...katie...????????????????????

[ashiozz]

Emerald, thats a cute outfit but it isnt quite Tylers style so I wont snag it

Mine doesn't fit in NB clothes anymore, and I'm pretty sure yours never did.

Straight to 0-3 and now we're getting into 3-6 month 0.o .... he grows like a damn weed, Lia.

 

[Menelly]

Emerald, thats a cute outfit but it isnt quite Tylers style so I wont snag it

Mine doesn't fit in NB clothes anymore, and I'm pretty sure yours never did.

Straight to 0-3 and now we're getting into 3-6 month 0.o .... he grows like a damn weed, Lia.

I had to pack up all Kesslie's NB stuff and cried as I did so. They grow so fast.

I hope you get some sleep! Kesslie slept 6 hours STRAIGHT! for me last night. It would have been bliss, but I woke up 3 times going "are you OK? <check for breathing>" Ack, to be able to sleep without worry. I will be so glad when the 2-4 month "major SIDS risk" months are over. (Something like 85% of SIDS cases are between 2 & 4 months old.)

On that note, she's asleep again so I'm going back to sleep. G'night all.

 

[ashiozz]

My grandma lost one child to sids and one of her twins got rushed to the hospital not breathing so Im paranoid about sids too... ><

I was on an apnea monitor as a baby until 3 mos old, too, and it went off a few times =/ My parents freaked out a lot when that was gone..

I got Tyler one of those movement monitors, hopefully its helpful

 

[ashiozz]

Tylers sleeping again, Im going to try to get more sleep. Im starting to feel that resentment they talk about women feeling for men. I know yesterday he said something when I asked him to change a diaper like "I work!" and I nearly lost it. I don't work? Im home 24/7 sleep deprived making sure his son is taken care of.. I Dont get weekends, I cant stop taking care of Tyler at 4pm and say "Well the rest can wait til tomorrow" .. I cant leave the house and just get away from the screaming for 8 hrs a day. When I told him that he acted like I must hate our son, and I tried explaining its not that I dont love him, I do, that's why I do all I do for him, but that doesnt mean I dont need help or breaks or at least someone there to suffer through it with me. I feel isolated and alone a lot of the time, and Im handling it okay, Im pretty tough, but it's irritating that he doesn't understand.. and if I was the one who brought up having kids, and he was reluctant, I'd understand more.. but HE brought up children... this was his idea... I waited for him to mention it.. actually for a long time I said I never wanted children, but I love Tyler and I wouldn't take him back for anything, I just want his father to be more involved..

He was AMAZING right after Tyler was born and right after my surgery, but as time goes on he's going downhill. He tells me to tell him when I want him to do more, but I don't want to be bitch wife.. I want him to want to take care of his son.


I feel stressed and I Don't feel like I have my rock to talk to =/ because my rock = the issue ... and that never has happened in our relationship, so it's new and I need to learn how to better deal.

I feel like an awful ungrateful person, Mitch has a lot of great qualities but lately his desire to take care of his son hasn't really been there =/ and I kind of wonder if hes going through the same thing I am, the baby blues stuff.. I dont take it out on Ty, but Im not sure he knows how to deal with feelings or recognise that hes got them..

Blah sorry about that. I needed to get it out.

 

[gigglebox]

ash, i could have written everything you just did. in fact, i think i did! but i can't find it.

after the first sleepless nights, never did des make me feel depressed or angryt; it was all hubs. we even got in a fight and i told him i was starting to resent him. i don't know what chaNGED BUT SUDDENLY HE GOT HELPFUL AGAIN. I THINK (shit, caps) it's been since he has stopped the crying for every need stage. now he whines...and the smiling helps too.

but i think the big thing was being away from himfor the weekend. i think absence really made his heart grow fonder.

ok, this is terrible, but start milking your pain. tell him how terrible your back feels.

 

[Menelly]

Oh, I could have written that too... and I feel bad feeling that way cause I read these stories in Baby Club of women married to men who fucking suck ass and never do jack shit, and I go "I can't whine, at least it isn't that bad..."

But when he comes home, spends 20 min with her, and then spends hours on Reddit or Diablo 3, I want to scream. I don't want to have to say "hon, I haven't gotten a shower in 2 days, can you watch her?" I don't want to have to say "it's your turn to change her diaper." I want him to NOTICE she needs a diaper change and a bath and TAKE CARE OF IT like I'm expected to. No one tells me "btw, she needs a diaper change" I pay attention and do my job. So why does he need a damn notice? Why can't he say "I know you really haven't gotten a break in days, why don't you go enjoy a hot bath?" Instead, I burst into tears cause I'm so tired.

