July Firecrackers 2018

[Livvy]

Hey ladies, I haven’t posted in a while. Been struggling some at home with my two littles, and also kind of feeling unwelcome in this group as seems I’m the only one who didn’t want this baby. A lot of emotions for me to work through. Hope I come out of it soon, I’m tired of being down.

Had my first appointment today and they sent me down for an ultrasound while I was there. Everything looked good, baby’s hr was 157 and I measured 7+6 which ironically was exactly what I thought I was! If only they would listen to me, ha.

 

[BabyBrain80]

Oh Livvy! Please dont feel down and you are so very welcome here I had actually forgotten you saying baby was a surprise and how you felt. You can be completely honest here ok? X
I have my doubts sometimes that Im doing the right thing and I tried for this baby, so I can understand you feeling so mixed up at an unplanned pregnany. Im sure we all can. Xxx

Thanks ladies, Im a nervous wreck. Im in the bathroom every 5 mins checking . Thankfully nothing else since 11am (its now 6.20pm) so fingers crossed. Its awful x

 

[Alligator]

Sorry you feel unwelcome, livvy. That's certainly not our intention, I'm sure. I can only imagine it's tough to do pregnancy when it wasn't planned/wanted. I feel miserable enough as it is and this is something DH and I definitely wanted, and it's tough enough on me mentally and physically. Hugs.

 

[Buffyx]

Im sorry you feel that way Livvy! I actually had forgotten you said that too, about having not wanted this baby. So obviously none of us were too phased by that comment

We tried for 5 months for this baby, which was a lot longer than any of our other previous attempts with our kids, and I honestly question myself every day. We will need to move house. We will need to figure out something with our car because Im unsure that we can fit 3 car seats. 3 under 3?! Are we crazy! Dont worry - we arent here to judge you.

Babybrain - that is great. Hopefully it stays away!!

 

[Livvy]

Aww.. thanks ladies! I’m glad I opened up about how I was feeling. I didn’t want to sound bratty, just really been struggling lately. I am 100% sure I will want and be head over heels with this baby later on, but it just isn’t the case right now. And although I do feel guilty because others in here wanted their babies so badly and lost them, I’m trying to give myself space to feel how I feel. Babybrain please keep us posted! Hope everything is just fine.

 

[BabyBrain80]

Thanks Livvy, I feel sick with worry, not even out of bed yet and scared to go to the loo! Scan in 2hrs 45mins!

Im glad you said how you felt. This part of pregnancy is a bit crap regardless and I hope you feel a bit better as your bump grows. Its hard too when you have young children. We are all here if you need a moan xx

 

[glong88]

Thanks Livvy, I feel sick with worry, not even out of bed yet and scared to go to the loo! Scan in 2hrs 45mins!

Im glad you said how you felt. This part of pregnancy is a bit crap regardless and I hope you feel a bit better as your bump grows. Its hard too when you have young children. We are all here if you need a moan xx

Hope all goes well xxx thinking of you

 

[glong88]

I'm 6w 5d todsy based on early scan last week. Started to feel a little sick. Ramzi theory says another boy for me, anyone done it and been wrong? I was hoping for a girl to add to my 2 little boys x

 

[Buffyx]

Good luck today babybrain! How long til scan? Its 630pm Wednesday here, so all a bit confusing!

 

[BabyBrain80]

Buffy, looks like your 6.30pm wed is my 7.30am Wed. Scan is at 10am....so 9pm your time? Will let you all know asap. Everything is ok at the moment, still no more spotting but every twinge or ache has me worried. Speak soon and thanks ladies xxx

 

[Buffyx]

Im about to see a movie, so will be finished when youre going in for your scan. I will be sure to check how things went when im done

Glong - I know nothing about any of the theories..but i think they are silly I hope you get your girl.

 

[BabyBrain80]

Well not the best news...
Baby is measuring around 6weeks (I should be over 7weeks) but there is a heart beat. But there is also a large haematoma. Ive to keep my scan appointment for tuesday and see if anything has changed. Im not having any bleeding at the moment. Anyone else have experience like this? Xx

 

[Buffyx]

Well not the best news...
Baby is measuring around 6weeks (I should be over 7weeks) but there is a heart beat. But there is also a large haematoma. Ive to keep my scan appointment for tuesday and see if anything has changed. Im not having any bleeding at the moment. Anyone else have experience like this? Xx

Im sorry it wasnt better news. It is very frustrating that you are still in limbo, despite the scan. Do you know what the heart rate was?

 

[glong88]

Could your dates be wrong?

Did the scanner seem concerned

 

[BabyBrain80]

My dates cant be too far off, I used opks so had an idea when i ovulated. My cycle had been quite regular past few months too. She said they can be wrong sometimes. Yhe leaflet she gave me said they csn sometimes be a week out depending on the scanning machine.

No unfortunatly I dont know heart rate but saw it flickering away. Yeah she is concerned but trying to stay positive. Scan on Tues will provide more info i guess. But its a threatened miscarraige and nothing I can do but wait and cross my fingers. I dont think we are supposed to have baby no 3 x

 

[glong88]

Awww I'm so sorry, surely that there was a heartbeat is a good thing though? Baby is ok at the moment?

I had my early scan, as giving we only dtd once the whole month I no excatly where i should of been, my scan put me back 4days

 

[BabyBrain80]

Yes at the moment they say a heart beat is a good sign, lessens the chance of mc but Im worried about this haematoma and I can hope we were both a couple of days out. X

 

[TexMel]

Sorry I've been away a couple of days with work!

Babybrain, I am so sorry you are right back in limbo. I pray for you and your family as you wait until the next scan and hopefully get some answers. I know at this stage even a fraction of a mm during the scan can change their measurements, so hopefully they were just a little bit off. A heartbeat sure sounds like a great sign.

Livvy, I too had forgotten you had said that, but there is absolutely no judgement here!! We were trying for this one and I kind of question my sanity regarding that decision almost daily, as my firstborn acts crazy. In fact, he got sent home early from his preschool yesterday for behavior issues and my husband and I were both instantly like "why did we think doing this again was a good idea?"

I am trying to come to terms with the fact that I am feeling like I'm having another boy. By this time with #1, I just knew in my soul it was a boy and I was right. I thought the first few weeks this one could be a girl, but I woke up a couple days ago with another strong feeling it is a boy again. I may shed a tear when it is confirmed, but I know I'll be ok eventually. Glad we saved everything from DS1!

 

[Alligator]

Babybrain I’m sorry the scan didn’t provide reassurance. I agree a heartbeat is a very good sign and measurements can just be a little off. Maybe you just have a smaller babe! Sending prayers and hugs your way. Take it easy.

 

[BabyBrain80]

Here is a scan pic, you can see 3 dark pockets. Middle one is babies sac and you can make out the round yolk sac. Left and right are haematoma....I think it is one large haematoma right along behind.