Evening ladies,
Trying to catch up on the goings on...
Wanting - increase in Beta is awesome! Congrats.
Hopeful Cat - will tentatively say congrats... really hope it is not the trigger.
Beneath - was going to say wait it out a bit longer. I had my BFP (under huge stress if you read back) on 8dp5dt. But if you have a faint positive then that is something to hold on to!!
Hope - Nearly PUPO! Awesome news.
TIFF - Wait it out... just a little longer!
AFM - Could not last until thursday and went from my third (and think last) Beta this morning. Progression results are as follows:
8DP5DT - 164
10DP5DT - 365
14DP5DT - 1 523
Yesterday should have been my first Beta but since i freaked out and testest earlier i almost feel cheated. Does that make sense? If i had waited until yesterday i would have been so excited to see those levels for my first test and then would have hopfully seen them go over 3 000 before the end of the week. I could go for another test this week but i dont think it will help me relax!
I am so happy about the increase in the levels but i can't allow myself to enjoy it! I am so freaked out about what could go wrong in the next few weeks. What if it is a blighted ovum when we go for our scan on the 20th? no monitoring of HCG levels could help in calming this fear and IT MIMICS A NORMAL PREGNANCY - even with doubling beta levels and other symptoms. How unfair is that?

So a i read that a BO is a result of chromosonal deficiencies and that has made me freak out more. We did not do the genetic testing before transfer as RE advised against it at this stage. We also went from 19 fertilsed embies to just 2 blasts! Does that mean the other 17 had abnormalities? And what are the chances that these 2 were the only ones that did not!
Oh my word i am F.R.E.A.K.I.N.G out!!!
This infertility roller coaster we are all on is so freakin' unfair. I wish i was blissfully unaware of absolutely everything that could go wrong the way so many other women are!! I decided to join the April 2016 babies board in the pregancy section - at the moment i am just silently stalking until i am certain of all of this - but it does not seem real without all my IVF/ICSI and fellow strugglers! Most of the women have been TTC for only a few months with very little of the angst we have all been through or are going through.
On a side - semi related note - I have no symptoms at all! Semi tender breasts (but nothing as bad as my PMS) and a few icky moments but could be down to anything. Not helping my anxiety levels.
For those with you BFP - when did the symptoms really start?