Aww I'm so sorry
it's ok for you to feel this way and someday soon, it WILL be you making this announcement!! Just hang in there, hon.
Beta is the blood test results. So my first hcg level was 220 the other day. They look for 70-100. you go back a few days later to see if things are progressing. I think they look for the number to double. I think I'll have one more after that, then a 6-week ultrasound. I think at that, they are checking to make sure the sac and yolk(baby) formed. I don't think we can see a heartbeat that early, though. Not sure what comes after that besides the 10-week scan and genetic tests.
And not really in shock, oddly enough. I don't know why!! Just chilling and getting used to the thought of 'pregnant' but not shocked. Content, blissful and scared as hell about having an actual BABY (as long as everything stays in good order!)