Journey to Your Number One?

[MissCloud]

Hi everybody

So, with all the trying and calculating and dreaming of that first happy miracle, I have found that it can get a bit tiring to keep hoping for something this big.

I wanted to start a thread for all of us trying for baby number one.... something to keep reminding me (and all of us) of what all our efforts are for.

Please feel free to share your journey so far - maybe by knowing all the different stories of all of you I may feel like this big dream is something that connects us all in some way.

Keep it as short as you can (difficult, I know!)... think of the positives in your journey. And tell me what you wish for most from your first pregnancy dreams.

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Here's mine:

My boyfriend and I have been together for 3 years. He is 30, I am 25. We have been trying for our first for 15 months now.
We had one BFP last year, but unfortunately I miscarried. I also lost a pregnancy when I was younger.

We are ready to start a family now, although money is tight and we are hoping to move soon. Our house is just going through the last stages of selling, and maybe in a few weeks we will be able to get back to the other side of the country, where both of our families are.

Even though there is this big turmoil ahead, and we haven't finalised plans for new jobs etc, I am still hoping that I may get a BFP soon.... I believe that we are ready to start our family, and whatever difficulties we may face in the future, the sooner we get that first child the better.

I want to be a mother so desperately. I believe whole-heartedly that not only is it something I will be good at, but that it is a role in life for which I am designed. I want cuddles and love, and also the hard work that comes with being a parent. It feels like motherhood would fit so perfectly in to my soul.

Ultimately the number of children we want fluctuates... he wants 2, I would like 4.... but as long as we have at least one I would be happy. Gender is unimportant (although I secretly would be delighted to have a girl!).... but mostly I want them to be healthy.

Trying for this long is harder than I thought it would be.... 15 cycles of trying. But ultimately I still believe that it is worth fighting for.... and, as we have no evidence that there is anything physically wrong with either of us, we just have to keep going.

The one thing I am holding on to is the hope that one day I will be able to hold my first child in my arms. That image in my head puts a grin on my face, even if my heart slightly aches because it hasn't happened yet.

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So now it's your turn.... tell me your story!

With love

xx

 

[csto]

My husband and I have been married for 5 years (on Halloween). I'm 25, he's 27, 28 in 1 month exactly. I was diagnosed with PCOS in 2011 after 2+ years without a cycle. A lack of insurance and an unhealthy amount of fear kept me from going to the doctor, but I finally did, even though I already knew what the diagnosis would be.

I have been pregnant twice, but unfortunately both ended too soon, once as a chemical pregnancy and the other a miscarriage at 5 weeks. It was extremely trying, and we were of course heartbroken. But the positive thing is that hubby's sperm is healthy (YAY) and I know that I CAN get pregnant, despite PCOS. And I know for sure the reason I lost my babies now, was a severe progesterone deficiency. That's a fairly simple fix, and I have confidence that we will have a baby soon. I'm working on getting my cycles regulated, and we'll start trying again within about a month.


Thanks for sharing your story! I also have hope that one day I'll hold my rainbow baby and I'll get to tell him/her how much we wanted them.