IUI Jan/Feb/March/Apr/May 2012 - Status updates on page one 12 bfp

[Hopeful42nd]

Omg Tella, it's time already! Wow I'm so excited for you. Let us know ASAP I still can't believe you get beta at 12dpo...you are so lucky. Fx

Adroplet- good luck. It's almost time for you too. Sorry about the endo pain, I suspect it in my as for the last couple years I get hip area pain that almost feels like something is attached, it got worse with my first pregnancy especially during labor contractions, even my epidural couldn't freeze it. Maybe I'll ask them to have a look if I have to have a c section.

Nicker- did you get you us today?

 

[DaisyQ]

GL Tella!

Adroplet, I hope that bfp is just shy.

 

[bastetgrrl]

WOO HOO!! How exciting, Tella! You are gonna get that BFP in a few hours!!!

HAHA Yeah yeah...you did. I'm so thrilled.

 

[adroplet]

still 14 dpo - no AF.....eventhough it's time, not that I want AF but this is just cruel. All I have are full bbs and CM (I am usually always dry).
I refuse to go and get a blood test that was scheduled for today. I would rather just wait for a + or AF. The nurses are so insensitive when they call to say, "Sorry but you're not pregnant, you will be getting your period soon so call us on the first day of your cycle to schedule you AGAIN"

 

[BabyOnMyOwn]

Hi everyone. . . sorry for my lack of comments lately, knowing that this last cycle didn't work was harder for me to handle than I expected it to be. I knew I would be upset, but having my accupuncturist tell me she thought I was pregnant then to not be (and have low progesterone). I almost wish she hadn't told me.

I went for my day 12 us today and I have one follicle at 1.2 cm and one at 1.29 cm. I'm going back on Thursday for another us. I don't know how fast the little follicles grow, but I am hoping they will be ready! I'm a little concerned though because I'm using donor sperm and it got here today. I know it will stay cold for a week in the canister, but it shipped on Thursday. That means this Thursday will be a week and that is just for my us. I have an e-mail in to California Cryobank but I don't know what I'm going to do. UGH!!!

I am so sorry for the BFN in here the past couple of weeks. Fingers crossed for all those of you in the TWW. I promise to try and get all caught up with everyone tomorrow, I've been battling a migraine all day and need to get some sleep.

to everyone!!

 

[Nicker]

Hi everyone. . . sorry for my lack of comments lately, knowing that this last cycle didn't work was harder for me to handle than I expected it to be. I knew I would be upset, but having my accupuncturist tell me she thought I was pregnant then to not be (and have low progesterone). I almost wish she hadn't told me.

I went for my day 12 us today and I have one follicle at 1.2 cm and one at 1.29 cm. I'm going back on Thursday for another us. I don't know how fast the little follicles grow, but I am hoping they will be ready! I'm a little concerned though because I'm using donor sperm and it got here today. I know it will stay cold for a week in the canister, but it shipped on Thursday. That means this Thursday will be a week and that is just for my us. I have an e-mail in to California Cryobank but I don't know what I'm going to do. UGH!!!

I am so sorry for the BFN in here the past couple of weeks. Fingers crossed for all those of you in the TWW. I promise to try and get all caught up with everyone tomorrow, I've been battling a migraine all day and need to get some sleep.

to everyone!!

Ask your doc. I know mine has a tank of liquid nitrogen so he could replace the stuff in the storage tank.

 

[Nicker]

Nicker- did you get you us today?

Yup. You want the long version or the short one LOL?

 

[Nicker]

Well hello ladies! I typed up a post as I was waiting to talk to the nurse at my doctor’s office. I hit post and I got the maintenance message. Grrr. I am so glad it is back up a running now. I really am an addict. The post I typed in the docs office was short. I have quite a long one typed in word right now.

When he came in to the office the first thing he said was that he was very disappointed when he saw my beta results. I guess he was PUPO for me too LOL. That made me feel good as I think I have established a rapport with him now. So now we move on to COH (controlled ovarian hyperstimulation). Basically my drug regimen will be what he would use if I was doing IVF. He explained the whole protocol, the risks, and my options and then he told me to come in on CD2 for a scan. He said if my lining was too thick I would have to wait until April. I told him that today is CD2 so I was sent to pee and then he did the scan. Lining looks good

I will not be doing the clomid at all. I start on Repronex and Bravelle both tomorrow. I do six days of injections. He is also prescribing me something for the migraines I get from the Bravelle. I get a scan next Monday and we are hoping for 4 follicles >13mm. If there are any more than 4 I have decisions to make. If I have nice follies on Monday I will get the Cetrotide injection again to prevent me from getting a natural LH surge so that we completely control the surge (Damn I ordered a bunch of OPKs). He said my chances of getting pregnant will be greater than they were with the first two cycles and if I get pregnant I have a higher chance of multiples.

