just need a ikkle huggle

[melly4390]

im so up and down at the minute one min i think yeah im ok i can do this then the nxt something happens and although i hate to admit it i guess i miss him but im not sure its him i miss as he was a twat or if its just someone
i no i can do this as i was one my own with my daughter for 10 yrs before we got together but im having a wobble and a worry what if i get another reflux child can i really look after 2 reflux kids on my own, can i really go through the nites that i dare not go to sleep incase my baby chokes and stops breathing again or the trips to the hospital due to chest infections, how can i hold down a job if i get another reflux child or even not wot am i goin to do this time i dont drive never learnt due to daughters reflux being worse when traveling and she can stop breathing cos of choking so i cudnt be in a car driving on my own with her.
HE is an arse we both wanted this child he knew how worried i was about havin to ill children and now he has gone and im left to live with it. i mean i may be lucky and pip could be fine im hoping im worrying over nothing

wot i need to be doin is pickin myself up and looking at the gorg girl ive got and my baby on the way and thanking god for giving me 2 gorg children i no that but its hard i just want to poke his eyes out with a dirty stick and ram them down his stinkin neck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway sorry ladies i will go cry into a loo roll and pull myself together again and carry on lol cos when all is said and done i do have a gud life and wouldnt change it wotever my kids may or may not have thier mine and only mine and i love them more than life its self

 

[teal]

Sending you hugs

I was up and down worrying throughout my pregnancy and even now I still have those days. I'm sure you're going to be absolutely fine xx

 

[Mally01]

You'll be fine hun. You are probably having a bad day and things will get better. My perspective on everything changed yesterday when I saw my baby on the scan. Makes you realise how focused you are /will be on your kids and the man can go jump off a cliff as he is just not important anymore.

People say on here a lot 'his loss' and trust me, that is so, so true of all these guys. In the long run we don't lose out at all as we get over the idiots in the end and we have our lovely babies. They have nothing (lost a woman who loved them and a kid who would have loved them) and a crap conscience all their lives.

 

[Laura2919]

I think its just fear making you want him back.

At the very beginning I could have easily taken FOB back but thats because the change was scary and I worried how I would do it on my own. But I am here and in a better routine than ever before. You will be ok. You managed it before, you can manage it again be strong and remember why your here