]

I have litterally just remembered I have a hospital appointment today haha! Oh wow, how dozy am I? This ones been planned for the last 4 months too...! Not baby related but a milestone for me, its regarding my leg and the wound that was there and the blood virus that caused it. Everything has been healed up now for about 2-3 months? It was hugely debilitating, couldnt walk, dressing changes daily, etc kinda feels like today is a bit of closure on those shitty times.

Onwards and upwards

 

[Scally]

Oh pops that is awful! That poor woman, boy and husband.

Sarah- keep my fingers crossed things happen soon for you!

Inoue- Hows everything?

Lauryn- glad you have found Horlicks helps with your sleep!

Time- hows things?

I havent really managed to catch up on the posts, thought i'd come on quickly before the mw visits!

I am back home, Poppy wasnt feeding well in the hospital but she hasnt stopped since we've come home so she must have wanted to be in a more relaxed environment!

The elective c section was great this time but the after care was just as shoddy! Luckily Poppy slept most of the time in there on me so didnt really need them, but i went hours without pain killers, hours without a pad change etc etc.

I have put on two pics of Poppy, first one is just after c section, her poor little head was a bit bruised from the forceps, and one from yesterday, her head looks so much better already!

I really need to buy her some more clothes, shes not small at 7 2, but the clothes drown her and i got mostly 0-3 because i didnt think she'd be small!

x

 

[ttc_lolly]

Ahhh Ally, congrats again hun she is perfect! You thought she was going to be big!? But you were so small sorry the aftercare was rubbish, but I'm glad you're both back home now

Ouch Sarah, what did you do to your leg? Hope your appt goes well

 

[Sarahcake]

Oh Ally, she's gorgeous What a cutie!

Really glad to hear that the C-section itself went better than last time but im gutted for you about the aftercare I would say maybe email in to the patient liaison service within the hospital and put in a complaint about the care you received because to be left with no painkillers after a c-section is just barbaric and dirty pads is a breech of their infection control policies, especially with a fresh c-section wound there.

Im in the same boat with the clothes! Logan is only currently 8.1lb instead of the 10lb'er we were told so most of the stuff home here is 0-3 lol Woops! It doesn't look that massive on her though if that helps at all!

How has Izzy taken to her? Hopefully all is well there Big hugs, thanks for the update hun x

 

[Sarahcake]

Lauryn, it was really wierd actually. 2 years back I was at work (nursing on A+E) and I noticed a rash at the top of my thigh. Thought nothing of it as id just changed our washing powder and this was the first batch of uniforms that had been done in it.

A few weeks later, this rash was still there cept now it had spread down my legs and was purple lesions about the size of like ciggerete burns and my legs were swollen. Went to the walk in center and was told it looked like something called Henoch Shonline Purpura but it couldnt be as only children get it.... Was given some antibiotics and sent on my way.

2 days later, my legs we really swollen and I was in a lot of pain, so Neil took me to A+E where I met my consultant that I still see now, I was really lucky in that she had seen the exact same a month prior in someone the same age, turns out it was the HSP I said above. Its basically a blood carried infection of the capiliarys, the infection was killing my capiliarys and veins off - hence the rash. I was kept in hospital for a month on bedrest whilst pumped full of steroids to try and make it shift.

At this point, I was under a lot of pressure from my work to get back to work asap...so I discharged myself and went back to work as we couldnt afford for me to loose my job. Massive mistake that was, seems 13 hour shifts arnt too good for bad legs and the rash at the bottom of my leg broke down into 3 venous ulcers. I got taken back into hospital for another 3 weeks on bedrest and daily dressings. 2 of the ulcers healed and 1 just got bigger and bigger. In the end, I promised I would rest at home and have a nurse come to me daily for the dressings so they let me out. Come home to a letter saying I had been sacked...yay.

After a year and a half of compression bandaging, different treatments + 2 years of steroids (hence the metric tonne of weight ive put on) etc its finally healed now and I can get on with my life. Id include pictures but I think you may throw up seeing them lol it wasnt nice looking

But yeah, sorry for the essay, its the only way I can really discribe what happened!

 

[Inoue]

Dont feel bad at all pops , I bet everyone on here has felt the same. I really wanted a boy and actually told family members before gender scan its a boy ~ quickly had to change that when she said girl, but you are right, whatever gender gets all your love and I adore my little girl now . Have fun shopping! Get some bargains

Scally, good to see some pics if poppy! Shes gorgeous . Wish you a speedy recovery x

Had bad hit of pp again this morning so txt Marc saying to keep his phone with him all times and about 15 mins after that I had a mass (tmi) clear out and cramps eased. I txt him and he only told his bloody boss that I was having cramps - so embarrassing to say it was down to bm! Put off telling him now when I get bad cramps as he seems to think its green light for immediate labour x

 

[pops23]

She's gorgeous ally! Massive congrats

Ikea shop was a great success, got 25 wooden baby hangers and some whicker baskets to go in the bottom of the wardrobe an a few other bits


Didn't get a sieve though! Only had metal, fancied plastic he he!

 

[time]

Aww I know what you mean inoue, after 5 days of these terrible pains I feel like oh has given up and won't believe me when labour actually starts haha!!!
Clear out and more cramps sounds promising. Does anyone else feel like you they are back in the 2 week wait symptom spotting and knickers checking!!? Lol

Oh ally she is so beautiful!!!! So jealous she's here!! Hope you're recovering and settled now you're home! Definitely speak to someone about the after care though that way hopefully it won't happen to anyone else!
How often does the midwife visit once you're home normally? And does a hv visit too?

 

[time]

Oh god I'm 39 weeks today my last week until dd that is scary how quick its gone!

 

[Sarahcake]

Ahhh so you are Time! Woot on 39 weeks

Back from the hospital, my consultant was so excited about my bump haha! Ive not seen her for 4 months so I was smaller last time I saw her! Ive not been discharged yet from them, but im only coming back now because of steroid management and weaning. Dont have to see her till next March now

 

[time]

Aww yay glad it went well Sarah

 

[Inoue]

Glad your appt went well Sarah . Its nice to see people fussy about bump/baby.

Happy 39 weeks Time!! I also feel like im "crying wolf", told him I wont txt him anymore with 'possible' symptoms and only let him know if actual labour hits. They just dont understand that we dont have an alarm that goes off with DEFINITE labour, false ones will happen to x