Its finaly happend
Coby was jumping n the sofa next to me while i was holding Adam, Coby fell and elbowed Adam in the head....Adam wasnt badly hgurt or anything but he did cry alot and i had the bigest rush of feelings go through me, love, protectiveness, etc etc
Since then i love him so much, my little ginger ninja hehe
i look at him now and cant belive i didnt feel anything and that it took him to get hurt before it all kicked in, better late than never tho i guess.
Emotion wize im much happier, i am going to refuse counciling now, i really dont think i had PND, if i did have it then i defo dont have it now, i managed to pull myself out of it myself.
We go out alot dureing the days, lots of toddler groups and long walks so i still wont be on much but im about and happy
Thanks everyone for your suport
xx