And if he says ONE MORE FUCKING TIME that "at least you got good sleep" I might actually stab him with a fork. Just because HE doesn't wake up doesn't mean *I'm* not waking up. He's like "but she slept all night!" Uh, no. No she did not. We woke up 5 times and rolled over and swapped boobs and fussed and kicked and punched me. You just slept thru it. That is NOT GOOD SLEEP.

Grr.

But at the same point, I feel so bad whining cause he will change her when I point out its his turn, if I ask for a break for a hot bath he'll do it, if I ask him to entertain her for a few so I can relax, he'll do it. I'm just annoyed at the complete lack of... what's the word? Motivation is wrong... but you know, annoyed at him not noticing what needs to be done and just DOING it. Why do men always have to be asked to do what's fucking obvious?

 

[..katie..]

i need this child to sleep. I need him to. He wants to be held. i was an idiot and let him sleep all day yesterday so he only got three hours last night and he's been up all day and if i put him down he fusses but he's okay if i hold him.

i need him to sleep because I need to eat something and i need to pee and i need to shower and brush my teeth and put away dishes and smoke a fucking cigarette


dfgjhfhf gb

 

[gigglebox]

chill baby will be fine sitting in a bouncy chair while you eat and/or pee. PUT THE BABY DOWN.

 

[gigglebox]

carefirst sales 800-544-8703 (for my own reference--i don't have paper or pen in reach)

fml, insurance SUCKS. i am going to have to go back full time at this rate.

Q___Q

 

[Emerald87]

emerald, do you always have bad skin or are pregnancy hormones wreaking havoc on your body? i always had not so great skin on my face (my dad had horrible acne in his puberty, then my mom got adult acne, and all us kids got a mix of both), but it wasn't until pregnancy that i started breaking out on my back. it went away after birth.



emerald, i don't think i've ever been so excited to hear about someone elses cervix! wait, that's not true...it got quite exciting around here when katie & ash were close to birth. is the fear that the contractions are dilating you?

Naw, my face is usually great. My back on the other hand has always been a bother.

My appointment is in 3 hours. I'll tell you all about my cervix, placenta and amniotic fluids IN DETAIL

EDIT: Yeh, exactly what Ash said. Since I'm feeling them, he's uber worried I'm actually dilating and not just getting regular non-dilating BHs

 

[Emerald87]

******************HUGS*********************
To all of you. I'm off to work; the leaving at around 9.45, scan at 10.30, back to work then leaving again to travel an hour down to my university campus for a pre-exam lecture

 

[ashiozz]

HAVE FUN...

Laura and Lia, Thank you for telling me youre going through it too.. I do feel bad ranting about it when it really isn't as bad as some men are. He will watch him if I ask for a break, which I did when he woke up. I told him I was jealous of his sleep. He told me to go take a nap. I need a shower in a few, havent had one in 2 days either ... I woke up and asked how Tyler was, he said he slept the whole time I did.. DAMNIT WHY!

Oh well, least we both got a nap and I Got to sleep in my normal bed for a bit.

 

[ashiozz]

Hmm my child hates vibration chair.. he likes the miniswing part of my space saving swing and seat, it does both, thank god, otherwise itd be a waste. Katie did you try putting him on the dryer in his carseat? it simulates a car ride.. car rides put tyler RIGHT To sleep.. might help?

 

[Emerald87]

Cervix poking time!

Shame colin can't make it to see our kaida bean

 

[ashiozz]

Aw =( .. let us know!!!!!!

Im sure all is fine and youre just sensitive.. Although sometimes with an irritable uterus you might be on bed rest at some point =/ so I hope it isnt TOO bad.

 

[Emerald87]

I'm keeping my hopes high for once in this pregnancy I'm completely relaxed

Apart from sitting here with a full bladder

 

[ashiozz]

i hated ultrssounds before 25 wks for that reason

 

[Emerald87]

I dont like your signature. It doesn't give you enough credit - you didn't just try an induction, you had a 3 day labour!! Uninformed people may think the induction didn't start anything

 

[ashiozz]

hmm.. ok let me fix.

 

[..katie..]

hardcore mommy, hell yeah.