Warning: This is a ranting post
One word ... overwhelmed. Tonight was one of those nights .... where you are pulled in a thousand directions and every decision you make ends up being wrong. I got online to try and mellow my brain out. I can't seem to read Chloe's signals and she seems to have went from a semi-normal schedule to all out whenever. There are times she acts hungry ... chewing her hands and fussing and it has been 2-3 hours and she'll drink 3 swallows and fall asleep. If I wake her up, she drinks another 3 swallows and is asleep. Doesn't matter if she is naked or dressed. Then sometimes she will eat and an hour later eats just as much again.

It makes me feel like I don't know what is going on with her.
Tonight after DH left for work, both girls needed me at the same time and I couldn't be pulled both ways. We still haven't been out to get groceries and we are out of everything. We don't really want to take Chloe out anywhere because of all the cold and flu going around and her still being so little. DH is not a fan of grocery shopping alone not to mention he has little time between work and sleep. So it may be up to me to take the girls out ... eek scary though. lol!
This morning I woke up and noticed a weird rash spread around on me. As if the leaking and bleeding and swelling wasn't enough, now I have some mysterious rash in splotches all over me. I honestly feel like I am falling apart and my brain is scrambled.
I know there are going to be days like this. Especially while we get into the swing of things but when I finally get 2 seconds to sit down and all the days events wash over me, it is a little much. I am feeling a little like I am walking a tight rope and at any moment could fall off. I am very ready for things to settle down and mellow out a bit.
Sorry to rant on but I needed to get it all out. I definitely needed to lean on you ladies tonight.
On a good note, I have gone down 20 pounds but am still very swollen so I'm hoping that when the swelling finally leaves, it will take more weight off with it.
Btw ... CONGRATS Kaiecee, Brieri, and Deedee!!! Cetarari glad to hear that even though she was early everything was ok.
Aruppe glad to hear that he is feeling a bit better. They tend to like to give us gray hair and make us worry!
Betheney glad to hear of the wonderful weight gain on Remi and hope that the scan will bring some good news. Hopefully the large hole is just taking its time closing up.
I'm off to bed to try and get a little sleep and start tomorrow off better. Hope everyone is doing well!