When he was doing the scan (which was not that bad) I asked about the multiples. I referred to high order multiples being a slim chance. He said, “Someone has been reading.” And he laughed. 25% chance of twins, 3% triplets, and 1% more than triplets. I asked if he felt there would be any benefit to doing two IUIs and he said that he thinks it would be a waste of money. He agreed that 36 hours will be better timing so we are going with that. I will still do the Endometrin (progesterone suppositories) but my lining should also be better naturally without the Clomid. He recommends IVF if this cycle doesn’t work.

 

[Nicker]

Double post.

 

[froliky2011]

Tella - FX'd for you!!! xoxo

Nicker - Good Luck on your scan. I really hope you get a BFP and it sounds like your doctor wants it for you too. FX'd for you too. I am hoping no IVF for you. You really don't need that stress etc. (Well, I guess nobody does, but especially you.)

BabyOnMyOwn - I think the sperm should be fine frozen/cold, but ask your doctor. I hope your follies grow well. They usually grow 1-2 mm a day. Good Luck!

How's everyone else doing? Where is the rest of the gang?

I am OK. Was a little emotional yesterday but feel better now. Just trying to Breathe and Believe. It's challenging sometimes. My yoga instructor gave the class really good advice the other day. He said sometimes you just have to sit with the feelings (bad, good, whatever), just sit with them and they will pass eventually. So, I have been sitting with jealousy, fear, anxiety and just feeling them and trying to comfort myself. xoxo to all of you!!

p.s. I am having serious issues trying to post a reply to threads......

 

[oneof14]

Hey ladies, I am sorry I've been MIA. I was so so positive until...... I found out on Saturday my younger sister is 4 weeks pg with her 3rd!!! I am mad and frustrated that these challenges keep coming my way!!! Needless to say, I warned my DH, got up, went into the bathroom and threw my CBFM against the wall!!!! I mean into pieces.. my $250.00 monitor, then I laid on my DH's lap and cried my eyes out. And now, I feel bad that I am avoiding my sister like the plague. I am honestly not ready to face it. Its cruel and aweful and sad, but, I feel if this cycle doesnt work, it will be harder on me than usual.

I went to acupuncture yesterday which mad me feel so so much better. Anyway I'm sorry for the rant, I hope all these challenges are for a good reason!

I hope all you ladies had a better weekend then me. I am sorry for the BFN's, they suck big time (I have better choice words, but i beleive we are being censored)!

Thank you tremendously for listening to me!!

 

[froliky2011]

Oneof14 - I am sooooo sorry!!! This is journey is such a rollercoaster and most women don't have a clue. I wish I could bring you some tea and listen in person. Hang in there honey. One thing I found encouraging was how many women who started on the 35+ trying to conceive #1 thread is how many have now had their first child and are on to #2 or have had one or are currently pregnant. The number was higher than I expected and it gave me hope. I know sometimes hope can seem cruel though when you are let down and have to constantly be reminded of others' success stories etc. Ugh, I so know. Jealousy is not a fun emotion and neither is anger or fear. again.

(p.s. I think "Quick Reply" is not working at all)

 

[oneof14]

Oneof14 - I am sooooo sorry!!! This is journey is such a rollercoaster and most women don't have a clue. I wish I could bring you some tea and listen in person. Hang in there honey. One thing I found encouraging was how many women who started on the 35+ trying to conceive #1 thread is how many have now had their first child and are on to #2 or have had one or are currently pregnant. The number was higher than I expected and it gave me hope. I know sometimes hope can seem cruel though when you are let down and have to constantly be reminded of others' success stories etc. Ugh, I so know. Jealousy is not a fun emotion and neither is anger or fear. again.

(p.s. I think "Quick Reply" is not working at all)

I would LOVE to chat and drink some tea with you . I know we all have our challenges on this journey and your right, these emotions that we feel are not fun and quite frankly, ugly!

I did look at the 35+ thread and I was surprised at how many of them are pg or trying for a 2nd. That does give me some encouragement, but I've become impatient or more impatient and very anxious! Thank you again for your kind words and for making me feel so much better. My DH has been such a tremendous support as well and I thank God that I get to share this jouney with him, good or bad!

