Thank you for your kind words, ladies.
I've accepted the fact that it didn't work, but I am raving mad at IVF NJ for not listening to me when I asked them to make sure everything was okay. I asked them :
A) About being tested for NK cells and whether that would interfere with implantation?
Answer - No, its not proven.
B) About PGS to make sure there were chromosomal abnormalities in the embryos, preventing them from attaching?
Answer - No, we don't do PGS, we only do PGD, which you don't need as neither of you are genetic carriers.
C) About HCG infusion at the time of transfer?
Answer - No, why add something else to the uterus that might prevent the embryos from attaching? Its still experimental and not advisable.
D) Endometriosis
Answer - No you don't have it
E) Testing for autoimmune disorders?
Answer - Not required, no evident symptoms.
F) Second lining check before embryo transfer in the FET cycle?
Answer - No, we only do one check before you start the progesterone. After that, we don't do lining checks.
G) Whether there were any other tests that might determine WHAT was causing the infertility? I have a family history of infertility, and in both cases, there were REASONS ; Blocked fallopian tubes in one case, and Hypothyroidism in the second case. What's my villain?
Today I called IVF NJ to schedule an appointment for follow up, and they want my husband to take a day off from work because the doctor isn't available during the holidays. He wants to celebrate thanksgiving, and its p*****g me off that after so many cycle failures, he would refuse to accommodate us outside his holiday schedule.
For what it's worth, I know that during the consult, he's going to blame me in some way as the reason why it didn't work, my eggs weren't good, I did something wrong, or whatever, but its not his fault.
I know its not an exact science, it takes time etc. but when you have good embryos, and in his own words, a "perfect uterus" why haven't either of the embies attaches, three times round???
When you know you tried something and failed, you don't live with the regret. Right now, I'm living in the what ifs of all the possible things that could have been done differently, and I ASKED him to do those and he shot me down.
I'm sorry for raving and ranting here, I wanted to put this up on the forum for anyone who ever considers IVF NJ, so that they know what they're getting into.
I'm in the process of scheduling a consultation with RMA NJ, and will see about switching my remaining three embies over to them.
seems like its the season to be heavily pregnant - hoping that if it is the 'season' then i'll be lucky on my next cycle 