 

[DaisyQ]

Oneof14 - I am sooooo sorry!!! This is journey is such a rollercoaster and most women don't have a clue. I wish I could bring you some tea and listen in person. Hang in there honey. One thing I found encouraging was how many women who started on the 35+ trying to conceive #1 thread is how many have now had their first child and are on to #2 or have had one or are currently pregnant. The number was higher than I expected and it gave me hope. I know sometimes hope can seem cruel though when you are let down and have to constantly be reminded of others' success stories etc. Ugh, I so know. Jealousy is not a fun emotion and neither is anger or fear. again.

(p.s. I think "Quick Reply" is not working at all)

I would LOVE to chat and drink some tea with you . I know we all have our challenges on this journey and your right, these emotions that we feel are not fun and quite frankly, ugly!

I did look at the 35+ thread and I was surprised at how many of them are pg or trying for a 2nd. That does give me some encouragement, but I've become impatient or more impatient and very anxious! Thank you again for your kind words and for making me feel so much better. My DH has been such a tremendous support as well and I thank God that I get to share this jouney with him, good or bad!

I'm trying reply with quote because I'm also having difficulty with quick reply..

Nicker! That sounds like a VERY productive appointment. Fx that the injectables work - the success rates go way up with multi follies!! Fx you get 3-4 big ones.

Frolicky, I hope you're extra emotional because you've got a bean in there.

oneof14, wow, that's really hard. I don't blame you for your reaction. This ttc business is so gut wrenching, and it seems so unfair. I am confident though that we'll get there eventually. Hugs.

 

[oneof14]

What makes it worse is that everyone in my family know what were are going through and I feel like now, with my sister being pg, its like hush, hush around me, which I do not like either as I feel like there is something wrong with me so everyone probably walks around with a sad face! I could be making this stuff up, but its how I feel. Anyway enough about me.

Frolicky/Daisy: How is your Tww going?

Nicker: Fx'd this works, looks promising!

 

[froliky2011]

Oneof14 - My DH is wonderful too! I am blessed with the most amazing man, that is for sure!! I am glad you have one too! I don't think we'd make it out of this journey without the strong bond we have. It's pretty intense. Never felt anything like it. We are like two glued puzzle pieces that just fit perfectly.

Daisy - I just think it's the rollercoaster of this journey. Nothing new. A few of my gf just had their firsts and they were not returning my calls. Nothing personal, I know, but I am jealous because I want to be busy like them. One called me last night and apologized and said she's is thinking about me a lot.

Trying to make the best of my situation....I went for a jog on Saturday and saw a bird taking a bath in a puddle of water, two doves mating, smelled the orchid tree flowers blooming (wonderful smell) and lots of bird calls. Spring is here. xoxo

 

[froliky2011]

What makes it worse is that everyone in my family know what were are going through and I feel like now, with my sister being pg, its like hush, hush around me, which I do not like either as I feel like there is something wrong with me so everyone probably walks around with a sad face! I could be making this stuff up, but its how I feel. Anyway enough about me.

Frolicky/Daisy: How is your Tww going?

Nicker: Fx'd this works, looks promising!

My sister did the same exact thing to me last summer (July 2011) only to mc in August. She was pretty devastated and it was her 3rd too. I was jealous and wanted to be happy for her but it was very tough. Luckily my family lives far away so I didn't have that uncomfortableness. People just need to be honest and open. That is the best way to be I feel. (Well about most stuff anyway.)

 

[froliky2011]

AFM - Hanging in there. For me the closer I get to testing the more nervous I get. Trying to breathe and believe but it's challenging sometimes. Also, sitting with the ugly emotions too (as my yoga instructor recommended). Best advice I heard. It's not easy to sit with anger, fear, jealousy and anxiety and just sit with them and be with them. But, they too shall pass.

 

[oneof14]

AFM - Hanging in there. For me the closer I get to testing the more nervous I get. Trying to breathe and believe but it's challenging sometimes. Also, sitting with the ugly emotions too (as my yoga instructor recommended). Best advice I heard. It's not easy to sit with anger, fear, jealousy and anxiety and just sit with them and be with them. But, they too shall pass.

You inspire me! I agree the closer you get to testing, the more nervous I get too! But you seems to be relaxing and taking life as it comes (for the moment) I wish , as I think you've been through enough!!!

 

[froliky2011]

Oneof14 - It definitely takes effort to keep on going on this journey while trying to hold on to one's sanity, gratitude etc. Trying to escape only makes it fester in other ways for me, so I figured it's best to be with the feelings now. Try to have a better Tuesday! xoxo